spurred on by pings comment
ya its been a while since ive written anything
exams are over (:
and i am (i hope) officially 2/5th the way into medical school (:
assuming that i ve passed this exam :|
knew that med school would be tiring,
but the period leading up to exams was crazy
adrenaline kept me going i think
so immediately after exams were over, i crashed.
am writing this in bed even,
cuz all i ve felt is odynophagia, rhinitis and the runs.
whee.
lots of things have happened since i ve last posted this
and its an inevitable part of growing up
that you experience things, you gain some, you lose some
and at the end of the day, you change.
nobody remains static their whole life
and this being away from home is merely accelerating the changes
that i would have to experience anyway.
to learn more about what people expect from you
and how much to expect from people in general (very little that is)
what sort of person would make a true-er friend
and which are the ones you merely say hi bye and make 2 minute conversations with.
it never ceases to amaze me how much some people love me
like bec and mel. i dont really see much of them in school,
i dont talk much to them,
but at the end of the day, it really amazes me
how much concern they have for me
and how much love they shower on me.
and those always have a reserved spot in my heart.
this whole trip (is 2 years considered a "trip"?)
i ve learnt the hard way
that what you give,
is rarely what you get in return.
ideally you would give without hoping for anything in return
but for me, once i give in friendship,
it means i have taken you into my heart
and that unfortunately does mean some form of expectations,
like it or not.
mummy says all my friends are weirdos
(with reference to people here in oz, haha those in singapore are less weird apparently :P)
haha but i guess its hard for her to understand as well,
because, ultimately people are looking out for themselves,
too busy to see things around them.
ya there definitely exists people who go out of their way to help others
to make sure that everyone is well,
but those people, even when they are present,
are far outnumbered by those who take these people for granted,
who take advantage of these people.
sadly, yes i have become more cynical of people and their motivations
but after thinking the best of people all the time,
and realizing that it is not necessarily true,
wouldnt you too question your belief and take a peek from the other side?
oh wells,
i ll be fine.
anyway on the other hand, exams are finally over
clinicals start next year
dunno whether to feel excited or horrified.
looking at the amount of knowledge i have now,
im definitely more horrified than excited.
howwwwwwwwww on earth am i going to reach the level of competence required?
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
other highlights of this holidays:
going to vellore, india! :)
going on a hospital attachment stint there
and they have regular weekend vacc camps in the rural areas
should be fun to see! :)
and maybe an attachment in TTSH as well ohwellz. :)
moving house is a pain in the butt
have never realized how much clothes i own till now
(revelation once a year :D) haha
should start selling some i dont wear off on ebay :P
shopping has been unrestrained this year
should stop soon.
but then again they re going markets tmr.
hee. i think i may buy something :P
maxi dresses are my new fav
cuz it hides hips well HAHA. oops.
i now own 3. no wait. 4. HAHA.
oops.
would be really heartbroken next year when people move away
why are the hospitals all spaced so far apart
and why ): why are my friends all leaving to the city ):
and and and.
thank you for being there :)
and since its nearing the end of the year,
a list of special people to be especially thankful for :D
anna.kevin.beow.bernard.tim(domo).yowie.kia.melvin.
for being there when i needed someone.
for knowing when i needed someone.
for being yourself and no one else :)
