Friday, December 25, 2009 ©~jUn²珺☆
actually actually actually i think
im starting to miss you.
and i really hate being in my shoes right now. ):
Tuesday, December 22, 2009 ©~jUn²珺☆
sunday night went for the performance outside paragon by tommy's church
i really really really like the people at his church
the atmosphere there s like a huge family,
a place where people
belong.
and i guess im pretty jealous of that fact
but really heartwarming (:
and worth being a lightbulb the entire night too.
dearest worm,
you say how i helped you through that tough period
but last night your letter
really pulled me through
(:
thanks worm.
wont have made it without you.
i keep being angry at other people
but what right do i have to be angry
when i dont know?
i think i should control my emotions.
speaking of which
everything has changed
since coming back to singapore
such that i dont know what to do anymore.
Saturday, December 12, 2009 ©~jUn²珺☆
how true
"We all have the potential to fall in love a thousand times in our lifetime. It's easy. The first girl I ever loved was someone I knew in sixth grade. Her name was Missy; we talked about horses. The last girl I love will be someone I haven't even met yet, probably. They all count. But there are certain people you love who do something else; they define how you classify what love is supposed to feel like. These are the most important people in your life, and you’ll meet maybe four or five of these people over the span of 80 years. But there’s still one more tier to all this; there is always one person you love who becomes that definition. It usually happens retrospectively, but it happens eventually. This is the person who unknowingly sets the template for what you will always love about other people, even if some of these loveable qualities are self-destructive and unreasonable. The person who defines your understanding of love is not inherently different than anyone else, and they’re often just the person you happen to meet the first time you really, really, want to love someone. But that person still wins. They win, and you lose. Because for the rest of your life, they will control how you feel about everyone else."
—
Chuck Klosterman (
Killing Yourself to Live: 85% of a True Story)
"Every relationship is fundamentally a power struggle, and the individual in power is whoever likes the other person less."
—
Chuck Klosterman (
Sex, Drugs, and Cocoa Puffs: A Low Culture Manifesto)
"People who talk about their dreams are actually trying to tell you things about themselves they’d never admit in normal conversation."
—
Chuck Klosterman
Thursday, December 10, 2009 ©~jUn²珺☆
"You'll Be In My Heart" Come stop your crying
It will be all right
Just take my hand Hold it tight
I will protect you
from all around you
I will be here
Don't you cry
For one so small,
you seem so strong
My arms will hold you,
keep you safe and warm
This bond between us
Can't be broken
I will be here
Don't you cry
'Cause you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more
You'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be here in my heart, always
Why can't they understand
the way we feel
They just don't trust
what they can't explain
I know we're different but,
deep inside us
We're not that different at all
And you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more
Don't listen to them
'Cause what do they know
We need each other,
to have, to hold
They'll see in time
I know
When destiny calls you
You must be strong
I may not be with you
But you've got to hold on
They'll see in time
I know
We'll show them together
'Cause you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on,
Now and forever more
Oh, you'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be in my heart, always
Always
to find someone who knows me well enough
to know when i need this kind of ken ding
Wednesday, December 09, 2009 ©~jUn²珺☆
emo.tomato.potato.dorito.burrito.toes:D
life really is hard sometimes eh.
luckily we re only living it through once.
were we close?
yea i thought so too.
asking hurt more than just letting it fester.
its funny how these things haunt you.
it just takes hold and doesnt let go.
even though you think you ve buried it and let it go.
so why am i still upset.
its making me someone i am not
and i hate myself every minute of the way.
luckily we only live once.
today i saw 4 girls on the MRT
comparing their slash wounds
to me it came as a shock that
being friends with each other
you would not look out for one another
and discourage each other from self harm
but instead compare it as you would battle scars
nothing should matter as much as your own body
and self mutilation only hurts yourself and people who care
i felt like slapping some sense into them
it just isnt right
its funny how some people just dont care
look at how im being judgemental though
they re inflicting harm on themselves
so that other people would notice
in the end it comes back to how others regard you
and how others treat you
and isnt that whats plaguing me now?
at the end of the day
even if im not using the same methods
arent my thoughts still the same as theirs?
"why dont they care?"
i think there s something wrong
