Monday, June 30, 2008 ©~jUn²珺☆
ironic
i find it funny that i used to be a super early bird
slping early
waking early
if my light was still on after 11,
xiaohui ll prolly sms me or remark to me in school
(the privilege of being my devoted stalker)
if i was online after 11,
tommy would doubt who the person talking was.
but nowadays
(actually after starting work)
sleeping at 12 is like the norm
tho i still cant find it within myself to wake after 9 -_-
just now nigel remarked that i slpt early last night
and it was 11 plus. oh wells.
i USED to be an early bird.
slpt early
to drag myself up this morn to run
ran at 7
came back ard 8
ate breakfast by 830
then went back to laze in bed
and promptly woke up at 1130 instead.
gosh.
i guess this much thinking wears me out.
SENTOSA tmr!(:
HIGH!!!(: hehe.
lets get sunburnt again!
cuz now there s no more pings morote! lol.
that unfortunate encounter:
sunburn + gi + morote + icepacks D:
i find it funny
that everyone wants to talk to me today(:
feels popular haha.
misses everyone.
Sunday, June 29, 2008 ©~jUn²珺☆
I LOVE NY!(:
haha was so sad cuz i missed qianzhi yesterday
on the train BACK FROM CCK
received a call from her
-_- and promptly went back to CCK after i reached chinesegarden
farewell dinner leh!
how come they all have i dont have D:
haha stood outside NYNY spastically
with tall people(: lol poor qianzhi
and we the monochromatics(:
me kia qian yihan
yeay ate NYNY but no stomach for desserts D:
haha and seriously qianzhi has an elastic stomach
but kia has a storeroom -.-
lol and yihan s not a guy.
shhhhhhh! "actually i am a guy! *changes face*" -kia
lollollol.
eating dinner is dangerous
*choking hazard*
pls do not eat dinner with these people
(rena included)
will choke on all kinds of food: solid or otherwise.
haha *laughing hazard* loh!
so conclusion: hawaiian teriyaki chix chop s nice
and burgers rnt nice!
so fun to go out with darling people(:
and laugh laugh laugh
forgets all troubles(:
LETS GO TO THE ZOO NEXT!
seriously no one wants to go to the zoo with me D:
im sadded.
Saturday, June 28, 2008 ©~jUn²珺☆
i guess after all those feelings,
all that's left is just
emptiness.
why did i choose it in the first place?
like uh 2+ years ago?
or did i even get a choice?
©~jUn²珺☆
feels stupid
OF ALL THE DAYS TO CHOOSE
WHY DID I CHOOSE 16TH OF JULY
WITHOUT REALISING?!?!?!
feels stupid.
odemohhhhhhhh D:
Absolute Boyfriend has the namba senpai from hanakimi(:
haha and Night Tenjo is (:
and 02 is Akira from hanayoridango(:
sad no oguri haha.
but Night has a killer smile.
senpaiiiiiii haha is short.
Thursday, June 26, 2008 ©~jUn²珺☆
EOA day
even though i always get shot at
cuz i dint get an attachment
i dint go work in a hospita/clinic
but i really dont regret working at just ed
knowing these special people
who made these 5 months so much more bearable and enjoyable
yesterday was EOA day
dint do much but made more friends
~to get to know more people
eg like abigail/gareth haha i know them by face and by voice
but they went around matching voices to faces
cuz we ve conversed by phone/email
but didnt really have a chance to see each other
cuz the EOA trainings have been quite rushed.
~to find little things to get touched by
like agnes' unexpected message
like the unexpected presents from the company
and from lizhen/peiling
the bball "training" from ruilin
the sudden
殷勤 温情 from kia roseline and rena
the laughter we shared the whole way there and games we played
our "getting there gang"
jerene yihan supeng engsoon
i guess its a day to remember.
the heaps of food eugenia they all took so long to prepare
the huge aloha bungalow
the live karaoke setup moved from HQ
(lol zizhao suggested tt the aircon also moved from HQ-_-)
the simple enjoyment of just being there
even if you dont know these people
by face or even by name,
u can just strike up a conversation
because you guys have something in common.
(like not wanting to burn the chicken wings for instance)
quite envious of the JE people for having a JE-outfit
haha gombak shld get one too(:
pink! hahaha. joking.
but they had superb planning as seen from the overhead shelter they brought out when it started raining O_O to put over the pit. wah impressed.
as opposed to that time at our chalet
when it started to rain
we moved the pit under the jutting roof
and people inside the room got smoked._.
just felt quite lost
that im ending my first job
and knowing that i will miss these people for ages to go
people who have been so dear and so tolerant of this little kid who still sulks/complains and acts cute in front of them
its been easy to sink into the xiao meimei role in front of all these people
rena jerene adeline regina meiling peiling ken khengwah yihan supeng wanqi enoch
being the littlest in the group certainly has some benefits
but even saying so
i realise that i have grown quite abit
and just has taught me alot these few months
for one im more independent and confident than the girl who just graduated from hwachong.
and i have everyone to thank(:
rawr i m known to be a watering pot
but surprisingly yesterday the pot didnt overflow
maybe cuz things were quite rushed
(to catch the last shuttle home)
and it was too crowded to talk much.
ALL THOSE KIDDIES ARE SO KAWAII!
haha.
©~jUn²珺☆
the purpose?
why should my worth be judged by someone else?
why should my ability to do something be doubted by people who know me all of 30 minutes?
30 minutes into a conversation with someone,
can you tell me that you know everything, every single aspect of that person's personality, what the person has gone through in this life and what said person is able to achieve in future endeavors?
if no, why should you have the power to judge that person
because of how he/she acted in that miserly 30 minutes?
why should his/her life then be dependent on that 30 minutes spent in your presence?
why am i always seeking other people s approval of myself
when i know that in the end i wont get it?
why am i seeking for their approval
when i shouldnt need it in the first place?
why should i have someone else's approval to lead my own life?
and why does other's approval mean so much to me?
i live a life of contradictions apparently.
but then i realise that everyone s seeking approval from others
in their own ways.
and most people are on their own road to self-discovery.
maybe one day enlightenment will dawn
and we will find out who we are
and why we are here.
there must be a reason for our presence.
that was the first conscious thought i remember from childhood:
"who am i and why am i here?"
18 years and 10 months later,
im still asking that question.
ironic huh.
so exactly how long does it take to reach self-actualization?
rawr to my 2 blisters.
i hate court shoes.
to fill my own calender(:
and im waiting for reply from the CAS!(:
maybe me and xiuyi will apply to go volunteer at SPCA(:
see wonderfully cute animals.
animals are always easier to get along with than people,
cuz they trust easier.
and it helps that they re so awfully cuddly(:
i realize that i really really reaaally like this blog background
and my posts have turned monochromatic
Tuesday, June 24, 2008 ©~jUn²珺☆
popcorn+cockroach -.-
AHHHHHHHHHHHH
genting trip!(:
yay finally someone to play rollercoaster with me(:
and and and the swing one!!!(: love
Monday, June 23, 2008 ©~jUn²珺☆
死性不改
it doesnt take much these days
to reduce me to a sopping mess
and im really wondering why
is it just cuz she s reminded me again
is it cuz of all these uncertainties
is it cuz of myself failing myself on so many fronts
i really cant put my finger on a single reason.
such that now i feel okay most of the time
but not okay the other most of the time
(prolly have to revisit my english since most + most is >100% of the time)
so what is that feeling?
is it the old socks feeling
or would it be the earthshattering kind?
if im right on this
at least i can start on the "treatment plan"
再见了我的宠爱
谁愿接受这种意外
你赞我天生可爱
不愿看着我离开
同伴也话我傻
喜欢受挫 宁愿情敌在伤我
人天生根本都不可以爱死身边的一个
无奈你最够刺激我
凡事也治倒我
几多黑心的教唆 我亦捱得过
来煽风来点火 就击倒我么
谁恋爱就多障碍
死性我不想改
如我没有你的爱 我没法活得来
情人的存在是我从来都志在
能在我拱手让爱
我怕可一不可再
难道你被爱都有害
我确信天真不会错
威力会移山填海
同伴也话我傻喜欢受挫
宁愿情敌在伤我
adeline's love for this song
rubbed off me(:
learning it now(:
trying hard to learn the pronunciation
(actually, memorize)
i can do it too!
just like i learnt first love and the korean songs from goong
rawr. i can.
Sunday, June 22, 2008 ©~jUn²珺☆
toopid!
to fill my weeks again! haha
after rotting at home
actually resting luh but still(:
CHALET(:
and kbox before that!
hopefully
so many ppl cant go D: D: D:
rawr and DONT want hMph. rawr
yay and there s BBQ!
haha i like to toast my marshmallows! until they re golden brown
and toss others' into the charcoal!
(lol they shld rmbr)
yumyum! hope there is! or maybe i can go buy!
mao mao pai!(: hehe.
ooh and start fire! lol.
charcoal faces!
MORE CHALETS PLS!
haha and today we went to labrador park
thinking it ll be linked up to the walkway
in the end spent so much time walking around and getting lost
(its a family trait lol)
but we saw a cute squirrel!(: haha sniffing around
albeit with an lavatory brush tail -_-
actually it also resembles the testtube brush in the lab.
and i think we saw a monkey too!
tho it flashed by pretty fast
or was it another squirrel.
it dumped buckets of dew/water on us -_-
HAHA and we re going to go watch brokeback soOn!
lao xiu finally found her DVD/VCD whichever it is
(: (: (: hahaha. the last of our gay movie spree!
yeay!(: hehe.
to find something to do!(: and occupy my time!(:
make my life meaningful
so that i dont think so much.
dont ask me why i dont know.
Friday, June 20, 2008 ©~jUn²珺☆
LOVE!(:
went shopping today(:
and busted another near 100 bucks buying a wallet for daddy
but its worth it(: haha
but guys wallet so limited in design D:
haiz but i still think my yan guang not bad(:
afterward went to gombak
thot qianzhi last day! in the end fake last day as well
lol haha even tho we all quit we re all still going back to help lol.
everyone loves majun(: haha
cheered up loads by everyone(:
cuz everyone who saw me was like
"AH MAJUN UR BACK!"accompanied by a
megawatt smile(:saw just about everyone
lizhen eugenia amy regina missqian kia wanqi supeng chaneve and even my students oh and peiling too!
happy happy(:
adeline also quit D: sad haha.
WEDNESDAY!(:
i want to go east coast!
i want to go sing!
rawr.
Thursday, June 19, 2008 ©~jUn²珺☆
the way to friendship(:
is to talk more haha
either bust my phonebills/smsbills
bust my eardrums
or bust my msn history
lol there re ppl who max out 3 or 4 times
and the history is filled with crap lol.
(:
people study history!
and im one of those kinds of idiots
who go around looking at these things
and misting up.
rawr. so shoot me.
RAWR why talk about me behind my back!!!
no wonder my nose itchy hMph.
dont conspire k.
AND AND AND I DINT SEE ZIJUN TODAY D:
he had clinic on tuesday.
WHYYYYYYYYYY dint he wait for me D: haha.
i want to go to the beaaaaaach(:
with my wilson!!! haha
but he s tattered and torn D: saddening
i miss vball sessions
hvnt played in uh more than 2 years
how could i just have thrown it away.
and i realise my blog is kinda monochromatic nowadays.
为什么我的心...
Wednesday, June 18, 2008 ©~jUn²珺☆
Narnia
brought my lil brother to watch narnia: prince caspian
ahhhhhhhhh i liek that movie(:
esp the lil animals and the not so lil minotaurs/centaurs
was in floods during/after the movie
and at night when i was trying to sleep scenes kept playing in my mind
the scene where the centaur and his son exchanged looks
when his son did not get out in time
heartbreaking!!! D:
and when the minotaur was holding up the metal gate
and people were shooting at him i was like FURIOUS rawr.
i shldnt watch movies with animals in them
i get too affected-_-
oh and prince peter is shuai
tho bull headed.
haha and meanwhile my brother just sat there and ate
popcorn nachos sprite
-_- and after the movie my mom brought us to eat KFC (gag)
haha
"姐姐我的裤子有一点紧嘞"
-_- 废话...
haha and stupid mingxi called me at 11
talked until 1 -_- kept reminding me of *!!! RAWR
dislike her haha. hMph
and they re going hongkong!!!
buy me loads of presents! i want a jacket(:
and at 1 am i got another call.
and. i hope that they re fine.
folly.
Monday, June 16, 2008 ©~jUn²珺☆
马家人
呵呵原来我的名字不应该只有两个字
马家还有家谱哈哈
而且每一代人的名字中都有一个共同的字
取自一首诗！！！
哈哈真是新鲜，从来没听说过...
爷爷的那一代名字是：马__山
爸爸、姑姑那一代是：马玉__
我们名字中本应有“水”字
（还是“洪”字？我也不清楚）
但好像因为我们这一辈命中fan4水
所以才没有用那种取名方式。
真奇怪！
lalala
Sunday, June 15, 2008 ©~jUn²珺☆
家人的样子
and the best picture award goes to... *drumroll* my brother.
这次回去，发现了原来我还有那么多亲戚！
爷爷好像有好多个兄弟姐妹，所以在河北的亲戚好像能装满好几车！
发现我又非常多的表兄弟姐妹！
这次来了一个遥念完硕士生的表姐，
还有一个正在年航海系的表哥。
以前多会妒忌别人有那么多亲戚，可以常去拜访，
现在发现到我也并不孤单，心情实在是好多了（：
Saturday, June 14, 2008 ©~jUn²珺☆
遗失的美好
回来了！
但是好不舍得
放下了那么多，就这么回来了。
短短20天，晃眼间就过去了。
6年没回去，好不容易回去一趟，这么快就又折腾回来了。
嗨还是家乡好。
我的适应能力也不错，(:
回去不到两天，就把我那搁置了好几年的东北腔搬了出来(:
说了二十多天的到地华语，连思想都是用华语的了!
可能还要有一段时间才能平复过来...
她他以前总以为自己长得挺高，
谁知道这回回去，他们都比我高了！
她今年才15岁，身高却已经172了
我们走在一起，还真得挺舒服，
嘿嘿有一个与自己差不多高的真好（：
他也175了，以前每次回去，
大人们都叫我们比个儿，
那时我就会暗笑因为我知道我一定比他高！
现在再比可就不行啰！明显的“小”乌见“大”乌了
戴上了眼镜，套上了牙套，还在几年间窜了至少20公分；
久别之后，第一眼见到他，我还真的没认出来！
小时候的样子已经“所剩无几了”
如果走在大街上，可能还真得认不出来，就这么擦肩而过了...
他们现在都上了初中、高中，
没有时间再陪着我玩了。
记得小时候去荷花湾吹蒲公英，
去胜利塔滑滑梯，
进别人家院子里荡秋千...
有一次我们两个人翻墙进植物园，
不仅划破了袜子,还差点掉进池塘里喂了鳄鱼 -_-
那么多好时光，现在自己去，感觉就不一样了...
连那只秋千都被拆了。
嗨...
为什么要长大?
他们这次回去，爷爷、姥姥、姥爷
头发颜色还一样，脸上也没有多大变化，
但是身体却大不如往。
记得以前姥爷骑着自行车，前面带着我，后面还带着他
就这么骑着出去玩，走多少路都不嫌累。
姥姥现在还高血压、心脏弱，也不能运动大幅劲儿了。
爷爷以往天天早上去晨运，
七十四、五岁时，还可以跑上好几圈儿。
今年年底过八十大寿了，身体也明显变弱。
临走时，见到他们眼里闪着泪光，
我也控制不住了。
我也知道他们是这么想的:
"还是多看几眼吧，以后不知道还看不看得到他们了"
一想到,眼泪就簌簌地往下淌...
妈妈说了，我眼泪不值钱；
但是话说回来，眼泪值什么钱？
不值钱就不值钱吧！
碧玉妆成一树高
万条垂下绿丝绦
不知细叶谁裁出
二月春风似剪刀
荷花湾的杨柳最漂亮了!
and the best picture award goes to... *drumroll* my brother.
