Tuesday, April 29, 2008 ©~jUn²珺☆
cancelcancelCANCEL
didnt have alot of "mood" to blog
these few days.
stagnated right. haha
难得的寂静
平时那么多话,叽喳的马珺,
竟然会没有话说...
anyway sigh there have been alot of cancellations in my life lately.
firstly was the class outing
i spent like super alot of smses on
but in the end cancelled
cuz ppl writing portfolio
and ppl preparing for essay.
sigh.
essay was quite scary.
esp before the essay
u see ppl walking around
u realise u recognise alot of ppl
u wont want to be ur competitors.
anw recognised alot of ppl
that NEVER seemed to be even remotely linked to the topic of "medicine"
oh wells.
sigh. and hope i crapped correctly.
tho i have a sinking feeling it went wrongly.
anyhow its over.
plan for interview bah.
today everyone teambuilding,
office is "EOA-ran"
whole 2 floors only 8 ppl.
me qianzhi enoch
jialin kiamian yichiew mingming janice
haha when ususally there re like 80 ppl ard.
and it was quite fun haha.
run about and shout like nobody s business
naw joking. but kia came to the front to join us hahacuz she says kevin stole her laptop.lol i was sayinglater they take the laptop is to spy on us using the camera then we -_-"hahaha. quite cute what.and we were talking about some people in ong chun seehaha if u understand.then i got cancelled on againwas supposed to go singing!then qianzhi needs to go home do some applicationrena insists that there s no 男人 going so she doesnt want to go(obviously yihan s not a 男人 haha)and yihan had a headache.SIGHSIGHSIGH D: saddening.but my mood perked abitcuz going out movies on thurs!(:haha tommy knows more movies than i doand he has zilch internet access!im left out lol. ke lian leh omggogogo!(: harold and kumar!tho i have no idea what its about.oh ya hahaand ironman is the man who can iron his clothes!(:smartness.rahrah.but had a fun day at workme and qianzhi were singing all the way(:supposedly to practise for k D:in the end...haha and ppl were practising CALLIGRAPHYomg. really. haha.then we tried to scare each other by switching off all the lights!lol cuz we were supposed to lock up mah.haha 天黑黑 qianzhi is also scared of the dark! hahaesp if its third floor hehe.qianzhi showed me the busstop for 187haha and it was super nice and quietcan look at the stars! so romanticbut miss qian had to spoil it by... haha. nvm.she ran SUPER fast omg.i was quite stunneduntil i understood what she said-_-" haha.斧头牌白花油lol. really works._.Harold And Kumar Escape From Guantanamo Bay
looks retarded.
and the kind of movie that we will watch.
haha.
and jonathan is right in calling me a dinosaur.
D: im out of touch!
majunosaurs D:
Saturday, April 26, 2008 ©~jUn²珺☆
sigh just thinking abt it makes me sad.saddening. patpat* s jeana too.sigh.anw congrats auntie on getting DSTA(:! hahadont worry luh u still have like what 2 years?!to apply for school?! dont worry loand congrats amanda for passing without actually doing muchlol. haha SO BU HUA SUAN!!! liddat we shld have gone toO! rah.haha. did they even do one set of nage no kata?!sigh.1.98GB! haha of hot bod pictures lolkidding. songs!(: hehe. happiness!(:anw in my ipod there re like photos right.then yihan went "wah i got shocked cuz i saw my own face inside"-_- i knew tt i shld have filtered some photos out._.ELMO!!!(: i like qianzhi and jeana cuz they say its CUTE!i dislike rena cuz she says its retarded! haha.anw i saw this long mao stuffed toy.it snores and its tummy inflates as it slps!!!omgomgomg i shall go back to that shop to go explore and play!!!(: hehe.anw class outing got cancelledcuz of "overwhelming cancellations"haha to be exact. sighits alw the guys who r like RAH.but they do have to finish their portfolios sigh 9 ppl from S79 shortlisted haahcuz 9 applied.(latest numbers. non updated)yep so jiayou tomorrow!(: hehe.and thanks jenny for being so excited for me lol.congrats on getting NTU double degree!!!(:到那时候,该怎么办呢?
Wednesday, April 23, 2008 ©~jUn²珺☆
RAM
RAM= Really Abnormal Mandont say i dunno.hah.havnt blogged in daysprolly cuz i was panicking for personal statement.rah. and im still editing itsigh im really -_- for writingi mean i overshoot the limit by like half EVERYTIMEand then spend 3 hours editing it down to sizethe process is back breaking D:anw i bot my pinku nano(: hehe.and it has like um loads of photosum. prolly shldnt show anyone hahanot zilian photos tho(:yeaaaaaaaaaaay. loves.PINKU!(:and im feeling queasy.i dont dont dont want to fall sick nowsince the essay test is on sunday.UGH.haha actually blogged tt yesterdaybut cuz my com hung on me, couldnt post it.thanks to auto save(:hehe managed to get in the portofolio
AND I DINT GET LOST!!!
APPLAUSE PLS lol.
found MD11 without any problem
no problem-o(:
and work was -_- with loads of stapling. and highness(: less than usualcuz dint sit next to rena. haha.darling xiaohui passed her BTT!(:haha not BMT but still.YAY she s on her way to being able to drive me around!lol personal chauffeur!!!(:yay happiness(: i really shldnt learn drivingso tt i can get driven home (sounds like people dont like me D:)haha today mr low sent me halfway home lol.but alot faster than if i took bus!(:yay yay yay. im a dependent(: hur.AND I HAVE MY ELMO POUCH!its like $1 haha. rena and adeline says its wetarded/juvenilebutbutbut. its CYUTE!(: haha.rah. dives into boOks.OH YA and tomorrow im going to buy tt elmo keychain!the stock comes in tomorrow!shelves my plan for skatesso tt i can see where i go to (for uni)first before i buy.rah. scared.and everyone s asking my plans.i mean.what can i planwithout knowing this result?*bites fingernails to stubs*
Monday, April 21, 2008 ©~jUn²珺☆
can i have the majun
CAJUN chicken pls?
Sunday, April 20, 2008 ©~jUn²珺☆
rah
lazy to write anything hahabut since im waiting for my "prisoner of love" to loadshall just write something.went out with teammates on saturday night!botak jones @ amk as usual we talked crap!(: hahaand made people miss us alot (:and i ate slower than kahpoh D: D: D:zen me ban!!! but it really was alot mah.so. not my fault right(:walked alot!!! so now i have huge blisters. hMphand we drank belgium choc + malibu at coffee beansuper high!!! haha high until abit over laughing at everything and anything(:but its been toO long luh.and kahpoh s ipod touch is PWETTY!!!me: why peijin s face so bigcan see all the pimples luh!kahpoh: (goes mad poking her ipod touch)can ZOOM de!!! can zoom can zoom!(it zoOmed 10 times into one pimple-_-)dots luh hahai think originally i may have chosen the touchbut cuz of the zoom in thing im still getting my nano lol.met kia at amktsk some people live at amkstill can be late meeting at the mrt tsktsk haha.was quite stonish on the way home alrcuz the effects of the coffee wore off D:but after we reached my houseit kick start again hahastupid retarded conversation of me kia and enochwith nonsense lameness haha.hi im mariaif u need room servicepls dial 1800-112-MARIA(64742)thats 180011264742.we provide maggi noOdles,wake up calls and breakfast.oh ya and super cold aircon lol.i woke up to find kia dressed in her working pantscuz she says toO cold O_Owent for work in a frenzycuz supposed to leave at 845someone woke up at 820haha then she left her wallet at my houseso._. ended up leaving at like 9heard she overshot on the bus as well-_-poOr thing.rah today was fun! hahaour production line for brochure stapling!(:lol and the seat is super coldwhat with aircon, ahboy and the chinese high sense of humour-_-lol. haha and today i found out how wild miss qian isshe has the deceptively innocent loOk but haha in reality she is O_O hahau shld hear what stories she told me today!like what she always say:SOT DIAO LIAO!!!went for dinner at grand hyattcuz my daddy treating his friend&family to dinnerAHHHHHHHHH omg his friend super shuai!then his son is EVEN MORE SHUAI!!!(:my new crush/eyecandy!!!
ARKO!!!(:pity i cldnt get his hp numbercuz he doesnt have a hpbut arko is 3/4 indian 1/4 chinese haha coOl right.and he s also 4 1/2 years oldoh wells. haha and he s tres adorable+ hyperactiveso sociable u ll love him on the spot!(:hehe lets go visit him soOn(:
Friday, April 18, 2008 ©~jUn²珺☆
SUGAR HIGH!
I LOVE LOVE LOVE ADELINE!!!I LOVE LOVE LOVE WEIWEN!!!I LOVE LOVE LOVE AMANDA!!!and julia and wanting toO(:and i dislike pings xinyi and lingcuz they /ignore me!!! rah.and thanks jonathan!(: for the vote of confidence(:hehe super high nowcuz i got shortlisted!(:my worrying is finally over!for the shortlisting partnow all i need to do is to worry about:-portfolio-essay test-interview!like theres NOTHING TO WORRY ABOUT!
freak out.FUREAK OUT D:someone pls stop this panic attack cum sugar rush?finally can breathe easily. for tonighti ll start preparing tomorrow...oh yea after dinner date haha.hehe which will be super lateoh ya and kia is coming to stay over-_-diao.i want to take black too!!!NAGENOKATAAAAAbut pei he bu dao shi jianim not going to train without my darling!!! haha.anw amono and peijin must jiayou for monday!!!its kodogan O_O haha worse than sir one.i will ._. if i had to take on such short notice!amono dont get toO many bruises kif not i (and someone else) will xin tong de!(:haha peijin too late alr luhtraining season bruises 在所难免的 right.patpat* few more months only!(:我不在你们还是要加油哦!哈哈lol mushy neh.IM BETTER THAN CHOCOLATES!(: hehe[edit] i dont love amanda anymorehaha cuz she s going for tao jiji (tao zhe)'s concert tomorrowD: D: D: [/edit]meanwhile i can just cont to spam every unfortunate soul that happens to come online(:hehe.
Thursday, April 17, 2008 ©~jUn²珺☆
turns out i shld have paid that 115 bucks
MY BROTHER IS HAVING VARICELLA-LIKE SYMPTOMS
wth.
chicken pox
and i hvnt had it before.
how much worse can it get?
oh ya.
i could always catch it from him.
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when bad days arrive
dunk ur head under the pillow and continue to sleep it away.and thats all i wanna do now.
yesterday couldnt get any horriblerwhat with the mail and the information alertrah.but sometimes unexpected smses make ufeel so much bettereven though they have no idea what s making you so pissedtheir attempts to make u better already lightens ur emotional load.now to lighten my psychological and mental loadugh. like it is possible.WHY DOES THE VARICELLA IMMUNISATION HAVE TO TAKE 2 MONTHS TO COMPLETE!? 115 bucks indeed.RAH.hah.jesse macartney songlyrics "dont stress dont stress dont stress"ya. like really possible.WHEN IS THAT LETTER COMING ANYWAY.i want that pink ipod nano318 buckspls let me buy soon.8gb8gb8gbso i can finally cram all my songs inhaha maybe i shld just listen to jitneng and buy the classicthen i wont have to worry about maxing out again.but O_O 80GB i ll have to worry aboutFILLING it in then._.MAY is coming omg.if this goes oni ll be 19 before i know it.saddening.the curse of thursday fevers.
sigh
Tuesday, April 15, 2008 ©~jUn²珺☆
rah.
hates being alone
with nothing to do
cuz there s no clinic
or rather there is only 1 clinic.
cant stand it.
wants to go out!!!
RAH.
Monday, April 14, 2008 ©~jUn²珺☆
sad
sigh the class outing is most prob going to fall on its face againcuz everyone s ignoring me sigh.xianwei s asking the guysbut there s prolly no response (as usual)and jeana s asking the girls(:hehe so i can save on some smses(:team outing is also D:cuz people cant goif this goes onwe ll have like 4 people only?aiya who cares4 people double date lohehe.(:lalalala VOLUNTEERING(:go help out!(: chao coOl cant wait!and tomorrow working CCK hahacan go lot one shop firstcuz there s a new cottons on(:hehe go try the horribly big specs again!but sigh only one person D:anw today s class observation was coOl(:haha michelle is a totally animated teacherbut her students were like quiet.i realise i like noisy classeshaha the kind students talk to teacher de(: like that 2SS class and the 4AM class!and physics people really are zhai de lothat qn me and michelle and the whole class stonenoone noesenoch finished within 2 mins-_-pei fu~~~haha no wonder everytime physics get so low=_=miss ma?=_=it sounds sooooo weird.
Saturday, April 12, 2008 ©~jUn²珺☆
G rated surroundings
if surroundings are also ratedmy surroundings must be Ghaha cuz of the age range of 4-18 years oldnot even PG, so you can jolly well forget about NC16 or M18 haha army must be like R21?!cuz all those people who book outguys and (horror of horrors) girls alikeare changing their "vocabulary" and their treshold for "linguistic creativity"D: hah to think that we used to cringe togwhen we heard the * word.sad leh D:anw liddat next weekend outing(:then class outing i planning for the sat after next(:give ample warningthen its saturdayso they nv book in yetGOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO(:i miss everyone!(:rah tired alr.pings v horrible D:book out no time for ME D:heartbroken haha
Friday, April 11, 2008 ©~jUn²珺☆
normalcy
haha the fragile links back to normalcywasnt feeling v wellbut couldnt help but smilewhen i received that sms from auntiehaha "tmr wanna go training? TenAsk mandy kahpoh xiaohui and xin yi?"so amused haha.i thot they get sai training everyday in camp?how come these sadist aunties bookout lestill wanna go training deeven tho i cant go i cant help but smile(:esp at the mandy part hahaha.oOps. hopes amono doesnt see this: D
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STRESS
and its not just the feveranw todays interview suckedso feel free to ask me about itNOT.D: D: D:this sucks.but at least i got to see chiaming(:anw congrats on landing the MOE scholarshipmiss Guo Weiwen!(: hehe.Miss Guo(: awww
Thursday, April 10, 2008 ©~jUn²珺☆
撒娇
hvnt blogged in super longfirstly cuz my com crashedthen i had a long bout of feverfeels as if i spent 24 hours floating on a raft in the sea-_-ugh.anw wanted to talk about tuesday nightwent kboxing with rena adeline kheng wah ken(: sing and chevrons againhaha and lots of thanks to adeline and renafor trying to make me not so xin qing bu haoi really was PMSing that day luhits really nice being the youngest againcuz everyone will be loOking after you(:its nice being loOked after once in a while(:but they dint want to send me home D:haha ended up at westcoast to eat nuggets at 130 in the morningnowonder the fever right.wednesday spent the day trying to fix the com
and went lib
saw waiyee(: hehe.sigh our date got postponed!first cuz im feverishsecond cuz wini s having examsso postponed to about next week think...spent the whole of yesterday sleepingeat medicineslpeat fruitslphaha slept for like 20 out of the 24 hoursso feels alot better nowbut still abit weirdhehe if i faint later during work how~(:i must be sadist.but sa jiao at the same time to my mummy(:its nice being totally dependent on someone againto know that someone will take care of u(:
Monday, April 07, 2008 ©~jUn²珺☆
我的微笑你明白就很好
rah. like facing the firing squadexpected >5 peoplebut not >10 people omgchao kong bumy knees nearly gave wayand one of them was likeoh ur from judohave u gotten ur first dan?or r u still first kyumy face must have been like"i am stunned"yep._.haha but the receptionist lady was super nice!
and i saw yuhan there(:hope u did well toO!(:anw rushed for workloads of things to doesp with the little girl cryingenoch scared her! haha no luhshe misses her mummyand she loOks so sad and ke lian lo D:patpat* dont cry k.chevrons!(:and shanghai pics re up on faceboOk(:hehehe. all the throw face ones(:its awwww-some我的微笑你明白就很好
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I FOUND SHANGHAI PICS! (:(:(:
Sunday, April 06, 2008 ©~jUn²珺☆
turquoise earphones!
yay earphones! hahafinally after my handphone ones croaked._.yeay!(:haha and what s fun today was going aroundinto the classes to give out brochurescuz i get to see "my" classes!
haha my P4 class was totally TEACHER!!!! when they saw methe secondary 2 ones toO"miss ma miss ma!"then the secondary 3 people were like stonedhMm one of them loOks not well hahacuz usually he s the super noisy and naughty one.they prefer MR LAI over me omg pissed D:but the scariest was still that GEP classomg walk in"teacher your girlfriend isit?!"-_-?!?! WHO?WHAT?WHERE?WHEN?throw face.went for dinner with kia and tommy!haha tommy going out no need to bring anything de hahafish&co.!(:2nd time in a week so abit-_- alrbut oh nvm. stingray was nice!umumum!(:haha and i still find it funny that someone who alw tell us tt he s allergic to seafoOd would choOse fish&co._.lalalala. and we had a great time talking about retarded peoplehaha people who bang headspeople who are not so vertically developedpeople with ZHAI names like PM Gohand MM Lee(haha if mingming changes surname-_-)and best of all PP PANG! teehehe.(:sigh and its so quiet online again sigh.and i never get sick of watching that video: D
Saturday, April 05, 2008 ©~jUn²珺☆
MORE AC!!!
went for astar AC todayhaha quite little people only 11but we had loads of fun!haha fill in questionaires until we had black lil dots floating about in front of us(:567+240= 807 dots!!!dotdotdotanw haha the one degree of separation againsaw danqing shaomin yukyee and some 61 guy for hwachongbut i dont recog shaomin and that 61 guy.furthermore 61 classbench opp ours-_-and make more friends!(:haha so fun!!!(: yeay.i practically live for ACs now._.and kangwei says med interview is SCAWEY!!D: but it was super entertaining todayto talk to everyone from elainana to sismitha(i have no idea if i spelt i correctly hMm)and we re ALL waiting for shaomin to send us the contact list! hahachao coOl yo.contact list for AC! we shld have had one for the firefly one!"how was it?""it was intellectually stimulating!"-_- seriouslyrahrahrah.when they ask uso what if ...WHAT IF=_=i hvnt decidedand nus isnt out yet.anw was reading this stupid convo.haha its under my namebut not me typing tho i dictated it haha i rmbr all those long phone convosthat practically had us squealing in delight. oh wells.sigh not much chance anymore D:and reading it makes me more sad.but i have to sayITS OBVIOUSLY NOT ME!!!and u cldnt tell. sad.no T-shirts, jeans or SCANDALStsk pls dont be scandalous k.anw uncle and jitneng taking dan grading tomorrow right!GAMBATE!pass alr treat k!(:and dont forget white belt grading stuffs pls! :D
Friday, April 04, 2008 ©~jUn²珺☆
one degree of separation
Six degrees of separation refers to the idea that, if a person is one step away from each person he or she knows and two steps away from each person who is known by one of the people he or she knows, then everyone is an average of six "steps" away from each person on Earth.
lalala anw this came about cuzthis morning went for the astar scholarship interviewsaw this hwachong guycalled david (isit?) from 7Cand HE KNEW I WANTED TO STUDY MED!!!omg. i asked him HOW HE KNEW
since i NEVER spoke to him beforei only knew him by face luhbut he wouldnt tell =_=then there was this other guywho is like in ammoin bukit timahi picked this up from when he was talking to davidabit familiar.so i asked him."do you know jonathan?"him: "lwee?"OMG! direct hit! hahaseems like singapore is tiny tiny TINY!(:and they re in the same company/whateveri still dont get it.anw the interview went like and i was in a foul mood the rest of the daygave a black face essentially the whole dayto everyone at work. sucks being like that.and ended my day with the stupid security systerm not being able to be armedRAH gave me such a scare somemore. hmph.but in the end feels alot bettercuz agnes and gabriel gave me a ride home(:and im talking to darling people now!(:ling kia tommy auntiexiu!(: yeayhaha anw now realisebrendon shld be in same company as fredcuz i rmbr he said TALL! lolauntie xiu not tall enough(: haha.roller coaster ride... says (PM 10:50):
lol
u go organise class outing
in some forest near de west next weekseriously. when i say i miss 79i dont resort to things like this.HAHA we were just saying how good it ll be if we saw *then kia said her friend saw no1! hahalol jealous neh. hahaha.and i love kia for trying so hard to cheer me upbut im alr all smiles from all these lovely people(:
Thursday, April 03, 2008 ©~jUn²珺☆
looking forward
yea(: i can change my phone on the 15th april!(:hehe and the 'rents are treating(:yeay(: esp since my earphones are kindof warped nowD: cant listen to way back into love.haha looking for that feeling againthe feeling when i heard that song tt time.went shopping with mummy(:yeay hehe. and i saw this omgosh! cute keychain!its elmo crossdressing as cookiemonster!!! omg!!!elmo is like trying SO hard to look interested in the coOkiebut failing miserably! haha tres adorable!and the cookie is totally cute! its like choc chip(:haha wonders what is cute about choc chipbut at that point in time it seemed totally cute!
wants to get it but its like 18 bucksthere s a slightly smaller one at 16 butthe 18 one cuter.hMm shall treat myself when i get my pay.which is like in a few days hahadelaying the inevitable(:but its CUTE!!!its like bluebut with red(: there s one elmo dressing as big birdbut i never was too fond of that big yellow thing in the first place.BUT STILL ITS UBER EXPENSIVE! D:rah im looking forward to like alumni dinnerthat is like um 1 month offcuz its like the last time i see teammates before i FLY D:haha i love flyingbut im also afriad of flyingaway from people i knowsigh abit de kong bu.and i miss teammates D: D: D:its not helping that i hvnt heard from u all!wonders what they re doing sigh.i wanna go shopping with them again! hahaSPREEEEEEEE(:i want that ipod nano pinkand the huge earphones(:haha so weird if ur earphones re bigger than ur mp3but who cares lala. the quality rocks!sigh tomorrow morning anotherearly early early morn.kia get well soOn(:yeay if not ur darling worry how!!!i dunno how to settle ur darling de! haha._. suo yi yao kuai dian hao neh!(:and i miss LRG also!and the trips out with mingxi yueqiu and tommysigh.im getting oldddddd hahatho im not even 19;i must be aging prematurely.
Wednesday, April 02, 2008 ©~jUn²珺☆
haha sweetsweet
haha i was just complainingthere s no one online!everyone s in army!haha then in one nightthere are 3 who sneak online.=_=i got totally amusedcant help it luhif u get like: ©~jUn²珺 肥猫 says (PM 10:04):
... u dont sound like wanpeng
xpengxx@gmail.com. says (PM 10:05):
i am wanpeng
sweetsweet loll.
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"army suxs"
haha hongern sneaked online for like 2 minshaha and his ending words were"army suxs"! makes me wonderall those people in OCS are they okay?i mean there are like so many!!!and sispec toO?haha but brendan and vader seemed okay leh...pings and mare?sigh.i miss them!!!
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tired out
lalala its been like a non stop marathonfrom last wedtrainingthen 2 days of competitionthen followed by 2 days of workfirefly assessment PLUS work on mondaythen yesterday we had work plus an office partythat ended like 1230today ECP againno wonder im feeling weird again but no doubt i enjoyed it all(:last night was like a kind of surprise farewell party for meilingsince she s being transferred back to JEbut in the end like wo men zai wan er yihaha but we managed to make her cry(:cuz we sang lu for her!haha 深情地望着她~and miss qian's stomach is really a wu di dongsince she can eat dinner at 830 then manage pizza at 930-_-sang and sang and sang(: yay highjacqueline can sing super well!(: hahaand rena zhong yu kai jin kou also(:and alotalotalot of people wentjerene shanyu roseline rena all came from lesson/workhaha and qianzhi's forever love is really~: Dfalls in love with her singing haha.as long as u dont loOk at her facecuz she ll be stifling her laughter(:went ECP todayroseline was supposed to join us! hahabut in the end... haha late dao~so cycled/skatedbut today was super super super hot omgnearly fainted. hahaplus i was alr tired from slping at 130 last nightso abit stone today.rah on the train both of them /ignore me!read i weekly/newspaper=_=but at least i weekly has like CHIAKI and OGURI for me to droOl over first(:went suntec to eat lunchfish and co.but sigh. WHY WHY WHY did i suggest suntec?!haha we got surprised byMR PEH omg...he jumped out at us from behind this stall in front of mangowe were like ......................stunned. haha.and he was showing us his new "strapless slippers"sounds abit weird but u ll have to see it haha.sigh too tired to make today fun alr hahawas like actually drifting around.but have to say
i miss ecp outings with teammates
miss that time skating in the rain
with people waiting for us
and with people cycling back with umbrellas
温馨的雨伞
but now everyone s like busy
or in the army D: sigh.
at least lets have one more outing k
before people fly overseas.
how come aus uni have to send deposit de?!?!so go? no? go? no?what de. nus med is like end may?!nakatsu: "pojitebu! pojitebu!"(translation: "positive! positive!")to remind myself to be positive no matter the situationand NOT to escape back againlike im wont to do.and i wore qing lu zhuang with kia(:not on purpose o(: