Music,my rainbow

Thursday, August 31, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆

haha forgot to add.
i smsed a lot of trs happy trs day=D
and i m called dear by ms selva=D
haha=D
-beams-
and wu lao shi daos me.
hMph.
and zhanglaoshi din noe tt i rejoined judo luh.
haha but thx=D
he said to study hard and play hard.
LOL. im only playing=D
ms soh and ms dily s lim replied too!
haha and happy birthday in advance to choon mun too=D

©~jUn²珺☆

haha finally connected my phone=D to the com tt is.
shall upload a lot of photos today=D
hahas.

uh today was trs day celebrations.
not tt high anyway. hMm.
anyway i danced mass dance w JENNY!
and i din noe the dance.
so she was laffing at me thruout.
=( so mean right.
YA LORH.
okay nvm. haha.
den aft tt during the performance,
jac was supposed to sit on my left and jenny on my right.
but jac dumped me=(
den i got 1 empty seat nxt to me.
sad. and NOONE WANS TO SIT NXT TO ME!
sobs.
im so going to cry.
haha the performance was quite lame.
w the sucky sound system blasting my ear off half the time,
and cannot hear anything the other half of the time.
haha and the trs one was quite ==
and i traumatised xiuwei w my lousy identification of ms tan.
== sry luh. but i wear specs cannot reali tell mah.
long hair, den short short = ms tan le.
hahas.
anyway MS TAN IS SO CUTE!!!!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhh. ok haha.
and xiuwei is a idiot who dusen rmbr the password to his own phone memory card==
during the tr s skit, got 1 tr faint.
den sms me faints.
wadde. EH i dun faint tt much luh.
and u dun kope my faint- kk=D haha.
and dun stone. not good to stone.
must SMILE=D
rmbr happy ppl = stupid ppl=D

aft tt go NY!!!!!
i LOVE NY!
haha me zhang ever ber mare xiaohui eggy walked back tog=D
just realised how little of our class came.
cuz kia not going back
and rach also.
den only left 7 of us=(
den at ny, saw XICH!!! VIV!!! laywang! chok!
and DAPHNE!!! ziyu! weiduo! jayce!
so happy luh.
and rachel came in the end.~~~
misses everyone terribly.
haha.
AND I PLAYED VBALL IN THE NY HALL AGAIN TODAY!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHH
MISSES THE NY HALL AND VBALL W xichkiazhangcyjays...
haha. sry hypers.
and we saw *drumrolls*
MR TAN!!!!!
din noe he was coming back luh.
and suaned him a bit.
mrs chua is so cute luh.
she was dressed up in ny uniform w a temporary name tag.
LOLs. haha model student.
and saw mr khoo too.
he wasnt wearing the hawaiian shirt we bot for him=(

and aft tt we went to eat pizza hut=D=D=D
food!
haha tho the service was quite sucky.
haha and we hypered=D
and on the way back home i also hypered,
much to xiaohui s amusement.
i just went
"lalalalala. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA"
non stop. haha maybe just happy tt i saw
DEAR DEAR ppl today=D

haha like my drawings of feimao?
realise that all of feimaos expression is the same no matter what he feels?
haha cute luh=D
friends are made of this. if u realise u lack one of these, u ll find that tts the reason for my moodiness. haha.

sry for being so late w this pic ya?
haha my eye v scary right. now its worse luh. i dun wan to tk pictures=(
YAY! i love xinyi=D feel so luved=D

AHHHHHHHH dear dear ppl of 409=D

别人说：
"不在乎天长地久，
只在乎曾经拥有。"
但是我是个贪心的人，
对我来说，只是"曾经拥"有是不足够的...
人不能只靠回忆活下去...
我...还是想念你
我的朋友...
但你却已远远把我抛入脑后...

Wednesday, August 30, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆

aiya.
just dunno wad to say anymore.
im sick of being a nice person.
and helping this
helping that.
and in the end.
still get dao-ed liek dunno what.
do you know how bad it feels.
when u say sth w the intent to make someone feel better.
and get dao-ed and ignored in return?
haha
today after lab session,
everyone was talking about their WRs.
and i was trying to make you feel better.
and i said sth stupid.
and.
haha u all just continued to talk about your WRs and completely just ignored my presence.
haha did u noe how hurt i was?
like only when u needed me was i appreciated.
and now, when you have something else,
i just cease to exist.
this feeling stayed with me the entire day,
explaining my foul mood and stoniness.

luckily got kiamian to pei wo during the front part of the break.
haha 'helped' her with the bouquet again. tho i din make much diff the the bouquet. it still looks somewhat weird. haha too bads. the tr not nice enough to make me put in more effort.
den aft tt stoned a while in fishtank.
she refuses to let me play w her black piggie. =( sigh.
haha and i tried to make up for koping fishtanks straws yesterday by buying sth=D

den aft tt went for lunch w jenny and jeana.
LOL haha feeds both.
both got big mouths.
den go pei jenny look for tr and jeana do her WR.
IM NOT SLACKING.
i just got nowhere to go.
nothing to do.
and nowhere to belong.
feels liek sh*t right.
haha trust me.
it does.
to have nothing to fall back on.
just floating ard.

CT session was worse i think.
last time i used to be able to fit in and laugh and joke with the class.
nowadays, somehow, i just find myself
unable to join in the conversation.
somehow.
someway.
that totally escapes me.
den i just stoned the entire CT session.
and also cuz someone pissed me off.
and made me feel more liek a foOl for helping ppl.
haha a feeling of being made use of.

luckily after schoOl dear jaclyn and xinyi pei wo chu qu.
thx xinyi for the darling card=D
i feel so loved.
for like the first time in the whole day.
haha the card is going to stay in my wallet=D
and jac shall stay in my list of loved ppl=D
we went PS.
and ate SUBWAY=D=D=D
the coOkie v nice.
but the service sux luh.
the person charged me wrongly.
and made me stand there for duno how long while they serve other ppl,
before they would return me the change luh.
bishes.
and we went to buy jaclyns mp3=D
haha jac! u shld buy a walkman phone luh!
haha prettier.
liek MY PHONE=D=D=D
and uh. btw in PS got a lot of escalator right.
den every level the escalator change direction of travel.
so we got hopelessly lost.
we got lost and ended up at the wrong escalator 5 times.
in the short short time we were there.
haha. and jaclyn wanted to send me into the guys toilet==
and xinyi dusen noe tt the mrt is in the basement.
LOLLOLLOL.
haha i took the red line mrt with jac and xinyi.
den we spent the time on the mrt laughing our guts out.
cuz of hyperness aft double choc coOkies=D
and cuz of wrong things tt uh some ppl said
namely me... but u need not noe...
haha and chuaxinyi! dun wear contacts le.
wait until ur eye heal,
den u go wear luh.
kk? we can wear specs tog=D

uh 2ml going back to ny w 409=D
hope tt im not going to give anyone a scare w my eye.
ugh the bloody patch is moving downwards and is elongating=(
ohnoes.

haha i realised,
thru my eye incident,
tt some ppl look ppl in the eye when they talk.
and some dont.
cuz those who look ppl in the eye,
realise immediately tt my eye got sth wrong.
ppl liek velden and ms tan.
haha ms tan v cute.
she just went OMG what happened
and gushed over me.
haha thx=D she s so adorable luh=D
and velden went.
u study too much is it.
den read book tt time,
*eye spurts blood* right.
== wadde.
stupid luh.

lalala.
someone make me feel better.
den i ll give u a treat.
haha.

强求来的爱，是不会幸福的
强求来的友情，同样的，也不会幸福的

©~jUn²珺☆

LOLLOLLOL.
now its 0437hrs.
when i got online at 415,
i realised tt half the class is online.
mugging WR and ILP.
lollollol.
liek 10 out of 26 are online=D
lollollol.

Tuesday, August 29, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆

haha doing WR and ILP until madmadmad.
and kiamian is SO fun to tok to luh.
lame until.
laff until.
xiao diao.
den we had an idea to add uh someone into the convo.
and the convo was liek uh.
dead.
hahas. so sad.
no fun.
anyway.
carl's msn nick v farney.
ppl do ilp until mad le.
consequences of ilp/
LOLs.

©~jUn²珺☆

today thx.
haha to everyone who cared.
and asked abt my uh.
pretty right eye.
uh ya.
anyone wans to see a pic of it?
LOLLOLLOLLOL (i learnt this from edward)

im sry if i was very whiney today.
im sry.
im just v insecure and feeling low.
haha i do tt when im not feeling good luh.
sry.

thx to pings for borrowing vball=D
thx to thomas nigel and their friend for playing vball w me.
tho all we did was liek pick up the qiu.

JAC! i love u.
to bits=D
okay.
2ml lets play again=D

feeling so down.
uh.
its not a consequence of THE eye right.
i dun think so luhs.
so much to do.
okay. faints.

btw. yongkeong,
volleyball and dota no link.
my eye got bloody spot and ur eye tear also got no link okay.
-beams-
i am so much cleverer.

LOL
kiamian entertained me for 5 full minutes.
LOLLOLLOL.
xiao dao~~~

haha and everyone wans to noe wad happend to my eye.

Monday, August 28, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆

lalalalala.noonescares:D

but qiwen did care=D
and jeana=D
and xinyi=D
thx.

and OMG got a lot to do.
liek bio ilp
and written report.
faints.
howhowhow.
dies.

©~jUn²珺☆

here i am.
home at 10:22 on a monday morning.
when i am supposed to be having bio lecture.
and mugging chem for the lect test later.

VERY THE IRONY.
i spent 2 days mugging my notes from cover to cover.
i IM/SMS ed everyone i knew who took chem
to remind them to bring data boOklet for chem test today.
and i dun hv to.
pissed off.
VERY THE IRONY.

and my bio O test.
UGH.

all pestasukan s fault.
anyone who see s me now,
is going to scream ghost and faint.
sh*t.

when i saw myself in the mirror this morn,
i nearly fainted too.
and had a heart attack.
luckily its nth serious.
but it most prob cuz of tt mild concussion.

i was thinking.
haha today is another test of seeing whether ppl will miss me in sch.
den i think.
and i think.
and i realise i am a foOl once again for thinking liddat.
why?
because no one ll miss me?
haha.

hope it disappears soon.

stop dao-ing my sms.
im asking u abt sth.
ANSWER IT LUH.
not meant to be daoed.

Sunday, August 27, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆

sigh. the end of another sai day.
all i want to say is.
dont care what others say or dont say.
do what u think is correct.
dont care abt what others are doing to u.
i finally understand now.
letting other ppl who dont care affect me is not going to make me any happier.
instead, u ll just dwell more on ur inadequacy in socializing.

pesta sukan.
first won soo qinqi.
den fought jingyi and lost by a tani.
den lost to penny by a holding.
sigh i shld reali reflect why i let go of my original BIG advantage and got thrown/ held.
anyway.
i gather 3 more injuries today=D
ppl bring home medals.
i bring home injuries.
now i cant turn my neck + headache
right knee and left shlder
PLUS 1 SCRATCH DOWN MY FACE!
AHHHHHHHHHHH.
kk i coOl down.

sigh. nvm.

shall show u all some pics.

haha winners cheeyang and frederick. tho cheeyang had to stand on a step to reach frederick s height.

must smile for me ok? haha i mean U.

but i am reali quite sad. weird weird me.

but if u can be my star=D maybe i ll get a lot happier=D

congrats to the ppl who won medals=D
amanda champ!
pings champ!
xiaohui champ! (and she won bala!)
yongkeong champ!
nicholas second
kaijian second
jiangyue third
melissa third
penny third
velden third
and congrats to xuanyi and jingyi too=D

and to those who dint,
namely me nic faith thomas jonathan,
dun sad kk=D haha.

sigh. sluggish.

Saturday, August 26, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆

ugh.
today a lot of stuff.
the sports quiz.
and the ge yao concert.
make this real short.
cuz i need ter slp soon.
1. slacked and ate a lot today during the quiz
2. Really Annoying Man did a lot of BAD things today. and i feel liek killing him. but i realise not worth my time and effort.
3. playing bball w guys, even if ur 6 girls against 3 guys, u get OWNED. sad.
4. i suck at squash. and i reali wanna play vball tho there is no vball ard.
5. i suck at bball too. i cant reali shoot while playing. sad.sad.sad.
6. u reali shldnt let me hv much choco and sugar. i get REAL HIGH.
7. keep ur lollipops away from JACLYN.
8. mugging in reading room is GOOD=D
9. jenny and jeana look GOOD in the shirts we bot=D SOOOOOOOOOO CUTE
10. i DO NOT WANT TO BE A THIEF running and hiding from...
11. FRED AND CHEEYANG ROCKS=D ohyay. so coOl luh the song. CONGRATS
12. the music clinic girl has a VERY NICE VOICE! what wont i give for a voice as beautiful as hers~~~.
13. and that tony guy is perfect eyecandy material=D (even jenny and jeana agree he s coOl)
14. mugging is bad for your health.=(
15. kiamian is amused by me and jenny and jeana.
16. i am amused by myself.
tired. shall go rest. den 2ml get trashed by cheryl goh=D yippees.

Friday, August 25, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆

lalalalala.

today had a lot of lessons.
and i had a busy time laffing at jeana.
BESTFRIENDS kk?! LOL

sigh.
/ignore/ignore/ignore.
but im happy cuz i saw U today=D=D=D

haha. hv a good time guessing who my special u is=D

AHHHHHHHHHH
i got ditched by my date for ge yao 06=(
SAD.
i got ditched.
i got DITCHED.
wails.
but nvm.
now i got TWO dates=D
yayness.
haha yuxing be jealous,
im going w TWINS=D
ur missing out=D
and cya soon kk?

POWERCARDS!
i dun care what the guys say.
my powercards are NICER.
mUaha.
ya luh. liek so much nicer.
but anyway.
i wanna make our own=D
and we laminated it=D
so i think 2ml can put it up le s=D

2ml still hv the sports quiz thingy.
den must go sch and help out.
ugh.
if it ends too late i got no time to study for chem and bio.
if it ends too early, den i got nth to do in sch.
ohnoes.
anyone wanna mug w me?
haha i can uh call and ask the twins to pei wo=D
yayness.
mugmugmugmug.
den at night watch chuang sing.
hMph.
frederick kiamian xinyu yihui better be grateful to me man.
hMph.

den the day aft tt got pesta sukan sommore.
omg.

OH just now in sch.
me and amanda witnessed JUDO SPARRING ON TILED GROUNDS.
omg i was liek heart attack luh.
the guys just sat there,
then watch and goad their friends on.
SPARRING ON GROUND.
omg. one guy nearly hit his back against the step luh.
if liddat he ll be paralyzed from the back down u noe?!
scary. and to think tt s what they do in guys sch.
well.
guys are weird.
tt explains why.
everytime they throw/ land
den i ll wince for them luh.

written report.
ohnoes.
faint-

I WANT TO SKATE
I WANT TO PLAY VBALL
I WANT TO GO KBOX
I WANT TO SLP
sigh.
so many wants
so little time
SCARCITY.
ohnoes.

Thursday, August 24, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆

im sick of u telling me what i shld do.
i shld be nice.
i shld be happy.
i shld smile.
i shld not be so mean and bully him.
i shld this.
i shld tt.
harlo.
its not a matter of i shld or not.
tell me tt i shld control my feelings.
tell me i shld feel happy.
its not under MY CONTROL to feel happy.
sometimes, its not what i want myself to feel?
and what myself wants me to feel?
understand?
nope.
i bet u dont.
when do u put yourself in my shoes and think about me.
you only think about other things.
like ur work.
him.
anything else except what i feel.
why i SHLD i care then.
shld shld shld.

i shld be happy everyday.
i shld forget abt you.
i shld study hard.
i shld get good marks.
i shld excel in everything i do.
i shld...
someone shld just KILL ME.

ha.
tts a good one.

©~jUn²珺☆

todays bio spa is ==
yuck...
and econs is worse.
ugh.

sigh. so little to be happy abt.
sigh...

dont u wonder WHY ppl dun liek u?
maybe its because how u treat ppl...
and ur not sensitive enough.

well.
so why don t ppl liek me?
sighh...

sighsighsighsigh.
there s nothing left in my life other than sighs.
lalala.

i shall go skating later.
sigh.
keep my mind off things=D
yay. haha.

Wednesday, August 23, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆

lalalalala.
today was quite a stoney day.
in the morn. was quite sad.
cuz of the past few days problems.
budden, aft tt during chem pract,
the disgusting smells woke me up.
euw luh.
and edward and i entertained ourselves and mare and melvin
with our "pouring-all-organic-waste-together-to-see-how-horrible-it-smells" game.
LOLs.
now i got yellow fingers=(
sad. eee.

den during break, cuz of some SPECIAL REASONS,
me edward and jenny went over to chinese high to eat.
haha. some VERY special reasons.
involving ~~
hahas.
den we spent liek a long time walking over in the hot hot sun.
ugh. haha we were hving a threesome when kashun joined us=D
kashun! our class ppl DUN BITE LUH.
dun sit so far away kk?
and we traded stories over lunch.
hahas.

aft tt we decided to retreat to fish tank cuz too hot.
den edward played the "lower-the-chair-majun-is-sitting-in-and-seeing-her-reaction" game.
==
cuz the fish tank has the chairs w the adjustable hts.
den i liek to sit high up,
so edward would liek push the lever and i would
PLOMP
and end up 30 cm shorter.
scary luh.
liek roller coaster liddat.
while jenny happily watched on, listening to songs on my phone
and smsing. =P

during math lect.
well. all i can say is.
wad u did was so NOT obvious.
hahas.
and edward head butted me.
and now.
i still got headache.
yucks.

ct session de performance was quite crap.
tho the acapella one was coOl=D
i recorded it down=D
nicenice.

aft sch go do essay w yihui at consultation area.
sighs.
i think i flunked another essay.
oh and we saw kashun, weiwen,
amanda, stella, liane,
and wanpeng
all there.
haha.
consultation area is mobbed by students.

sigh.
i wan my feimao.

Tuesday, August 22, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆

lalalalala.
i feel so left out.
when u all do that.
haha.
i dunno.
just very left out.
everytime.
not just today.
not just this week.
dont u feel that im not part of this class?
i feel tt im spending more time alone.
or stoning while all talk.
or getting ignored.
blah.
i hate this feeling.

today had physics spa.
wad can i say...
it sucks.
sob. i plot wrong graph, den nearly dieded luh.
my conclusion is liek hyper short=(
ohnoes.

went to play squash w charlene cuz i got pangsehed by everyone else.
poor charlene had to survive w my mediocre skills.
sry=(
haha den alot of ppl arrived at the same time and koped our court=(
haha but we had time to rest=D
pings had her first squashie experience today=D
mUaha.
and i got trashed again.
by yongkeong.
bully me. i onli played squash liek 3 times in all?!
ugh.
but squash is FUN=D
tho i realise the onli 2 sports i can do is badminton and volleyball.
CHALLENGE ME TO VBALL!!!=D
i so long nv touch vball le.
i think i oso lose touch liao.

den physics tute.
uh physics sucks.
i feel liek dropping.
shld i?
sobs.

i wonder if we were ever friends.
i just feel liek someone u ask when u cannot find anyone else to help u.
grr.
but i reali hv this feeling.
cuz i dont hv the friends feeling.
haha. im actually very jealous of ppl w good friends.
very.
haha too bad.
too bad i let u 2 go.
my bad.
and now i regret.
and i ll wallow in self pity.

Monday, August 21, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆

today bio lect was liek fun luh.
wad w edward laffing at the trs pronounciation of "con-fis-ti-cate"
LOLs.
and me frederick and mare were being extremely lame abt the rabbit.
cuz the rabbit is kinda liek heat sensitive,
if its cold, den the fur on the part tts cold ll grow black fur.
den i say if u put rabbit, den u lame it,
it ll turn all black=D
den frederick say
if u put rabbit into microwave oven,
den chao da, also black.
den me and mare ==
LOLs. haha.

math i got 14/20=D
same as mare=D
and uh same as yk i think.
hahas.
^5s=D

aft sch got the pack the goodie bags for the sports quiz thingy.
den i went to pack.
omg. mr ram liek ABIT LONGWINDED.
the same thing he repeated liek 50 times.
i was liek rolling my eyes repeatedly until my eyeballs nearly fell out.
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
luckily he not my pe tr=D
yayness=D
haha den stupid jitneng suan me v slow.
i quite fast liao luh.
haha i finish tying three goodie bags,
i ll put it ard me.
after a while,
i realised...
im liek surrounded by all the bags.
i built a fortress of goodie bags ard me==
wadde.
liek im surrounded in the middle luh.
== haha.
den aft tt before my bio lesson, i hyped all the way=D
laffing my head off.
haha and i even got beaned on the nose by jac.
tsktsk.
qi fu wo=(
crycrycry

den i went for bio O=D
today she rushed thru 2 sets of notes within tt short period of abt 1.5 hrs.
SO PRO. hahas.
quite easy to understand.
maybe tts why.
haha. coOl luh.

haha watching healing hands 3.
sigh.
everytime i see this show,
it ll further reinforce my dream of becoming a doc.
haha=D
its great to help ppl=D
and feel good aft tt.

sigh.
lalalala.
看着你微笑
有一道光芒
打在我身上
像一中魔法

Sunday, August 20, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆

YAY went skating at east coast park=D
haha skated from one end to the other and back.
quite tired while skating.
so got stop and watch the "cable skiing" thingy near the end of the park.
haha. quite coOl luh.
if i overcome my hydrophobic ness i ll go for it=D
liek V COOL! haha.
oh and i saw lots of funny things.
liek a family learning how to skate tog.
den the little girl hold her daddy s hand,
while her older bro hold his mummy s hand.
den the bro and mummy skate quite ok.
den the daddy stumbled and the little girl pull him back.
SO CUTE!
and i saw liek LITTLE kids skating.
omg so ke ai.
my mummy say she s going to buy skates for my bro when he out grows his fake heeles.
=D den i ll droOl over him. hahas.

aft tt we went to marina parade.
my daddy cheat me. hMph.
nv tell me going out. den i just went parkway parade in my sweaty racer and fbts.
felt so out and cold luh.
den we saw this VERY NICE PAIR OF PLATFORMS!
BUT.
its liek more den 10cm tall.
if i wear.
i ll be uh 180cm.
uh a bit tall.
i scared of heights.
and i ll kill my ankles.
so sobsob. =(

haha and u still dun rmbr my birthday.
yippee.
what can i say.

according to weishen,
"stoning" is taking drugs
"going out" is dating
in america.
soooooooooo.
jenny and weiteng! stop "stoning!"
hahas.

omg. my skates.
hMm one year.
then the wear and tear liek dunno wad.
AHHHHHH.
ok i shall save up for.
uh NICER SKATES.
i shall shop for ORANGE ONES=D
mUaha.

oh jeana just sent the stupid test to me.
and i did it.
and its SO WRONG.
omg. SO WRONG.
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
kk. if u wanna do can ask me.
it can tell u whos ur love,
and whos your best bud.
*but according to me?
its not working v well*

Saturday, August 19, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆

hahas.
today slacked until abt 12 in bed.
lalalala.

i rmbred philips birthday kay=D
so proud of myself.
i was liek look at my phone.
its 19th aug.
hMm sounds familiar.
den i check my calender den i Oo.
AHHHH. haha den i happily sms him=D
and he say i v hyper.
onli less hyper den an energizer bunny.
wadde. EH. hMph.
den he say, if he wan to be hyper,
he shld replace all his batteries to energizer.
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
bish.

den tok to weishen online.
no link talk.
and SUPER MEAN HIM.
uber sehr mean POK.
hMph.
dun tok to u le.

den went out to study w huiming.
haha taught her differentiation.
hope she can do well.
den can come hwachong=D
hahas. and I GOT NEWS.
haha but i shld keep the SECRET for her=D
yay. haha the days of ** are over.
and the days of ** are just starting=D
HAHAHA.

ok. i just slacked off another day.
sads.
but nvm=D

and jiangyue v hou lian pi.
tsktsktsk.
even thicker den some other ppls.
whom i shall not mention by name=D
MIAOW.

haha sometimes. i oso wish that there was a "OHSHIT" button somewhere in my life.

Friday, August 18, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆

yayness. happy=D
double the happiness=D
cuz saw wini and lingling today=D
haha.
wu yi xi wei gui, so long nv see them,
so seeing them makes me happier=D
haha. we went thai noodle house to eat and chat.
den moved back to coronation tt corner to crap.
until liek 915.
hahas. so late rights.
aiyo.
haha took a lot of weird photos.
shall show u all.

hah so cute right=D

xueling looks liek she needs the toilet badly. hahas.

uh. haha the mirror is not up to standard. tts y the photo not nice=(

LING! i din realise how much i missed her spastic auntie face. until i saw her. awwwwwwwww. hao xiang ni.

haha and wini is CUTE. hahas she was going nuts while drinking this milky drink.
the drink say s tt it might contain "traces of nuts". LOL right.
den she was going mad luh.
when suddenly, a "ping" sound.
and sth hit the floor.
guess wad. a screw hit the floor.
den i was liek " wini, u got a screw loose "
HAHAHA.
and wini. is v UNSTRAIGHT.
xiang wai wai. hMph.
just now jiangyue was sitting on the top step,
den wini sat 2 steps below her and kao on her arm.
den i said "eh liddat wini hen xiang hen ai"
and wini was liek "EEEEEEEEEE"
den we all ?_?
and aft a while, we realised she heard
" eh liddat wini hen xiang he nai"
WADDE. omg. sick.

haha and i dun liek amanda anymores.=(
today me qiwen and jack got a qing shu from edward.
haha. show u the qing shu.

so sweet right=D yayness. haha i got qing shu=D

den amanda was liek v sad cuz she got no qing shu.
den i ask her "so who u wan love letter from, do u wan letter from me?"
den she "ok,
im deperate liao"
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
so mean.
onli when ur desperate den u wan love letter from me.
dun liek u le.=(

haha today during pw,
me and jeana spent abt half an hour laffing.
at first got farney stuff.
den aft the first bout of laughter,
everytime i look at her/xiuwei s face,
i ll burst out laughing,
thus inducing jeana to laugh too.
haha this is called.
TEMPORARY LAUGHING- INDUCED LAUGHING forces
HAHAs.
sho fun.

i dun get it. why am i getting ignored.
/ignore.
it all started w the mr dunno wad ignoring me.
and all my teammates/batchmates laughing at me.
den now.
i get daoed.
sighs.

ugh. i shall post more pics=D

haha first gay pic of the day.

haha kk nvm. i shall go get INFO from edward now=D kks.

Thursday, August 17, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆

today played badminton.
uh.
im sry if i pissed u off.
i m also quite pissed off luh.
at wad u said.
but nvm=D
friends=D
haha and best friend rocks.
i was liek quite pissed + sad.
den he came and sat nxt to me.
tho i noticed the only other place he cld sit was uh. nxt to jeana s best friend.
but its ok.
i d liek to feel better abt my bestfriend=D

yup.
but we lost.
kiang lost 11 nil.
guys doubles kiang and hongern also.
den me and jeana lost 11-5.
aiya.
sry. haha.
my arms ache from 2 bouts of squash + 2 bouts of badminton + trng.
yucks.
jeana s arms too.
badbad.
but thx hongern for coming/ staying.
haha reali meant a lot to us=D
xiuwei too=D haha thx for staying
and listening to me whining=D
and im sry for showing my temper at all of u including qukui=D
im ok=D

haha. shall show u all some scandalous pics=D
to make everyone happy.
ok not just scandalous.
but nice pics too=D

playing squash=D in case u dun recognise. its nic char velden carl and yongkeong. OHMY! hongern. watch where s ur hand! zomg.
our egg structure before it died heroically.
HAHA scandal pic 2=D after mare and edward=D
best friend! dun sad cuz u got dumped by qiwen kk. u still got best friend kk=D
nice nice pic=D hahas. and my handwriting s so nisch=D
AH. i look quite ok. haha for once=D and xinyi why i dun hv kiss.=(

hahas.
today played squash w jenny.
and got owned=D
but its ok=D
FUN!
anyone wans to play w me 2ml?
pretty pretty pls?

sighs.
PINGS!
WADS UR PROB?!
WHY DO U KEEP LINKING ME AND **?!?!
wadde.
not as if i noe tt person well luh.
=P
maybe U liek ** tts why.
HEHHEH.

ugh. trng s ending.
sighs.
dunno happy or sad.
hMm.
ugh.
dunno u coming to hwachong anots.
SIGH.

promos in uh 5 weeks.
and i nv even begin to read some chem and physics notes yet.
hMph.
i shall die.
haha.
there are muggers ard me.
im feeling the pressure.
tho im doing nth.
yayness.

i wan to go skate.
but uh no time.
maybe i can convince my daddy to bring us to east coast park?
evil grin.

do u think it can happen?
well. i seriously dun mind=D
lalala.

ugh. i forgot somethings.
haha.

THX! for the sms to cheer me up jeana dear=D

THX! for saying tt so tt i was spared ~~ u noe=D

THX! for making my day!

hearts.

yay. but dun so disappointed ok. it ll stay there.

yays 2ml trng== uh. osoto i think. uh sad.
ohnoes. nxt week no more trngs.=(
/emosad.
awwwwwwwwwww.

©~jUn²珺☆

uh today. gp 2.5 hrs. was not bad luh.
haha at least i din slp=D
yays.

edward is so completely gay.
haha but tts why he s my best friend.
best friend kk?
haha and jeana. happy liao.
ur best friend help u. hoR. LOLs.

den later got phys lect. as usual.
i understood nth. yayness.
and lab. uh.
within 1 hr.
he went thru 3 qns of tute.
and i slpt abt 50 times.
every 5 secs i ll hv liek a diff dream.
den i shook myself awake and sat up straight.
and i fell aslp again and nearly rolled off my stool.
sighs.
physics. shld i drop? hMm i ll think abt it.
uh den hv the egg drop right.
haha ours failed.
sighs.
i din expect it to survive.
but u oso dun need to be so mean and laff right.
w/e.

haha was feeling quite shitty until i saw everyone=D
meaning all my judomates=D
yayness.
haha wanted pt today right.
den we kena pang seh ed by xiaohui amanda xinyi and jac.
den in the end got me pings nic char and 6 of the j1 guys and chaoqun.
so uh first me and pings sat outside the squash courts and laff at ppl playing squash.
den aft tt me and pings went to pract shooting=D yay.
haha i hv liek um 4/10 in. hahas. better den last time 1/9. haha i improved.

den went to run. ugh.
thx to yongkeong, thomas and pings for waiting for me=D
ugh. my stamina sucks.
and i went to puke phlegm.
EEEEEEEEEEEEE
ya. sigh.
and we went to play
BADMINTON! yayness.
haha me and nic OWNed velden and carl=D mUaha.
liek seriously own.
haha
who ask velden to suan me.
hMph.
retribution=D
so fun luh today.
tho i got suaned by so many ppl.
liek my "but we still does well"
and my EMOTICON face
and. uh essentially w/e i said.
haha but its FUN=D
lets do this EVERY tues=D

im sry wini. i reali must go home.
sry i din noe its liek 6 plus liao.
nxt time i pei u ok?
liek maybe if u come on thurs=D

haha i got NEW pics=D
of scandal btw um hongern and melvin.
and gay pic of best friend in pink jacket=D
haha. tell me if u wan ok.

i dun care if u forgot my birthday.
wadever le luh.
its been so many days and u still dun realise.
haha i realise wad a foOl i ve been.
but im quite content to continue to be a foOl.
if im a happy foOl liek i am now.
haha maybe ignorance reali is bliss.

haha and daphne rmbr ed my birthday=D

im sry eug for missing out ur name=( HUGs=D dun sad kays?
haha and thx cher for wishing me today. lols a bit late but nvm=D
and uh thx jack for ur uh diff renditions of birthday song sang for me during pe... haha i think it made u miss quite a few hits for badminton.
thx ooliemoolie=D haha. dots. virtual present sommore. dots. so cute.
yayness.
u still dun rmbr.
haha and i WAS ur friend for so long.
haha.

uh bio O today was quite fun. yay.
i luv mrs foo. haha she can grab ur attention.
and i followed most of the things she taught.
unliek s*r*sh. hMph.
yup.

haha today so SCANDALOUS! ohnoes.
um first edward declared tt qiwen luvs him.
haha. poor poor qiwen.
and um we all realised tt xiuwei and edward getting closer (ie more gay)
den i told amanda:
"EH xiuwei s stealing my best friend =("
amanda :"edward zhong se qing you"
SOUNDS SO WRONG RIGHT. ohnoes.
i mean. his "se" is um a ~~guy~~. gay. whatever.
haha. but nvm.
i had a declaration of luv from edward aft tt.
cuz i was asking ppl if they luved me.
den i got from jack qiwen and many others.
den edward was liek ' i luv u' den i awwwwwww.
best friend!
haha and jeana. i bet u luv UR best friend right.
LOL.
i noe wad u ll say...
"WHEY!!"
curd and whey!
ok lame.

uh today i survived lessons until liek 730 at night. Oo
haha so proud of myself.
and i din fall aslp during bio=D
tho i was still freezing. hMph. the aircon drops from liek 15 orignally to abt 0 luh.
freeze.
im scwared of the dark. howhows.
haha nxt time hope they dun let off so late.
AHHHHHHHhh i luv mrs foo. =D

i took pic of amanda the slping polarbear=D so ke ai!
and SCANDAL PIC! ohnoes!
xiuwei and mare!
tsktsk.
haha actually is jenny see and ask me to take one.
SO SWEET LUH. they look~~~
hehes.

okay. scandalous. but its ok=D
fun!

n00b hongern get well soon kay?
haha u so quiet today quite worrying.
tho i din get so many kicks in the back during lects.
haha.
xiuwei also sick right? uh get well soon=D
and jeana dear must also get well soon=D
liek u ve been coffing for how longs?
and must get well.
den can tk care of ur best friend=D
yay.
i ve a feeling im gg to get killed soon=D
but nvm.
XIAO YAN JING SHEN XIAN! yays.

GRAD NITE + BIRTHDAY!

haha finally i m blogging.
haha abt grad nite.

um can say tt. our batchmates v fun.

haha to be ard.
liek totally mad and lame.
the skit was FUN!
and a success even tho we onli did it liek um a few days before.
and its hilarious.
=D grins.
haha and thomas is a convincing tangsanzang a.k.a hindarto.
so farney can.
now everytime i see his face.
i feel liek laffing.
oops.

den we went xinyi s house to stone and plan.
haha. yays.
i luv xinyi=D
oh and watch healing hands 3.
i luv tt show.
and i wanna be a pro pro doc liek them when i um... grow up.
haha.
we met wini den went there le=D
to prepare.
um. i can onli say the decorations VERY NICE.
if u get wad i mean.
wadde.
can t see anything on the banner.
plus put WHITE streamers.
u diao sang aRh._.
hMph.

we had this great plan to hide wini and show her as a surprise later.
for her darling j2s + sec4s
haha. so she um.
stoned in the toilet for um. 1 hour i think.
poor poor her.
while we all were trying to prevent the graduates from venturing out and seeing them.
jiang yue and the 2 sec4s gave us a scare laRh. we were toking to wini inside the room. and they just walked in.
me stun.
den i ran at them and shooed them out.
den xiaohui snuck wini out the other way.
phew.
luckily got entrances/exits on both sides of the room.
luckily jiangyue blur blur enuff.
but the sec4s still saw luh.
sad. but nvm.
um well the emceeing was pretty sucky.
cuz the jokes fell flat.
and there wasnt this 'correct' ambience.
i dunno why.
maybe becuz sir isnt there. and u feel sth is missing. liek there is a missing link.

when dinner started, me and xiaohui siam outside to find wini le.
the plan was.
wini wld write a song dedication to the j2s.
den amanda and jac would read it out.
den wini would call xinyi.
den xinyi and pings wld pass the phone to the j2s and make sure they re in their seats.
den me and xiaohui wld escort wini in as the call is going on to complete the surprise.
so sweet right.
awww.
haha. me and xiaohui waiting for amanda to read out the dedications, den must guard the doors.
hMph. liek idiots liddat. press against the door. prevent ppl walking out and OOps. yup.
den winis call was damn funny.
she was talking to jiangyue.
den she said:
"jiangyue, my phone bill v ex. can u pass the phone to pheywa?"
den i *WANTTOLAFF* . but i must gek and cannot LOL.
so i was liek shaking on the stop. haha.
den when she was talking to pheywa, we opend the doors and we walked in.
haha. u shld hv seen their faces and heard their screams.
so gan dong de yi mu.
haha. i ll be so touched if someone did tt for me/us luh.
awwwwww...

haha den aft dinner we had the skit.
obviously our s was the best.
we were performing and laffing our heads off.
at thomas and velden s performance.
well. ok.
everyones.
haha. so farney.
tho throw face, but still.
its worth it=D cuz we luv them a lot.

photo taking was WILD. omg.
i hvnt taken so manny pics in a long long time. i still see flashes luh.
den my face was liek chou jin-ing.
hahas.
and we have our first batch pic=D

haha. so cute right.

btw
u shld avoid wanpeng if u wanna tk pic w/o extras (meaning him)
he liek added himself to SO MANY pics.
for example, yongkeong was tking w me and pings.
den suddenly, got this shadow nxt to me.
den i look up and i see him =D ing at me and w a victory sign.
den i Oo and ._. hahaha.
so the 3 person pic, became a 4 person pic.
haha.

haha. so this is a pic of yongkeong w the birthday girls + wanpeng. LOL. but still quite cute so nvm.yay. i luv my teammates=D to bits=D
AHHHHH GAY!!!!!!!!
12th aug birthday girls=D
A girls 2006 hearts.

during dance.
all the j1 girls plus sec 4 girls plus pheywa and nic high until.
haha we were dancing and self highing=D during the high songs.
haha. den while other ppl were stoning.
i dun understand.
ur graduating.
and its ur chance to liek enjoy.
did we reali do such a bad job at planning this?
i dunno.
im very disappointed when i saw all the ppl sitting and stoning at the sides.
when i saw all the sec4 guys leaving.
when i saw the entire place only got us high.
haha its kind of liek an entire bucket of cold water on u.
and did u reali need to say tt into the mike?
did u consider abt how we felt?
u were implying tt we did a horrible job.
but we did our best.
and i gave up my birthday.
when i was supposed to celebrate w my family.
to come here
and plan grad nite and prepare for it the whole day.
and this is the kind of repayment we get?
i dun think its fair.

sigh.
kay. i shant tok abt it anymore.

my birthday.
thx to everyone=D
to ppl who sms ed me thx=D
in order of timing.
stella (cuz she smsed me at 12:24 on 11th aug haha. oops)
xiuwei (haha nv reach 12 yet. but nvm=D)
jeana and jenny (within seconds and the most zun ppl. 0000=D)
bernice faith xinyi huiru granny amanda xueling wini jiangyue choonmun pings tong laoba weiteng zhangmadear granny yuxing mymortal-philip hongern liane kiamian bestfriend-edward weiwen jonathan=D
haha thx=D for being so sweet=D
and thx to dear sec 1 s for my mirror mug
thx to darling teammates for my nice nice white racer=D nxt time we go out i wear ok=D
thx wini for my rose and my first bear bear keychaing=D
thx to yongkeong and hiroshi for my 2nd bear bear keychain=D
the bear bear keychain is for 12th aug leh! and they re identical. so i got 2 hanging on my phone pouch==
haha thx to laoba for the big lollipop. i shld start hv an appointment ready w my dentist.
thx to darling sec3s for my um hairy piggy and the box of muahchee u all helped me finish.
and thx to darling penny for our birthday cake=D
um i hope i din miss out anyone. haha.
hearts.
looks wrong. but who cares. =D

luv everyone=D
and i ll miss all my darlings since u all leaving.
must come back and see us kays.
muack.

ah. why is this happening.
and i din noe tt ppl toked abt me.
ahhhhhh.
what-e-ver.

pei. think it thru wont ya. i ll be missing u till then=D

haha u forgot my birthday.
i expected u to forget.
but i din wan to accept the fact tt u wld forget.
but now since its the truth.
i cant say anything.
but.
haha.

YAY. happy happy day.

first niao jeana=D
and poke jeana w jenny=D
uh nvm. i shant elab.

oh and edward wore mares jacket.
and jack declared her love for hongern.
ya.
everyone stun.
LOL.
more ppl jealous now.
* and MELVIN.
right.
LOL.
major greeness

uh. i shant blog a lot.
but i received birthday presents today=D
from chengyen liek 7 lollipops=D
from qiwen weiwen jeana jenny
a bearbear necklace and earrings and a BIG lollipop=D
YAYNESS.
lollipops

haha. qiwen asks me to count down to midnight.
haha 3 hours den.
abt there.

oh and edwards in trouble.
awwwwwwwwww.
sho shad.
who ask u throw egg ard.
btw haha this morn mare dropped the egg.
den the egg shell cracked but the membrane stayed=D
den me and edward were happily plucking the shell from the egg. haha.
when he broke the membrane.
den stunned me realise tt the egg is FERTILISED! omg.
got EMBRYO.
faint.
too bads.
but tts off topic.
he s in trouble cuz he splattered the egg on jas mare qiwen and xiuwei.
haha apparently it was v spectacular.
AHHHHHHH.
i wanna see.
but i left le. eee.

uh. ok this is not short btw.
haha.

2ml. one busy day.
AAAAAAAAAAAAH.

yay 410th post=D

haha random but who cares.

im gg to stay up until 12 tonight=D

so i can be the first to wish pings happy birthday=D

yay i luv doing tt=D

makes u feel special dusen it=D

a special sweetness right in ur heart.

-beams-

©~jUn²珺☆

haha today had the meet-in-sch-to-discuss-grad-nite-skit thingy.
haha. quite fun.
but onli got 9 ppl go.
haha. me pings xinyi
velden yongkeong thomas wanpeng nigel carl
haha. jitneng din even noe abt it?
tsktsk bad teammates.
haha.
haha velden and thomas have the WEIRDEST and coOlest ideas for perfomances can.
liek SO fun!
haha looking at them come up w ideas. liek Oo loRh.
creative ppl.

and v sad.
cuz my little cheeky kena-ed tortured by everyone today=(
haha and my ducky. sob.
/emosad.
ah nvm=D
look forward to the performance my dears=D

HURRY and come online for script. i ran out of ideas for * s part.

UH. i dun wanna throw face too. sigh.

im SO looking forward to grad nite now. eek.

haha today.
had a 10.2 km walk.
nearly dieded being high.
haha we highed all the way.
singing my head off.
i feel another starting of a sore throat.
eek.
but it was worth it!
FUN!

den we went j8=D=D=D
i still luv j8 to bits=D
haha and met **!!!!!
yay.
haha and we did a lot of shopping!
lol. im pissed now tt my shirt is now 50% off.
cuz when i bot it its 30% off. hMph.
but nvm.
haha and i got lollipop=D
and i got CHEEKY!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHH.
i show u 2ml.
CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
i luv my cheeky.
i luv my ducky.
i luv my feimao.
conclusion: im a sucker for furry cute stuffs.
eek.

haha. pings=D u got matching presents from us.
yays=D

HURRAY TO PINK!
lol.

leg pain pain from walking + shopping=
eek.
2ml muscle ache den i diedie
==

HW!
is forgotten=D
as usual...
im just not cut out to be a mugger.

ohno.
i think complications from my ear?
dunno.
but i just had a head splitting headache again.
and i slpt for 2 hrs.
just lay down and gong.
ohnoes.

urgh.
you noe the bingbox thingy?
if u hv it.
PLS DUN PUT UR MSN THERE.
wt hell.
i got added by 4 weird ppl.
and there are ppl from TURKEY?!
wad?!
and they keep saying things liek.
i think ur sweet.
i mean.
i noe im sweet.
but thx but no thx.
EEEEEEEEEEEE.
gives me the shivers.
faint.
so how.
haha im sorry.
but i deleted all of u.
and i deleted bingbox.
urgh.
all those ppl who spam me w emails to join bingbox.
im gg to kill u all.
im kinda traumatised.

ahhhhhhhhhhh.
i wanted to go skating.
butttttttttttttttt.
aiya.
why i fell aslp.
hMph.
must do hw.
must plan grad nite.
ohno.
headache again.
sob.
PW!
omg.

AH. i just dreamt of u.
eeeeeeee.
see u today.
den come back slp and dream of u.
shivers.
too bad the dream contains wad s v close to the truth.
makes me v sad.
and realise how foolish i am again.
eeeeeeeeee.
sad.
looking at u in the dream.
and i realise how far we are.
even if we re friends.

wo xin qing bu hao.
trying to find someone to spam and talk w.
den i realised tt there s no one to turn to again.
everyone s got their own friends.
and im left all alone again.
end of story.
haha.
a story tt repeats itself again and again.
even tho im trying to run from it.

i wanted to be bitter and say.
how come everytime ppl say they ll be there for me when i need someone and when i need someone, they re never ard.
den i realise.
no one said tt to me.
haha.
a bit sad.
but true.
i think im going to wallow in self pity again v soon.
yahoooo.

currently still in self pity mode.
im sry.
i ll try to get out of this.
haha.
thx.

©~jUn²珺☆

haha.
one horrible horrible day.
spent in horribly cold air con-ed places.
liek the audi, the math class room.
the worst being LT1 for bio O.
literally freezing my butt off.
BRRrrr.
hMph.
slpt thru most lessons today.
looking forward to 2ml. to slack.
haha.

haha. pak ming is funny.
i din recognise him.
i tot was wad tennis guy cuz jeana there.
den aft tt, aft i got close enuff, den i realise its pakming==
haha. ok. everyone realised it at the same time.

haha den me and jack were walking towards the entrance?
den we saw melvin running up the steps?
den he tripped on the last step.
LOL, den me and jack were liek OHNO.
and den when he caught himself.
we started to laff.
haha.
but too bad.
my happiness was short lived.
i tripped on the latch at the entrance.
lol
retribution.
cant say i din deserve it.
nvm.

sigh.
mass convo w judo ppl.
is maddening.
i think i just lost hair.
urgh.
liek tearing my hair out.

sigh.
wads WRONG w me.
why am i being so emotional.
being so easily affected by stuffs.
liek being ignored.
being excluded.
not liek it dusen happen everyda.
urgh.
i hate the emotional me.
i hate sulking.

urgh.
and i hate disgusting convos w weird psychos who say ur sexy.
eek.
and STOP harrasing me.
i dun even noe u?!
waddefreak.
hMph.

i wanna go cry in some corner again.
i wanna be tt little girl.
who was scared of the dark.
scared of hving a bed w 3 sides to the room and wanted to move my bed into the corner of the room for more security.
who was scared of her nightmares so much, she dint dare to slp.
at least.
tt scaredy little girl.
had mummy and daddy to turn to when she needed a shlder to cry in.
daddy mummy s arms as a haven to return to whenever i have troubles.
i wan a friend to depend on.
how can i get u back?

sigh.