Music,my rainbow

Monday, July 31, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆

friends.
haha.
what a bother.
thinking of whether they re reali ur friends.
thinking why u dun hv best friends.
im sick of all this.
i noe a friend leaves a impact on someone.
and i also noe tt, u dun hv to be a best friend to make a lasting impact on someone s life.
so im just going to try.
to make as big a ripple as i can.
in you.
and i hope i touched your heart.
and hope i moved closer in the proces.
=D

best friend of the century edward!
haha since im ur best friend. i shall be nice and say tt ur phone sexier den the black version.
lol.
=D haha i hv a best friend. yay.
and edwards amusing. and so is his pw grp.
haha mass date edward sia. 4 on 1. edwards liek SO lucky.
tho the ppl he date.
1 ill and 3 siaos. lol.

pikachu volleyball. haha.

all tt abt u ll be there if we need u.
bullshit.
urgh. i just got pian-ed again.
and i hate tt feeling.
when ppl promise.
and fail to do what they promised.
a promise is sth u keep w ur heart.
and u dun break.
if u can break it. why call it a promise in the first place?
dun make promises u cant keep.
u won t noe how many ppl are disappointed and hurt by ur broken promise.
liek i was.

and dun forget what u told some ppl.
i tot i was rmbred.
den i realised i was forgotten.
haha. too late.
im sinking too deep.
and im still sinking.

lots to do=( sian diaoz.

and NO. AHHH. i cant believe i did the classical -someone- face.
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

LOL

Sunday, July 30, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆

uh today met pings=D at jurong east den went to buy stuff=D u MUST see wad we bot=D yays.

den we went to mug in burgerking. haha.

how come the voodoo dolls hv only judo and not basket ball?! liek the leng men de judo oso hv den dun hv the hot hot hot basketball sport voodoo?! dots.

PINGS PRESENT?!
FAITHS PRESENT?!
URGH. dies.

haha we traded stupid stories. liek ppl losing face.
hor jenny.
haha.
i din say anything.
lol.

haha i just suddenly rmbred tt face of urs.
and bei dian dao.
uh this "u" has no link to aboved mentioned ppl.
but ya. seriously bei dian dao.
~~~

smile.
ya?

Saturday, July 29, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆

haha today had the funnest day in dunno how long. neatly washed all my sadness for the past week away. haha. esp w running thru the rain=D
neat adventure=D
w amanda jeana jenny qiwen stella chengyen and xianwei.
jenny THROW FACE! haha we were supposed to write our names school and IC number on a piece of paper. den when jenny passed the paper to me. i realised tt her s and jeana s ic number very weird. why no alphabet den start w 9 de== den i Oo its handphone. LOL. jenny oso throw face. haha. make up for my econs h1 O joke of the week=P

haha. first go sell coupons and collect donations.
me and jenny sold 2 coupons=D aft walking dunno how many rounds ard tt market place. hMph.
but still happy to hv sold some. tho i dunno how are they going to find where is the car wash place. hMm.
den aft tt we went west mall to slack a bit before going back.
THEN. the real fun started=D wash car!!!!! yay.
we v hyper abt washing car can. haha sponging w SPONGEBOBs cousin.
and rinsing w water.
first we washed a bumble bee coloured sports car. so coOl can. cuz we all wearing yellow apollo shirt w black FBT/hwachong shorts. den quite coOl liek professional racing den the helpers in same colour keep the car in tip top condition liddat=D btw the car was FULL of grime.
den we washed a red car=D haha little red car. and we tried to wash for as long as poss to give the customer value for money spent. haha 10 bucks for a car wash seriously isnt cheap.
our final car is a grey toyota. haha while we were soaping it, the sky was already a ominous dark gray. den we hurry hurry hurry. and we managed to finish washing before the rain struck. tho the other grp wasnt so lucky.

we had loads of fun=D but not w out incidents.
liek xianwei pouring half the bucket of water on me. cuz he din see me nxt to him and he poured on the car. so poor me kena ed half the water. oh wow. but its ok. cuz it started raining 5 mins later.
haha cuz raining, we all cuddled into the pavilion liek penguins=D=D=D so adorable can.
but when the rain slowed, we decided to chiong=D
and we managed to chiong to west mall (jeana lost her slipper twice and i lost mine once ONLY) by running from shelter to shelter=D
ppl were liek staring at us cuz we were dripping and in westmall. *shivers*
hha and we zi lian by tking photo infront of the toilet mirror=D

haha so much fun. =D

oh show u another pic. haha.

from the left, me/jas s sony ericsson w810i, edwards nokia 8800, mare s nokia 6680, and xiuwei s nokia 6280. erm obviously mine/ jas s fone is nicest right. =D

IDENTIFY THE TWIN! WHO IS WHO! haha. =D

but they re both CUTE=D haha.

i must mug my eom. oh wells.

and lao ba made an interesting point. eh. if everyone thinks i luv tt squrriel a lot and gets it for me. den wun i get liek a lot of squrriels? haha. i ll open a squrriel park=D yay. uh. seriously dun need to get me stuff laRh. and i dun need liek a lot of squrriels. haha.

Friday, July 28, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆

im dedicating one whole post to u ok.

im sry tt eh we came to the conclusion tt u were spamming.
sry. i noe tt u were busy finding stuff.
sry. and eh it was meant to be half funny too.
and i was quite pissed off at the person who tagged as me as well.
so ya.
dun be so pissed ok.
i dun liek to make ppl pissed.
im sry.
and dun be so angsty liao.
jiayou finding ur stuff.
=D

DUN ANGRY.
and DUN MUG.
haha.

im reali sorry.

and ps. i give up trying to find out who tagged as me.

©~jUn²珺☆

im tagged as jUn at class blog again. hMph.
who s the imposter.
ask melvin to eat sommore.
and say i go mug.
i ve a feeling its hongern/melvin since they re the onli one s online. urgh. im sad.
oh and dun curse. even on msn. esp when ur toking to ME.
thx man. no **l*s and wadever stuffs.

i made it to melvins most hated list no 1.
im quite proud to announce this actually.
since i kicked out stella from the no1 position. LOL.
ur a potential danger man.
haha so now i hv best friend of the century (ed) and public enemy of the century (melvin).
ohyay.

i see another crisis. and this seems worse den before.
urgh. but not under my control.
faint. lets hope things work out. hMm.
if they were more accomodating
or
if he were less arrogant maybe?
i dunno.
i dunno them anyway.

O_O kelly found out my SECRET!
tt my birthday is on grad nite!
haha. Laff loud loud.
bei zi ji leng dao.
haha me pings huiru and faith are going to go absolutely hyper tt nite=D

uh. when did anyone tk wad i said into consideration man.
and today.
u just walked past me.
even tho u saw me.
and gave me tt look.
harlo.
i tot we were friends.
oh yay.
yuck i hate the feeling of being ostroed.
and i hate the feeling of being ignored.
so shuang to be /ignored.

urgh. and i realise my new best friend is weird.
uh. i dint say anything.

haha. i wanna hold ur hand. ><

Thursday, July 27, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆

haha. i have a new best friend. guess who is it. haha.
EDWARD SEAH=D lol.
he s my new best friend cuz he helped me find my leaf under the microscope=D=D=D
pro can. me and stella stare until eyes small small still cant find. den he POOF and he found it within liek how long. hMm.
and he s also my new best friend cuz i said if u went for my physics lesson for me, u ll be my best friend forever.
and he said i ll think abt it. cuz i dun wanna see mr tang.
haha i reali was quite touched.
yay. new bestfriend.
LOL.

jeana and jenny hoR. hMph. mean poks.
one mastermind and one kui zi shou (the one who does all the job)
H1 ECONS O aRh. WIN LIAO LORH.
laff at me for how long.
i bet ur still laffing.
hMph
but its ok.
haha quite fun=D
and u all still v cute=D=D

LOL. snr police officer. SOB.
im sry laRh i reali saw as police and not policy;.
and i got laffed at by melvin gan. hMph.
ask me help u.
wai long long aRh.

trng is quite ok today laRh. haha
trained w maam and melissa. oops. maams taiotosh. a bit pain. a bit winded.
lol. and trng quite got spirit. haha good=D
(esp during cooling down haha. highest)
keep it up dearies=D
and clean the dojo thoroughly on 2nd kay.
later passing out someone asthma attack jiu hao xiao. hMph.

eh. jrs. grad nite rmbr to wear skirt hoR.
later the ppl at the place dun let u in. den u stone outside hoR.
and dun wear anything weird liek nanyang skirt. i will personally ROFL if i see tt.
and tt was for u madeline.
haha.
hope ur bonsai s surviving. hMm

Wednesday, July 26, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆

uh. i came back from the lib and i found my tag board mass spammed. SO TOUCHED.
*cries* haha but seriously happy tt so many ppl care so much. ~~~ *more tears*

haha today went ok i guess.
ok as in OOOOOOOOOOHKAYYYYY laRh.
lessons were short and sweet=D
exactly the way i liek them btw. haha.

den at the class bench, i was deciding whether to go for inline?
den i asked chengyen to flip coin. den the result was: i shld go for inline.
den i asked amanda whether i shld go. den she said go for inline.
den i was tempted. so i stoned while they left for trng.
den when the lesson was abt to start, i realised tt my heart is still at trng. haha.
den i RAN from the place can. hMph. i feel liek someone running from a wedding or sth. haha guilty. den i smsed the tr saying tt i quit the prog.
realli v sad tt i cant go? liek i ve been aniticipating it. but. i guess it ll have to go. sigh.
its ok. pings promised to go skating w me at duchess on fri=D looking forward.
the only prob is. where do we keep our skates when we go for lessons.
*oh brother*

i ran to trng, where they were just starting uchikomi.
and guess wad. today s another seoinage day.
groans. ohwells. abrasions galore. all ard me. and on me too.
but i have to say. hMm maybe practing liddat will improve my seoinage. hMm.
urgh. i got thrown by a little boyboy again. tho the lil boyboy is taller den me both horizontally and vertically. haha. oops. i said nth.

watched the videos again.
when it was coming to my bout, i was visibly trembling cuz i din wanna see tt.
sigh but sir WANTED to show my bout. cuz there was sth wrong w the refereeing. it wasnt supposed to be a ippon, since only my back touched the grd (tt was wad i tot so too tt s why i continued)
but i wonder. how come no corner judge did anything?
i mean. its ok for me to lose.
at least MY TEAM gets their deserved glory.
and its NOT FAIR.
tho i am still an idiot for letting her control me in the first place.
i mean she does have power. liek duh. and i shld hv moved ard and prevented tt deadly grip. URGH.
so the refereeing + my stupidity lost the A cup. ohhooray.
now i feel more liek a qian gu zui ren.
im sry.

thx to pings, and amanda for ~~molesting~~ cheering me thru the video.
thx to thomas and jonathan for being so nice.
thx to ppl who tagged. i feel sho gan dong=D *touched touched MOLESTED* lol. sry.
thx to teammates who pei wo thru all these.

haha aft trng me pings xinyi and jac went ke ai ji for drinks. and er.
we had our customary sugar rush after ANYTHING tt contains sugar in it. so basically we ALWAYS sugar high.
den we were laffing at stupid things liek SOME ppls power card and some lame stuff we were saying.
den by the time the guys came (liek 1 hr later. some ppl reali have short legs), we were on our highest. i rmbr er. sitting on the floor and laffing at the mushroom joke. haha den i self high. sob.
why i always self high. hMm. oh i had a lollipop.

aft tt rushed home so tt i ll be able to reach library before it closes. hMm. haha. me and melvin had express librarying. haha. within 30 min, we finished everything we went there to do. hahaha. evil laffter. and melvin dusen noe how to use the borrowing book com. LOL. haha i feel so superior now. mUaha.

haha. guess what. i dun care anymore.
just ignore me.
just ignore my feelings.
just ignore my needs.
nah. ur everything.
and im nothing. to u.
haha too bad tt im ur kid. u still hv to ren wo no matter what.
just think.
when was the last time u asked me what I think?
did u ask me abt how i felt abt losing the comp?
did u ask me abt how i feel abt anything.
haha nah. u just complain tt im not good enough.
i dun care abt stuff.
i always give the chou lian.
but do u try to understand the emotions and the mind BEHIND the chou lian?
nah. u just scold and dun understand.
im used to this all.
all i need is somemore time w my feimao.
i ll be fine.
i ll bounce back.
i will.

Tuesday, July 25, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆

did u realise i was crying?
did u try to noe WHY i was crying.
nah. u just left me to my crying.
crycrycry.
nahnahnahpopo. majun s a cry baby.
w/e

i only wanna say.
i love amanda.
haha. u ve been great today.
thx..

we are going to prove tt we re the best. but not by giving up everything else i enjoy in life.
liek inline and my bio O.

©~jUn²珺☆

hah. today was liek one of the worst days.

did u wonder why was i liddat aft break?
did u wonder why i ponned physics lecture?
did u wonder why i was sulking?
do u wanna noe in the first place?
haha im asking questions to dunno who. no one in particular.

we used to train, monday, tuesday, thursday, friday and saturday.
5 times a week. what a feat.
and den sth tt interests me comes on.
inline skating SEP on wednesdays from 3 to 4.
i happily signed up for it.
and have been anticipatting this since i signed up.
den NOW. u drop the bombshell on me.
u tell me there s trng on wednesdays.
thx.
so what am i going to do?
and why the hell are we training monday, wednesday, thursday and fridays AFTER nationals are over?!
we re all sorry we lost. we ALL want to do better for nxt yr. we ALL are going to work hard towards our goal. but tt dusen mean tt we want NO LIFE.
before nationals i devoted everything to judo. leading up to comp, i psychoed myself everyday.
im sry tt im an idiot and i was thrown within seconds.
but u cant blame us for this and make us train double what others train.
and before. we DID NOT MAKE DEMANDS!
all tt we demanded was tt we train less. we used to train FIVE times a week. FIVE. a week onli contains SEVEN days u noe.
and all our demands consisted of was to go on alternate fridays for the combined training. not as if we did go on alternate fridays. we at most missed once. so HOW can u say we make a lot of demands and tt leads to our 'downfall'.
i seriously dun understand.

im sorry for all this angst.
but im reali upset tt ppl told me to just pon inline when they dun think abt what i feel.
and im reali upset tt this will happen.
i think i just looked forward to it too much.
and i took it for granted tt wednesday was our free day.
it WAS anyway.

hongern, DUN sulk and DUN mug laRh, mugger.
melvin, DUN gay and DUN anorexic laRh. stella dusen mean it. haha reali. =D
jasline cheers=D JUZZ ignore what hongern says=P he tok crap.

i dun understand why am i still in depression?!
dunno why.
im tired. why is it. tt. no one even asks about how i feel at home? they just take it for granted that i will cheer myself up and i will pick myself up as usual.
maybe this time, ll be the time tt this ball dusen bouce up anymore.
maybe i ll fail ur expectations again. but so what.
u understand?

im silly because of u.
haha because i believed in u.
scratch another off the imaginary list.
i guess my list is now empty=D
empty of...

Monday, July 24, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆

haha back=D

missed trng today. and also missed xiaohui on the bus back today. cuz she din catch the bus on time. tsktsk. leg short. haha jkjk.

bio O trng was quite fun today. haha the tr v cute. and tok also w no link. so ppl liek amanda and weishen shld find toking to her quite easy. LOL. haha.
and today we were doing liek fermentation and bacteria and yeasts and stuffs liddat. hMm. used to be my most hated part of biology syllabus. but i guess its ok now. since now i understand the implications (esp the antibiotic part) and i understoood the lecture (main reason) LOL.
JENNY! DUN QUIT! PEI WO MEN! =(=(=( if u quit, im going to mope and cry and sulk. =P

haha aft tt went home. haha thx chengyen and xiuwei for taking the same bus as me, which means longer time to reach jurong point for their dinner=) thx=D nxt time i ll pei you all go eat. eh EAST food. right. hMm. and waste my smses. and tok damn loud abt things tt shld be quietly spoken of. of stuffs liek class common enemy no. 2. 2 kay. not 1. understooded? LOL=D

yucks. today had a bad stomach ache again. sigh. cant help it. i guess i ll hv to see another doc soon. oh and i still cant wear contacts.
AND I DO NOT LOOK OBIANG. URGH.

PPL PLS PAY CLASS FUND.
melvin make them pay class fund. if not im not helping u find out abt... =D *innocent smile*

2ml NO TRNG! HUGS! haha. hype hype hype.

oh and i was frantically sending links for anyone to do my surveys for me. HELP ME DO!
http://www.surveymonkey.com/s.asp?u=42872331088
if u do, leave ur name on my blog. wo qing ni chi tang. LOL. haha.
even poor qian also kena from me. poor thing. haha.
haha darren v nice. offered to help me send. nah it s ok. i shant sabo ppl i dunno. =D im sho nisch.

haha. and i got interesting insights on what happend tt day zhongning left his gi on the MRT. turns out jitneng AND hiroshi and someone else were ALL still on the train. LOL.

skating on wed. cant wait=D

pw is killing me. and so is hw. =( not as if i do much anyway. but it still kill me. sometimes i reali wonder why.

Sunday, July 23, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆

i luv my teammates. u ll always be in my heart. hearts. =D
all sho chio right=D

©~jUn²珺☆

my darling snrs=D hehe. sho pretty right=D

MY ICECREAM! I SCREAM FOR ICECREAM! haha and eh desserts=D

OHMYOHMYOHMY. tell me this is CUTE. this is the CUTEST thing possible. i go googoogaagaa over this little squrriel stuffed key chain that costs 8.50 and is only like half of my palm s size. hMm. i m still considering. grah. buy this for me and i ll love u for ever=D

ICECREAM! i told u i SCREAM for ICECREAM! and i make PERFECT SPRINKLES!=D SPRINKLER. official sprinkler=D

haha. Oo and i still cant wear contacts. urgh. eyes swollen

ohno. i sound liek a spastic bimbo.

©~jUn²珺☆

yay thx wini for ur email=D
we re all feeling better le.
miss u SO much.
sigh. i wan a hug~~

stuck at home. i wanna go out.
i wanna see... UUUUU

haha. things nv go my way.
and i hope and wish too much.
such that all that i hope and wish dun reali come true.

oh and my bio is an A.
so my results are ABBCEE.
not much better anyway.

urgh. debates.

Saturday, July 22, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆

hah.
got /ignored.
ohnvm
since it always happens.

today had sex ed LEAP.
urgh.
was quite sianed but was ok on the whole.
cuz got engaging games which includes the names julie pete and many more.
and including u hving those names and hving sl*pt ard.
hMm.

den went kap w amanda n carl to wait for the others for the discussion on grad nite.
well amanda discussed most of it. the rest of us were stoning/mugging (xiaohui)/munching on xinyi s fries=D.
steal my job. u. )(#@&)(*$!_?>_)*_)
den we went to shop for stuff.
LOL. betcha can guess wad STUFF we shopping for. hMm.
underwear.
gotcha.
so NOT it.
we went bugis=D
oohing and aahing over cute squrriel fluffy keychain that costs 8.50. i wan~~~ its SO adorable and stares at u with cute and bright little eyes. ooooooooooooooh. but they all say not worth it. sigh. ok den.
if someone buys tt for me. i am so going to give her a BIG HUG. =D
haha im just gaga over cute stuff toys.
and i found a stuffed cat tt s ADORABLE and wanted to buy for pings. but they all say ugly. SOB.
and den we went to eat dessert in the basement.
hMm i ordered a rainbow ice=D
rainbow s make me happy.
and icecreams/tianpins make me hyper=D
so we all hypered there again.
hMm.
makes us all high.

sigh. kinda wasted my day again.
but i bot retro white earrings to go w my retro white hairband. LOL.
haha quite nice=D
liek the ones qinzi from e mo zai shen bian wears.
she s so chio=D
liek zhu nei jie zi=D
lalala.

ALUMNI PPL MUST COME FOR GRAD NITE!!!

go
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZHx2_gkuvCM&mode=related&search=inline
! damn zhai=D !!! falls in love w the skate pros can.

Friday, July 21, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆

hMm shall cont w the celebration dinner details.
it was at sakura international buffet. and we got liek a whole room to ourselves. quite liek grad nite.
den me and pings were saying to velden and thomas, on the way there, tt we shld just treat it as grad nite den we dun need to pay more money for grad nite. den velden reply cannot laRh. den thomas just suddenly went down on his heels in front of velden. and velden nearly did an obstacle over him onto the escalator. LOL. me and pings were liek o_o and velden s expression was hilarious liek OO. haha.
and yesterday pings tried the same thing on me. dots loRh.
we rephrase it as. pings did a 'thomas'. LOL.

at sakura international buffet there was LOTS of nice food and we STUFFED ourselves.
food is good therapy.
there was
prawn siew mai (YUM)
eclair (personal recommendation from hindarto and laoba. apparently its v ZHai)
sushi (i LUV ebi sushi)
newyork cheesecake!
and ICECREAM!!!!!
haha me and pings esp. went crazy over the icecream. not just eating it. but scooping (pings job) and sprinkling (MOI JOB) it in peanut and choco sprinkles=D=D=D nice laRH=D=D=D
first we did our own ice cream and happily finished it.
den we helped laoba. and went hyper over ice cream.
den we made jonathans sundae. which was liek overflowing the little tray.
haha apparently he went back and complained abt his ice cream. meaning tt ppl dun trust our SUPERB skills anymore.
but before he could tell jitneng, we stopped him and helped him make ice cream sundae=D with loads of sprinkles.
but sadly, after him, no other ppl dared to try our skills.
LOL. velden nigel wanpeng all are scaredy cats.
den laoba ate 3 sundaes. cuz no one wanted. LOL.
den nice nice jaclyn and huiming tried our skills too=D
everyone must say tt our skills are GOOD kay.

haiz.
today had a bad morning.
im sorry if i caused u distress. i din noe tt~~~.
im sorry.
oh and today my phone had the FIRST injury to it. SOB.
melvin dumped his HEAVY crumpler on my phone.
SOBS. sayangs my phone.

today i finally had a peek at wad melvin does online. haha.
during PW. he was liek doing A LOT of weird stuffs can.
LOL.

2ml got LEAP. yucks.

oh i got a skating partner.
actually not reali.
dunno who he is laRh.
jus tt he looks abt sec 2 and skates the exact same route as me and he also has music blasting into his ears as he skates.
but its good to hv someone to skate w. even tho he is faster den me.
=P he GU YI ONE LORH. hMph. faster ying liao loRh. Hmph.
nxt week wed im going for inline SEP=D maybe i ll improve=D yay.

u say u dun trust girls expression cuz girls hide their feelings.
and u say i do too.
but sometimes its just tt ppl dun reali care.
and even if u do show tt ur sad, it dusen mean anything to anyone ard u.
tts why we resort to hiding and putting up a front.
so tt ppl think tt we re ok. so that at least they treat us normally.
and not ignore.
hMm i dunno. maybe tt s onli for me.
but nobody bother s still.
so why worry LOL.

Thursday, July 20, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆

we ll be back.

tt day we watced men of honour in the high sch LT. v touching and inspiring.
its a wonder what some people can give up to live their dreams.
their loved ones.
their LEG.
i guess tts wad sets him apart from us all.
and tts the difference btw a normal person, and an extraodinary one.

den we went to the sports hall. yio chu kang.
tho it isnt air con-ed, its still well ventilated.
but i still dun liek tt place, the reasons which i shall elaborate more on later.

first on was C girls bout in which hougang won by the 6th tie-breaker bout.

den was C boys, hwachong against RI.
well the first player fought great.
and the 2nd one too. even tho he dislocated his arm *ouch* and his opponent still ya that arm. i felt liek throwing my slipper into his face man.
the third wasnt too wonderful, cuz he kept standing behind the opponent.
but the fourth and fifth won.
overall hwachong won 3-2.
congrats=D

den was B girls. and the first dissappointment.
faith was unable to perform up to her norm. i guess becuz tt girl is taller and is hard to control. nvm girl jiayou=D
den eugenia was also not performing. i dunno. but i noe u can a great deal better den tt. =D go darling. <3
bernice did a v nice left harai and ipponed her opponent. great!
melissa and penny.
AIYA. i dunno wad happend to all of u.
but i can onli say tt u all are still my darlings. and work hard towards nxt yr.
we ll get everything back.

B boys.
velden did V NICE seoinage. omg. REALI nice can. *pei fu pei fu*
den jitneng did a PERFECT uchi. WAH. its good to hv long legs. hMm.
thomas got thrown by tt titus person? but its ok. he got qian bian face. u dun hv. LOL. ya. dun be too sad. get over it. just not lucky.
jonathan also lost. URGH. dun too sad laRh. u ll always hv nxt yr.=D
zhongning. did a PERFECT taiotosh. wah. zhai. =D so proud of u. haha.
yay congrats for another cup.

den A girls.
amanda er. din perform as usual. but its ok. we still hv time till the nxt one.
nic lost due to a holding. AHHHH. bu xiao xin de! so bu zhi.
den jiangyue won her!!!!
and xiaohui won vicki too. way to go!
but i went on. and i lost within 10s. to her.
and i lost the entire bout.
it was ME. me. ME who lost everything.
haha.
i just lost everyone s dreams.
i lost sirs trust.
i lost everyone s faith in me.

urgh. but its not over yet.
nxt yr. we ll be back.
and we ll bring back everything.
that BELONGS TO US RIGHTFULLY.
and we wont rest, till wads our s is back w us.

thx to everyone who supported and trusted in me. dun i din perform. at all.
thx to ling ling who came=D and supported us. tho she din dare to come to hwachong/nanyang side in her RJ u.
thx to cindy, wenling, siying, choonyee, wangyu who came and supported us all=D thx to qiwen, zhangwei and hongern who cldnt come but smsed me=D
thx to jeana berber mare xiuwei jasline liane yangyang who came to support.
thx to cynthia who came in RJ uni to support us too. =D missed ya. thx for ur hug and ur shlder=D
thx to my teammates for their shlder s to cry on.
thx for my jrs to cry w.
thx to mitchell who cldnt come but sms ed me=D hao xiang ni.
thx to thomas and jonathan and laoba for trying to cheer me up.
thx to jasmine who still rmbrs me and cares so much.
thx to jaq, grace and maomao who came.
thx to jenny who smsed me aft tt.
thx to everyone who wished me good luck.
luv ya all=D

ppl who lost. cheer up.
ppl who won. congrats and dun get complacent again.

got /ignored.
until i gave up and sulked.
sulking alone is good.

i noe ur secret. haha.
but because i noe ur secret im sad.
tts so ironic.

today got back bio and econs. both B.
well i can reali say im surprised at bio. since im liek 13th in level for bio. ._. i nv did expect tt of myself.
so over all i got BBBCEE.
B for bio
B for econs
B for math
C for chem
E for english (GP)
and E for physics
quite shit. but wadever. im gg to work harder for promos.
ppl who din do well. cheer up kays.
smile more. i still luv u all=D

sir said both the hwachong tr-in-charges lieked my design. thx=D
tt reali made me. ya. u noe.
勇往直前

as long as there are ppl liddat ard.
there ll be times for me to be sad.

crying. buckets.
but it does nothing.
i am just going to fade into the background.

Tuesday, July 18, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆

hah. deep shit.
HOW did i get SO lan for EVERTHING?
i quit believing in myself.

nvm. the better parts of today:

haha during lunch, melvin kena-ed suaned by stella. the whole table was roaring. and normally melvin suans ppl. so stella wei wo men da jia chu le yi kou qi.
haha but melvin dun sad laRh. dun anorexic can. scary leh. eat laRh.

den SPA was quite ok laRh i guess. the skill D din go too well but. overall still not bad.

den we went ISLAND CREAMERY=D=D=D
APPLE PIE ICECREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!
*licks lips*
haha den we went ard looking at MORE FOOD=D=D
and self high ard. u noe. the usual=D
bot LOLLIPOPS and chocolates for 2ml=D
look forward to them from ME=D=D=D

haha i shall go write letters liao.
ohno. so little time.
=P

LING S COMING 2ML!!!!!!!

Monday, July 17, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆

oh heck.
HOW did i manage tt?
WHY did i hv to do tt?
URGH. fine.

i flunked chem too.
great.
im guessing im getting
BCMEP can
nowi have B C E liao.
den can get Moderate for econs
and can get Poor for bio.
den just nice bio chem math econs phys.
yay. oh gp can get G.
Gross.

URGH.
im so going to start working hard for promos. aft the excitement competition runs out.
which would be quite soon. cuz u noe. im *** ****ing.
urgh i hate to say tt.
RAHHHHH.
jiayou=D
i ll be rooting for u guys no matter wad=D
hearts.

i guess no one sees how.
in shows u see best friends being able to see through the fake covers they put over their hurt? well in my case, no one sees. =P
ha.

SKATE LESSONS START NXT WEEK!!!!!! hype.

Sunday, July 16, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆

NEW PHONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SONY ERICSSON W810i!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i luv my daddy to bits=D

but i dun liek singtel. why dun sell w800i le. i liek white+orange can. hmph. but nvm=D now i hv same phone as JAS=D=D=D

hairpee=D

im gg to buy a nice white pouch for my darling new phone=D

MUSIC!!!!!

Saturday, July 15, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆

today trng was watching videos. sigh. watched and saw quite a lot of faillings on my part. sigh.

SIGH. im not playing. ohnvm.

den went for lunch at coro AGAIN. and guess who we saw? sir. HO!

den aft lunch, i went back to sch.
cuz im a nice and helpful friend.
and im SO nisch tt i go and help hongern find file.
hMph. so now u owe me a treat kay=D
and dao my sms. WAHKAO.
im ur saviour can.

I WAN NEW PHONE.
sigh. whines.
i hope i can get.

Friday, July 14, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆

today was slack. haha.

firstly GP ms selva wasnt here. den we watched a movie w s69. quite fun. and the tr v cute=D=D=D movie abt this death row inmate. haha i think we re finishing the movie nxt lesson. coOl right. den aft tt phys lect n math lect was slack too. PW also no tr, so we just slacked again and math did nth. econs was cancelled cuz dilys lim is in charge of some scholarship thingamabob.

oh and im happy cuz im not officially unblocked on class tag board. hMph. ban me. KNS. im the REAL deal can.

we let off at 3. den wanted to go for trng. but amanda was tired. so we slacked awhile. luckily we slacked laRh. nobudi went can. pings was lazing ard class bench too. just tt i din notice her. hMph. haha den in the end stoned ard her classbench laming and tking fotos w jonathan s phone. KOPE! haha nokia 6280 is liek a popular phone. xueling jonathan xiuwei all hv tt phone can. but it does look nice. hMm.

aft tt we all chiong to trng and reached at liek 430._.

and all we trained is 3 bouts of kumikata randori. ._. but it was quite tiring all the same. hMph. and xiaohui cracked my elbow! pings banged my nose against the floor *patpats nose*

den we went to tk photos. LOL. lame loRh.
tk fotos i smile until jiang diao liao.
oh and i was trying real hard not to giggle so liek thru every shot i was trembling so much tt amanda was liek MAJUN. but the prob is i dunno wads tt funny anyway.
oh and i look disgusting on the team foto we took in uniform. yucks. im just not photogenic.
haha and pings DISGUSTING joke. too bad onli 2 of us + mare appreciates it. =P bu shi huo de jia huo men. =P

oh and u noe this morn got meeting for ppl who signed up for sports elect prog? and i was sitting down there and i realised tt cheryl and xiuyi oso chose inline. den aft tt liek er 10 secs later, HINDARTO came. den i oO and i stoned while he waved at me. haha i gave quite a stunned + spas face back i think. omg. he skates?! oh nvm. SKATING!!!!!

haha xiuyi told me since i took her skating tt time in pri 4, she went to buy skates. den she started learning last yr during dec. lag right. haha.
i still rmbr tt time, she wore my skates and was sitting on the stone stool. den she skidded on the wheels and before she could stand up, she skidded out and landed on the floor, butt first. aww. sho poor thing *sniggers*
haha den now she s also quite interested=D its nice to noe tt i brot someone into inline.=D
YAY im looking forward to learning all those stuffs for inline! cant wait much longer.

im sorry if i wasnt tt sensitive today? sigh. i wasnt feeling tt good either.

why is it tt nobudi see s deep enough INTO your soul?
why is it tt nobudi understands how it feels to be so alone?
why is it tt nobudi cares tt im feeling down.
why is it tt nobudi bothers to dig way down into wad i feel and not just look at the hyper front/ surface tt i put up?
nobudi noes.

xia yu le. and i got spastic expression. ohwells. i told u im not photogenic.

oh man. why is my face so big. euw.

EH. spas face again. but got lollipop=D pei pei put one.

ICE CREAM! i personally liek this one best=D hoho. quite cute hoR.

Thursday, July 13, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆

urgh today.
conclusion of nationals preliminary rounds:
A,B guys and girls all going to finals.
C boyboys also going to finals.
C girlgirls bronze.

kay today morn went to sch to tk bus.
WE WASHED OUR SHIRTS KAY (except CXY)
and we had to walk to the TCH swimming pool there to tk bus._.
on the bus i slpt on the 2 seats again.

teach you majun s way of slping on the bus seats:
1. first you sit on the seat nearer to the window.
2. place ur bag/gi on edge of seat nearer aisle.
3. lie sideways and put ur face on your gi/bag.
4. scrunch up your legs and put against the bus side.
5. SLP!!!!!
haha chao nice to slp can=D=D=D
but the bad part is slp too long liddat will chou jin. liek today laRh. cuz 2nd consecutive day slping liddat, den my leg chou jin. PAIN. haha but still good to try. i developed this skill during shanghai trip cuz slp on the LONG busride to ningbo.

first at hougang was B boys.
haha they were v zai in the first bout.
kaijian jitneng zhongning junjie jonathan
they all finished one team bout within 1 min overall plus tog can.
sir say is AES fang shui. but it still looks zai=D
haha good job=D
den 2nd bout was w hougang
also quite fast jiu over=D
so they re meeting RI in finals.
trust urself and go all out=D
jiayoujiayoujiayou!

den was B girls.
they played 1 bout. w BPS.
pei drew w vanessa paige (at least she dint scream *phew)
den eugenia did a v nice morote=D ho!
bernice! lEfT harai! zomg. sho nisch=D
melissa is CUTE=D=D=D and so much taller.
haha and penny is liek quite dwarved.
but its ok. jiayou and keep up w the good work.
meeting RG in finals.

C girls lost the first bout to AES.
which was quite expected.
jing fang n yang han won.
but the nxt 3 foolishly followed their opponents and got ipponed.
urgh. while we screamed on.
den they played repercharge w RGS.
and won. heng aRh.
first three, jingfang, yanghan, nicolea won.
den chenying and shu ren lost.
but shu ren put up quite a good fight leh.
haha got potential. but she normally blur blur one. liek yi ming jing ren liddat. cute=D
so hougang and AES are in finals for C.

so yup. sigh. 5 out of 6 went to finals. lets hope tt we get the 5 cups this year then. =D
den aft tt we went for NEOPRINTS!
haha. and i ate liek a gazillion DESSERTS in 2 days.
poor ** and xy will say.
aww.

i think i almost fainted on the way out of hougang aft the comp today.
i was liek toking to pings. den suddenly i just lost feeling and all thought and i wobbled sideways for liek 3 steps? den i gained back liek some control 2 seconds later.
zomg freaky laRh. i was so freaked out. i think scream and jump and mental roller coaster too much tt its a drain on my physical strength.
sigh. i think im gg to be sick V soon.
throat hurts.
if i faint. im going to. eh faint i guess._.

URGH pings lost her phone can?! it was on her bag and on the hougang hall stage. its liek within everyone s sphere of view and nobudi saw who took it. RAH the person who took it shld burn in hell. curses.
pings dun feel too bad kay. its not reali ur fault.
another girl lost her phone AND money from her wallet laRh. and they were both INSIDE her bag sommore. euw. i think its an insiders job cuz onli got them there. and if they onli took the money and put back the wallet, it must hv been an insider so not so conspicuous right.
i dunno.
urgh.
BURN.

tired. i shld go slp and rest. sigh.

Wednesday, July 12, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆

rahh. tiring day.

thx to jenny jeana qiwen for msging me good luck today=D
and thx to zhang ma n bernice s good luck hug=D
and thx to cynthia s messy-haired-good-luck-msg. haha she s so cute.
and thx to wenling n siying coming to support us=D
and thx to everyone who encouraged me=D
MUACK!

today the a girls were the first to play. haha.
pings morote V nice!!!
pheywa osoto! SWEEP. BOMP. =D *beams*
my bu xiang4 + dun feel liek ippon de ippon.
xiaohui s handling of tt eh quite wide gur.
and jiang yue s fighting w tt damn stiff girl.
haha. so all in all 5-0. =D

den aft tt we stoned for the rest.
and i tot things were over.
boy i was wrong.

first we saw ** squashing some poor girl.
den we saw a v nice uchimata.
and we saw a v nice LEFT ogosh (guess from who._. liek duh right she s the onli one who can do left ogosh so nicely)
and then. there was the GUYS MATCH.
which gave me a MAJOR HEARTATTACK.
phew.
and i survived it=D
tho some ppl lost hearing in their ears.
oops.

eh for those who won, GOOD JOB and keep it up=D
for those who lost, dun be too qi nei and jiayou for the nxt!
yao chen de zhu qi. =P

oh and amanda me n pings screamed everytime sth happened (which is every 5 s)
and poor xinyi xiaohui n jaclyn lost their hearing in both ears i think.
oh and yongkeong s tomoe v nice=D
and hindarto s seoinage is zai as usual even tho tt guy is liek ABIT big=D
and wee siang s bout was exhilarating.
ha.

urgh. so sir treated us all to DESSERTS. and our table polished off 5 DESSERTS at once. MANGO SUNRISE! haha sunshine is fine w me too=D and everyone was eating DESSERTS. (aww poor pings is gg to be SO SAD) at hougang mall. den we stoned and hyped. cuz sugar rush from all tt DESSERTS we ate. haha. hyped n laffed for 30 min can. due to amanda s eh entertainments LOL. haha. den went to sengkang and took MRT home=)

so 'A' div guys n girls are in finals. +'C' div boyboys too.
'B' div-ers jiayou 2ml! the 'C' girlgirls too=D
wo ai ni men! jiayoujiayoujiayou!

i seriously wonder.
after all this time.
that we know ppl ard us.
who reali cares.

do YOU care?

haha pings!
i scream for ICECREAM!
and i (might) scream for DESSERT too!

Tuesday, July 11, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆

i reali wonder.
who reali noes when im sad?
haha there was one.
but now since she was gone.
there s no one else who noes.
isnt tt sad.
aww.

who noticed when i was sad.
nah.
who cares whether i was sad.
nah.
do u see?
nah.

©~jUn²珺☆

tomorrow is THE DAY.
o_o
JIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOU!
LUV U ALL!!!

went to watch remember the titans at amanda s house.
haha amanda s daddy v coOl. he watches power rangers. haha=D
oh and the movie is SHO nisch=D
i luv SUNSHINE!
haha he s so adorable=D
*muaCk*
haha den we pigged out tho some ppl were worrying abt weight probs.
haha=D team bonding.

oh i must mention the new adidas teamshirt.
the soccer logo is ITCHY! urgh.
andden the material v thin.
i feel liek im wearing a nightie.
or nth at all._.

OH and i bot grafitti lollipops=D
HAIRPEE!

random stuff:
burping contest btw xiaohui xinyi n pings.
me and amanda stares on in AMUSEMENT.

我...
以为只要你幸福就好
但我发现我并没有那么伟大。
当我看见，
你的笑不再是因为我，
我的心，
应声沉了下来。

yay=D
my design=D
printed.
and is gg to be worn by 100 ppl.
at least.
ny judokas.
hc judokas.
my teammates.
my snrs.
my jrs.
my coach.
*sigh* =D happy

eh keob says tt 2ml morning we shld go eh his/ wanpengs/ carls class bench to collect our NEW YONG SHIRTS!!!!! HYPE! haha.
wait. i dunno is yong shirt or adidas shirt.
urgh.

haha yk says the shirt design is NICE! (acutally i kinda forced him to say tt=() den jon says its ERR cuz v sketchy.
ok i shall go sad somewhere since noone lieks my shirt.
cry.

no at least pings zn and jiemin lieks=D
self consolation.

oh and did u noe competition shirts comes in sizes XXL?!?!?!
well i certainly dint noe tt.
until today when they got the shirts.
and i cant believe tt there are ppl who CAN wear tt.
since my M shirt covers till my fbt s left abt 3 cm.
if i wore XXL. imagine.
i ll be tripping over the shirt.
and tts saying sth cuz im 170cm.
Oo

oh i LUV mr lee. haha. we told him we dint want swimming pe? den he was liek. UP TO U ALL LOH.
SO NOW WE RE THE ONLI CLASS W/O SWIMMING PE!
3 CHEER S FOR MR LEE!
MUACK

©~jUn²珺☆

yay its 2 days away. scared scared.
oh and math is a B. 59/95. urgh.
sigh. scared scared.

are you still angry?
i dun dare to re you le.
shldnt tok to u.

happy cuz i saw =)
yay.

i guess ur angry becuz of tt? i realised my mistake as soon as i saw ur face. URGH. im sry.
sigh. im an insensitive idiot.
but wad if im wrong? wad if ~~~~~
ohnvm im not gg to waste brain cells on this.

PEACHES! nice hao chi=D

©~jUn²珺☆

yay today went to jurong point w my mummy=D
bot mascara. was trying mascara in the john little shop? den e results v entertaining. not onli did my eyelashes look longer, the mascara gave me double eye lids.
ok. fine.
its triple.
=P haha quite fun.

urgh. wanted to go running. den this clap of thunder just "BANGED". den i O_o.
haha den i kinda changed my decision. =P hahaha. sobs.

sigh.sigh.sigh.

LOL jonathan thinks mascara is make face white white. LOL. faint.

haha siying n wenling.
sry. so long den give this info.
its wed afternoon for A girls and thurs afternoon for B and C girls.
den its 1300 weighing in i think.
so shld be starting ard 2?
haha. yup=D
hope to cya=D

©~jUn²珺☆

ohyay. today trng was ok. quite slack. haha.
haha but the makekomi part wasnt good. xiaohui s taiotosh banged me on the floor.
den i could feel my heart got most of the impact, den it was pumping liek reali hard.
TONG! grah. =P
trng was quite slack so maybe later i go pao bu? hMm dunno.
den we went coronation to eat=D=D=D
sambal chicken is HOT. haha.
oh and saw wachel=D

felt quite wretched today. sigh.

wad can make me feel better. hMph.

skate. skate. skate.
haha skate boarding seems liek fun.
after i master skating maybe i ll go for it.
=D

atan: when i say amanda u say i love u
amanda
nic: i love u
atan: amanda
nic: i love u
atan: when i say amanda u say a lot
amanda
nic: a lot
atan: amanda
nic: a lot
atan: amanda amanda
nic: alot a lot

._. suggested ans for the last line is " i love amanda a lot"

thankyou for your kind attention.
this will be shown in skits during grad nite.
pls pay attention.

LOL

©~jUn²珺☆

hoho unlucky day. sigh.
CUT CHOCO-CHEESE-OREO cake=D=D=D
sigh. we had a mini adventure to IKEA.
me jas amanda jenny jeana mare qiwen stella liane
den aft shopping for liek 20 min, we got shooed back cuz they tking attendence. sigh.
den i was informing everyone i knew out of sch.
haha and i yuan wang ed zhang cuz i tot she out of sch.
and when i called kiamian she was alredi on the way back.
haha but at least i helped yk thomas n jitneng? cuz they din get caught i think. hMm.

im sry tt u had so much trust in us and we disappointed u.
but we do need some time to ourselves?

urgh. and i hate u. how can u say sth so hurtful. i think i shld stop believeing tt ppl will be nice to me just cuz we re friends.

and for the youth day appeal? i was so embarressed to give a grand total of 11 bucks? for the whole entire class. haha. thx nia. for making the tr stare at me. PUHLEEZE. its for charity. wadeva.

oh and i signed up for the inline skating course in sch for sports elective prog. haha. cuz can learn braking and a turning. beats me wad s a turning. but its fun=D haha. and its FOC and its in sch=D haha. sho fun=D i LUV skating=D

haha trng=D was ok laRh. as compared to the last hwachong one. hMm but still must do nagekomi w the little boyboys. ><
shi-ai was liek so much better den ny side one. sigh. i guess tt s the diff. =P

haha aft trng we went to far east to cut hair for xy xh and pings. cutcutcutcut=D haha and den we ate subway=D nxt time xinyi n pings go subway must ask for extra cucumber to reduce their eyebags. HOHO=D

haha xiaohui now got coOl hair=D

i heard i got B for math. haha i guess tt s the highest im gg to get for any subj. lol.

lol. zhai.

haha just now was toking to pings? haha den rmbred just now on the bus.
me "im gg to marry a guy w purple eyes!"
xiaohui "xiao aRh. might as well buy contacts for him to wear"
haha. quite stupid of me.
but i look at a person s eyes=D
the PERFECT pair of eyes are SOMEONE's. haha. i noe tt s SO useful right=D im shUre.
oh and i wna look into ur eyes n see ur soul.
clear clear eyes.
i wna noe all abt u=D

extra: xiaohui said "i prefer mare"
HAHAHA

©~jUn²珺☆

ohyay=D
trng was sho fun today=D
haha din feel tired at all.
wish i can say the same abt 2ml s trng.

haha me n nic is "you jump, i jump"
i m "you jump"
nic is "i jump"
so no matter how u say, its still nic jump.
HAHA. but nvm its ok.
i noe she still luvs me=D

haha 2day aft trng, i was telling xiaohui i wanna wear heels.
den i saw this "v nice nice nice nice nice heels"
den say finish, i m liek eh wrong.
its " v v v v v v nice heels"
den xiaohui laff until. hMph.

sigh. physics is as bad as chem. sad.
ok it s worse. sigh.

sigh. can you PLS think abt wad other s ll feel if you say tt? harlo. i hv feelings.

oh and im multi tasking. sad. =P MHO! sob

and nats is on WED. OMG. HOW COME WE ALL TOT IT WAS THURS?! sobs.

i had to blackmail melvin to do pw can?
haha but the blackmail v farney.
haha. i might ACCIDENTALLY put it on class blog=D
GRIN.

homo means GAY.
and LOVE bring molecules tog==.
all quoted from edward during chem lesson.
how ingenious.

©~jUn²珺☆

yay. today was our first day at lessons.
and i got back chem. sigh 16/25??? its liek WADDE?!?!?!
urgh. haha lets all go for s79 birthday party ok=D

JUST MY LUCK!
FUNNY!!!!
quality teammate time tog=D
i just got SO absorbed into the movie?
tt i dinnoe how much time passed?
and i dinnoe where we were until we got out?
den realisation dawned.
haha. so sweet the movie.
CHRIS PINE IS SO HOT!
JAKE HARDIN!!!!!!!
McFLY CAN SING and the lead singer w blond hair is ~~~~ =D
I LUV TT MOVIE!!!

den aft tt on the bus, at hwachong, vivian lee ying na got on the bus=D haha i think her chi name is v nice=D so adorable. haha den we toked v long. abt our own ccas. haha. abt the probs. abt the nats and abt everything. sigh. jia jia you ben nan nian de jing. track is also v shorthanded. sigh. its ok.
JIAYOU TRACK & FIELD!
JIAYOU JUDO!

dun tok abt sensitive stuff like grandmother s funerals.
some ppl are HURT by tt.
PLS SPARE A THOT FOR OTHERS.

today went shopping at marina sq=D=D=D
haha den went for trng.
trng was slacker den usual. but the zigzag V LONG. its liek NV ENDING?! haha.
den while ppl were doing finger s and wrists, poor me was doing situps. 120 situps. means that im gg to get abs v soon if they cont to do fingers n wrists. =P i dun mind. haha. i got too much fats le. can work them off.
den we went for dinner at coro. ok not dinner. i just drank nai cha. but we crapped a lot=D sho fun=D
oh and we bot sth for jenny n jeana=D shirts=D yellow green n blue=D nice nice. haha.
=D=D=D
can u pls get THE MSG?! it cant be any clearer cuz everyone else can tell except u. lameded laRh.

sigh. dun wanna elaborate on wad happened at home.
but since U dun wanna take me shopping. wads wrong w ME doing my shopping ON MY OWN?

urgh. curse the fax machine. i took 4 times to get the fax right. hMph. waste my time typing the same courteous msg to the wadeva place. hMph. pissed off.

toking to u abt tt makes me realise tt. its true.
tt we dun treasure things.
until we finally realise tt we re losing it, or we have alredi lost it.
but then, its alredi too late.
and we regret.
but nothing we do matter s anymore.
cuz we ve alredi lost them.
but dont blame yourself for not being there.
u didnt have a choice in that.
neither did i.
and i did berate myself when the news came.
why was i at school?
why didnt i know tt she was in her final few days?
why didnt i care more?
why didnt i go and find out?
but after that u ll finally come to.
and realise tt. it isnt reali ur fault.
and she s nv reali gone.
she still lives within your memories.
and now, she s liberated from her pain.
she s now peacefully somewhere safe.
looking over us all.
and protecting us all.
as do ancestors before us.
im not a religious person, im a free thinker.
but i do believe that.
once a person dies, they do go to somewhere safe.
where they are at peace with everything else.
where they are happy.
and there is no war.

thing liek this happen.
and it reminds you again.
that she was once in your life.
that she once influenced you life.
and made you a better person.

i still remember her.
i remember that hateful day.
in primary 4.
when i got into the lift with daddy.
he told me. with this sadness in his eyes.
that my grandma "lao le" which i didnt understand.
until he explained that she had died.
haha. u noe when u feel this pain?
deep inside the depths of ur heart?
before that u thought u knew wad was heartbreak?
but u onli reali know the reality of heartbreak until that moment when u truly feel it.
its liek this ache.
and it goes on and on, until it doubles u over.

everytime, i see him staring into space, and thinking about the times u 2 were together.
i feel the heartache again.
and this horrible suan-ness in my nose.
and the wetness on my cheeks.
and the big red swollen eyes.
its so bad that she is taken from us.
but we can all make sure that she still lives in our memories.
and around us.

i love you.
and i still will.

stay strong will ya?
im sure she ll want that of u.
and im sure she loves u as much as u did love her.

©~jUn²珺☆

last night i had a SUPER LONG dream. but the onli scenario i rmbr is of u. i din see much of u thruout the 'dream scenario' den when i was leaving w her, u ran to me and stuck sth into my hand. i rmbr u were wearing black. =P racer summore. tsktsk. hahaha. and i m quite touched w wad u gave me. but. all in all its a dream.
and reali.
Why did i let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

den went JE lib. haha thot tt i wun see any more hc ppl cuz no more exams. ya. shure. in the end the lib was flooded by ac ppl. haha.
i saw yuxing tong karin diana bekway liting mugging there. its liek major 410 mugging session. haha. den i TRIED to help in doing their math cuz their paper is 2ml. and i failed miserably=( sobs. major hint tt im gg to fail math. on top of everything else. sigh.
haha today was fun=D suanning bekway, getting suaned, eating liek beggars on the bench in entertainment ctr w yuxing n bekway. laffing at them being slow in doing hw. =P so fun. makes me miss mugging sessions from last yr. sigh. make me miss u.

grah. 2ml trng again. anione up for shopping?!?!?! haha. since my mummy dusen wan to oblige me, then i shall hv to find other ppl to shop w me=P

{勇9days}

I've never had someone that knows me ~~like you do~~
~~The way you do~~
I've never had someone as good for me ~~as you~~
~~No one like you~~

©~jUn²珺☆

ohyay=D back from sentosa=D
haha grudgingly moved my butt to sentosa w my mummy daddy bro and my mummy s friend+husband+son. sigh. i din wan to go. cuz little kiddos will play tog ( meaning my bro and tt boyboy) den i ll be extra. but in the end dint=D
haha. i was nanny of the day, den i biked+SKATED+skylined+luging+stoned+ateSAKAE+suntanned tho the sun tanning part is not i wan de.
i slathered one WHOLE layer of sunblock. but in the end i still got burned. tsktsk.
biked for 1 hr. skated for 1.5 hr. luged+skylined 3 times =D
haha while skating, i saw one SUPER CUTE guy skating. haha. or trying to skate anyway. eh. i think first few times? but quite ok laRh. haha. den got ALOT OF CUTE BABIES ARD! *makes faces at them* den i skated from one end of siloso beach to the dolphin lagoon and back=D
den biking we biked twice tt dist. tho my bro was cycling reali slowly. haha. he was super cute on a tiny bike. got a lot of ppl oogling at this little thing on a little bike. haha=D
ate sakae! my bro ate liek 1.5 times of wad i ate. and he s now hungry again. 2 hrs aft all tt sushi== the EBI ONE IS SHO NISCH!
eat more can do EBI better=D mUaha.
haha.
luging+skylining!!! funfunfun. first you take the skyline up, which FYI if u din noe, is a kind of cable chair, liek the kinds u see in the ski resorts. and its UBER high== i was quite scared. cuz i m afriad of heights. and the chair seems quite flimsy to me. oh nvm=P from on top of the chair, u can see helmets hanging in trees, water bottles on grass, tickets for luging, and even a cap in the tree. where ppl lost their stuffs. den u ll unconciously hold ur slippers to you tighter. haha. and my bro said "wah i am superman leh! flying!" den i ==
aft abt 10 mins of SUPERSUNTANNING on the chair, u ll reach the place where u can luge=D oh and rmbr to SMILE for the cam=D
luging is sitting on a cute cart and controlling it down the slope=D SEHR FUN! wah. liek speeding liddat. zoom down 4 turns and ACCIDENTALLY bumping into someone=D sister-brother bonding time=D since he was sitting infront. haha. a bit sweaty onli. butnvm=D $15= 3(lugerides+skylinerrides) haha. quite worth it. for one person laRh.
lets ALL GO SENTOSA N PLAY! funfunfun.

so now. burnt n exhausted. haha. FUN.
now i have a SUPER racer tanline==
aRgh.

YAY.
today saw: zhangma xiaohui mare berber michelle kiamian vivian eggy everlyn wachel daph cher er if i forgot, im SRY.
haha. its liek a 4/9 gathering. missed everyone SOOO MUCH.
and MR TAN WAS THERE! haha. missed him too! a lot. esp during our *coff* bio tutorials.
i miss his jian fei da ji hua s and his stories abt his many relatives and friends and miao miao & blackie. sob.
haha. tho there wasnt much stuff to do there.
oh except being suaned by sir. cuz i was carrying wilson (my darling vball). hMph
OH. ny was selling tupperware and DIAMONDS at the funfair?! eh. lameded out laRh.
haha and there wasnt reali EDIBLE food. even mr tan said so. in a conspirational whisper. haha.
haha. den we were heading for marina sq (or wad we thot) when zhongning walked into ny w 2 of his teammates== W HC JUDO TEAMSHIRT and judo gi== er apparently, they came becuz they got "nothing to do"
i am amazed tt ppl come to ny funfair when they hv nth to do. cuz u come here. even MORE nth to do. haha.
din get to play vball in the end=( nobudi wanted to in the end laRh. make me bring wilson ard orchard n bugis. hMph.

haha went w zhang n chok and cher to eat burger king. ok cher was eating yakun and shihlin cuz she cannot bite ( she just tightened braces) and chok was eating long john fries. den me and zhang ma ordered the double whopper meal at BK. omg. the double whopper. is liek the size of my face. and it weighs liek 3 burgers plus tog. omg. and its liek the thickness of 2 sec4 chem tbs laRh. wadde. me and zhangwei share tt 1 meal. ate until wanna puke. yuck.
point of agreement: raw tomato dun belong in a burger. not nice.
and zhangma bot a nice yellow tee=D

den aft tt we went to wisma to shop=D cher bot a roxy coin purse thingamabob. haha quite cute. last piece available in singapore summore. cuz apparently the cashier called all the outlets but all dun hv anymore. so cher took the display one. quite cute.
OH TT RIPCURL HANDBAG IS NICE! GREEN! hmph. why dun hv orange. =P
den we stoned at food republic drinking stuff and just resting our legs. haha we were so tired we werent even toking loh. haha.
tried out nail polish at the face shop. the purple is so disgusting. now my pinkie nail looks bruised w a big purple orbakah.
we decided to shop more. at bugis. but cher din wanna come so me zhang n chok went.
haha reali got a lot of nice stuff=D me and zhang bot the same skirt=D white w brown trimmings. and chok bot a yellow shirt w brown words=D nice nice.
oh and now aft buying. i realise tt the skirt v short. even shorter den my black one. hMm.
haha. zhangma and chok for a fetish for leaning on my shlder.== zhang chok cher n daph all say wanna find boyfriend my ht, so just nice can kao. mean poks. hMph. yi bian yi ge lean summore. =P haha. but its ok=D i luv u the same=D

the imposter 'me' on the class blog. u better stop using my name. i dun mind if u use a variation. but dun i change how i tag as, u oso change. harlo. i do hv a temper. and a bad one at tt. u dun reali piss me off. im gg to explode i tell u.
and i DO NOT WAN TO BE SUPERWOMAN
supergirl nicer=D
haha. not reali. eh. POWERPUFF GIRL BETTER=D
mUaha.

haha and zhangma got ulterior motive for meeting me every morning.
*gasps*
haha. she say she les.
haha im so shUre.
=P
but i dun mind=D
HAHAHA