Tuesday, February 28, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆
hoho mebbe being hyper has a limit. or its lyk a battery. once u use finish, its gone. cuz today the whole day, i couldnt find anything to hyp up. couldnt even hyp. sad case man. im a total failure. cant even hide wad i feel le. many times tears well up, and i force dem back in. i try to tok. but i fail miserably. i want to be alone. yet i want to belong. i want to chui feng and sort out my thots but i oso wan sum1 to pei wo. im contradicting myself. but who cares. nobudi even realises. fine.
im always lyk 2nd fiddle. lyk the disposable float to keep u afloat when u need help and thrown away when u ve got sum1 else. lyk the spare tyre dat u onli use if others r not available. its not good being 2nd choice... haha cuz most of the time u becum the opportunity cost and ur left wif no one... haha... yay i got 18/20 for econs quiz and this is why=D haha apply econs.
hmm but pt kinda recharged my battery... haha was quite hyper wif kat they all after trng... yays... i luv trngs cuz there is where i truly belong. where i FEEL the vibe ppl ard me emit. yays.
haha king keong ballet... haha did u realise dat we changed the position of ur bags again? haha and we even changed the uniform on top... TEE HEHE...
i just realised dat i dun noe much abt my teammates... hmm...nvm haha...
sch sucks. as do me. i hate u.
i trusted u. mebbe i just trust all the wrong ppl. or mebbe i imagined dat sum1 would care. mebbe all dat concern was just part of my imagination. i dunno. haha. im so naive thinking that ppl will care just because i try to be a good friend. cuz it apparently dusen work dat way. they hv their own lives. fine. u just go find him/her. i ll just stone here. anyway dats wad i did before u came. i can always go back to wad i did before. i wun die liddat. haha. u go ur own way. u dun hv to act lyk u care. isnt dat a burden off ur shoulders? HAHA. im such a burden.
Monday, February 27, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆
SIGH. mebbe now dat i noe. i ll stop looking to u. haha. its weird. y am i so not lyked. sigh. mebbe its just me loh. i dun hv a lykable character...
i got pissed off a lot of times today... a lot of ppl pissed me off too.. dun feel good thinking abt it... SIGH. when am i going to be at harmony wif myself n others? there r just times in sch when i dunno wad to do. nobudi toks to me and all i wanna do is sit near the railing and feel the wind blow. and hope dat you were there to sit with me. sigh. but dats lyk not possible le. i dunno. weird right. im weird. mebbe i din cry enuff... i need the recipe to cry again... mebbe i shld go look for more tragedies to read. hmm
haha shiu wei sat nxt to a mei nu on the bus today=D yays... haha he must be lyk so rong xing laRh... haha a mei nu chose to sit nxt to him... den i was lyk laffing behind dem... HAHAHA... so chio loRh... as he said A BIT pretty loh=D guess dats enuff=D lol...
i dun lyk GP... i lyk all subjects excluding GP... sigh... but bio... i dunno... chem oso changing tr right=( i dun wan i wan miss quek... she s lyk nice n good laRh... later change to ah gu*t... den me die now... faint... den phys the lecturer chao zai laRh... can teach lyk for half an hour and den... realise he s on the wrong topic. DUH.
this sucks... i shld read up on my own. sigh.
miss trng now... =( shld hv gone today.
Sunday, February 26, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆
sigh ppl r all getting injured n dying n not feeling their best...
jiangyue n charlene get well soon ok... sars will chuan ran de neh...
charlene take care of ur elbow laRh dun train until it gets well!
nic... hope ur skye disappears soon=D yay den u will you ren yao again=D
pheywa take care of ur knee ok=D muacks
xiaohui xiao xin ni de ankle laRh!
ping if u dun feel so good call me ok=D i ll always luv u=D
amanda dun always so tired... CHEER UP=D im always here
chaoqun get well soon ok=D cheer up dun sulk... haha and dun lie to jrs ok...
joanathan hope ur hand heals faster=D
peijin go see doc! later is fracture HOWHOWHOW... hmph go take an xray laRh...
and THX WINI FOR THE PLASTER=D tho it stuck to my wound...
ARGH the wound is lyk OOZING dunno wad and its disgusting... sighsighsigh.. hope it ll heal soon... the pain is bearable but looking at it makes me shudder...
i shld go study. but no xin qing. i wanna get well too... sigh.
why dont u care.
Saturday, February 25, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆
SIGH... am supposed to be at chinatown JTSing now... but... instead im at home._. sigh... diarrhoea sucks... my elbow sucks... e stoopid cramps from my problem sucks... mebbe i shld reali go for the scan... but im scared... SIGH
today bought new earrings=D STARS=D so pretty... *sighs and looks at it adoringly* haha and i bought string for making friend ship bands=D *grins from ear to ear* yay nv make for lyk how many years le... but i think i still can make it laRH... certainly hope so...
haha my daddy bought new tv=D LCD tv 42 inches=D yay den dun hv to cont to watch the spoiling tv... hmm but lcd v bian bian de... den v weird... hmm i lyk the tv now... HMPH... nvm...
haha me and my daddy was laffing just now.. cuz my daddy say when he paying for the TV den he was lyk "took out a gold visa card and paid in cash, full, den handphone rang and he took out a big chunky nokia 3100 " HAHA my daddy s phone is xiu-ing again.. HAHA... so he using the most prehistoric phone we hv in the house... HAHA... i bet the manager is lyk O_O... HAHAHAHAHA... ok shall stop laffing... anyway I CALLED HIM=D teehehe... so throw face=D
hmm shall i go 2molo? buy team shirt i heard... but so extra again... sigh.. and i havent done any homework... sigh... and my tummy hurts=( sadsadsad... SIGH...
shall think abt it... anyway dun even noe where theyre gg.. and when... SIGH
i shall go make my friendship band=D
Friday, February 24, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆
sigh today trng was... dunno... haiz... disgusting elbow dun let me put anything on it... keeps dropping off so i gave up and just trained wifout any bandaging... sigh... den in e end the scab came off... part of it anyway... died everytime i got thrown... eek... mebbe i shld learn to do morote again... n left osoto... mebbe its poss... haha=D gain more throws=D hehe
just becuz im fat dusen give u e right to cont. toking abt it. ok? can u think abt wad i feel?
fine im fat.
hmph.
wad do u care? u say dat im slacking. but do u noe wad im gg thru? u say i tok online wif ppl. do u noe how much time im spending on studying n sch n cca? cant i relax? fine. u use the com. u slack. u ask me when u need help. im just supposed to study well excell in everything help u when u need help and dun play. FINE.
this life is a vacuum cleaner. sigh. major suckage.
Thursday, February 23, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆
朋友
这些年一个人 风也过雨也走
有过泪有过错 还记得坚持甚麽 真爱过才会懂 会寂寞会回首
终有梦终有你在心中 朋友一生一起走
那些日子不再有 一句话一辈子
一生情一杯酒 朋友不曾孤单过
一声朋友你会懂 还有伤还有痛
还要走还有我
u sure these are true? cuz i dunno. im doubting it all now...
wini =D thx for cheering me up. i just felt v weird. and i am deproving... sigh n now my elbow den cant train reali wel too. sigh.
sigh. i dunno. i dun mind many trngs. it makes me feel belongish... lyk OH im required at judo trng. sigh. its weird to not be needed.
hmm charlene says dat its the j1 s job to find team shirt. faints. does dat mean dat im gonna take many more painful trips to places lyk RSH and liang seng to look for nice adidas shirts? faints. sigh. sigh. sigh. sigh. sigh.
sad. why am i sad and everyone else happy? why do they hv ppl who care a lot n i dun hv? why am i so weird n unlyked. SIGH.
u dun care. dun think i dunno. haha u just act. n and i tell. cuz im sensitive. so stop it. if u dun feel lyk it, jus stop.
happy burfday darling=D luv ya=D
haha he s so cute just now cut burfday cake he was lyk "i wan the strawberry! i lyk strawberry!" haha and me being the nice nice person i m i gave the strawberry to him=D nice cake. kat is right. i reali hv a SWEET tooth=D and mebbe its all sweet TEETH i hv=D
on second thots mebbe its becuz im too sweet=D HAHA
Wednesday, February 22, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆
sigh skating is good for the soul and bad for the body.
guess who fell down.
yup.
moi.
faint.
now i v got a gash on my elbow... sigh=( hmph... nvm... but it felt good to skate... esp after so long... i wan a skating partner=( or skating partnerS haha so dat it ll be more fun...
sigh i shld go study for econs lecture test... nv study anything yet. me faint.=( sigh...
wanna cry. but who would collect my tears for me? feimao? haha. i shld stop cheating myself dat feimao understands wad im saying... its a stoopid stufftoy. but i luv it anyway... hmm im contradicting myself am i? not making sense. mebbe its the lost of blood...
im frustrated. sad. depressed. dunno-wad-to-do-ed. i just wan sum1 to care. enuff to tok to me and bear my tears.
©~jUn²珺☆
hmm NOT GOOD=( sigh...
its NOT good if u realise these few things abt majun:
-she s quiet.
-she s expressionless.
-she has the pissed face.
-her eyes look teary.
haha
not good. today math was disgusting. shall not say why.
i just feel very alone. all of a sudden im lyk cut off from society. lyk there is suddenly a layer separating me from other ppl... sigh...
shall go skate later... since nobudi wanna go ice skating wif me. sigh. sumbudi just make me feel luved=( i feel so out.
stop scolding me. i feel bad already. U DUN CARE. NOBUDI CARES. haha onli fei mao noes all abt my secrets and wad i feel. our convo is liddat:
majun: fei mao ni zhi dao wo you duo shang xin mah?
feimao:...
majun: ni hui yi zhi zai zhe li pei zhe wo dui ma?
feimao:...
majun: ni bu hui li wo er qu dui ma?
feimao:...
majun: ni ye bu hui bu yao wo... fei mao zhi you ni liao jie wo...
feimao:...
haha... but at least i got feimao. i hug it to slp everyday and it sees all my tears. haha... onli feimao noes.
insensitive lout.
Tuesday, February 21, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆
BAGBAGBAGBAGBAG=D PRETTY PRETTY ADIDAS BAG WIF ROU DAO WRITTEN ON IT... PRETTY PRETTY 94.50 BUCKS BAG! HEARTS IT! LUVS IT! MUACKS IT TOTALLY=D haha i feel lyk jayce now._. no offence=D
i luv my new bag=D haha and stoopid uncle... *clears throat* wait for so long liao... i was pining for my new bag *_* starstruck face as i look at my darling new bag=D *GRIN BIG BIG* *JIAN YA BU JIAN YAN* haha now i feel lyk cindy=D
today trng was quite slack... but i oso couldnt do a lot of stuff=( sad... den felt v guilty especially when we were watching the guys do the wheelbarrow hopping on the tiles... =( haiz... v pain loh... den felt so bad=( den u see all of dem their hands all po pi... den u ll be =(((((((( sigh... eek nxt time we ll do half hopping... ==
shiu wei get well soon ok=D haha
liane too=D get well soon... hope ur ankle heals.
******* *** ******! dun worry im not swearing. just dun wan others to noe wad im toking abt... HAHA
haha me and xiu wei diaoed carl... HAHA *continues to laff... * oops._. ok im mean...
haha and gg to take bag is good. haha u ll get discount vouchers on ur burfday=D haha me and xh will hv=D TEEHEHE
thomas jonathan and xinyi still owe me money for bag==
2molo u ll see 10 ppl wif the same bag=D OMGOMGOMG... CANT WAIT=D KISS MY BAG=D
Monday, February 20, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆
yesterday kyu grade. hmm lost to xiaohui and got 2nd. pulled a lot of muscles... i dunno. feel disgusted wif myself for playing such a disgusting bout. eek. sigh. wadeva. not asif i can do anything abt it now. sigh. yesterday quite a few ppl lost. was surprised quite a few times... hmm ppl who lost dun feel too bad k=D haha majun still luvs u all=D eugenia jiang yue and sum others... hmm dun reali rmbr dat many... oops sry=D
haha today lamed wif chaoqun... hehe suaned him a lot=D tho i oso got my share of being suaned... and HE S WEIRD. why think so much into THOSE kind of things.. HMPH... as if its poss liddat... and not just amanda... link me in summore... HMPH. bish him arh... haha HE SAYS HE GOT FUNKY HAIR AND FUNKY SPECS._. everyone who dusen agree, BREATHE. YAY=D hmm sry to xiu wei for waiting for me for so long to go home... i tot could go jurong point to buy bag.. in the end the bag nv cum yet... sigh... sho shad...
haha den in the end at the bus stop, three 157 s and one 66 went past.. den we were lyk O_O why no 174... den yong keong came... haha den we lame summore... den got double decker 174... we were lyk *scrambles for bags* den the bus went past cuz nobudi flagged._. OMG faintsch... haha in the end convinced him to take 157=D grinz... the FOURTH 157 loh... hmph... den on the bus we "sch"ed all the "S' es... i was lyk "shiu wei ish sho nisch" haha... den in the end shuo dao xi guan liao, when i got home, i scolded my brother "schtoopid"... faintsch. haha... sry shiu wei...
amanda... lets go force out who is ge zi from chaoqun=D
hmm the bag coming 2molo... NEW BAG=D grin big big=D haha
hmm dun tell me dat. i ll get sad. haha i dunno why. i dun even noe u well. why is this happening? hah.
Saturday, February 18, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆
just had dinner at the seafood restaurant... HAHA ate lyk 2 days worth of stuffs... HAHA probably weigh abt 100 kg now... cant make the weight for 2molo liao hehehe... luckily 2molo -70... hmm
i cut hair today=D haha i cut fringe=D haha and layered tho its still the same length... =D
haiz... finally back to my blogging... i just spent half an hour toking to 9 ppl... faint... jonathan royston zhongning peijin liyou xianwei chaoqun chengyen and yueqiu. faints. omg... haha nearly dieded.
2molo comp. die die die haha. sumbudi just kill me and put me out of my misery. i support euthanesia now.
Friday, February 17, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆
i dunno. its just getting from bad to worse. i mean i feel more ostroed as each day passes. hai. today~~~ i dunno wad to say liao honestly.
if u feel irritated by me, seriously, just tell me. i ll rather i noe and zhi nan er tui and stop irritating u den get ignored/ daoed.
these few days, onli sum things make me feel as if i belonged. lide smses into the night asking abt homework. calls abt anything under the sun. i dunno. it makes me feel lyk im needed. mebbe i just need dat feeling abt me.
today sulked abt the entire day cuz was v sick and tired and felt missed out. dunno on wad. but still seriously missed out for stuffs. urgh.
i think i need a shlder to cry on. mebbe 1 hr. mebbe after an hour i ll feel better. cuz now i cant even force myself to cry out. tho i nearly did today when i was alone near the railings. mebbe i shldnt even be here and imposing myself on all ur lives. im sorry im here. but im oso sry cuz i cant leave. sigh. im confused. im sad. im depressed and depressing.
hate myself.
Thursday, February 16, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆
sigh. today was. dunno. just hv the feeling dat ppl r pissed wif me. i duno. i dun lyk dat feeling. sad. sad. sad. im sick of feeling sad too. i feel sad everyday. hai. ppl ard me care. teammates snrs teenage mutant ninja turtle classmates friends. but still i feel sad.
wore hc uniform today.. haha i lyk the uniform... makes me look longer=D haha got the judo contact list today too=D hehe den i can spam ppl=D haha ok jk... ur safe from me...=D serious... HAHA...
sir asked us j1s who wans to get interviewed by the straits times for being good in cca and studies... haha they asked me to go... but i was lyk if they ask me wad i did to maintain both i ll hv nothing to say... cuz i started studying for midyrs prelims n os 2/3 days b4 exams started. haha den i ll maluate myself too. so i refused.
2molo got trng too. sigh hv to move mats... hv to man fan xiuwei again. feel bad. haha thx for being nice=D
melvin, dun feel so bad laRh. im sure we ll find a way to keep u in our class=D serious=D haha we ll petition for u=D officially launching the SAVE MELVIN CAMPAIGN! haha dun sulk ok=D smile more=D
tired. sigh. i shall go sulk and do hw now. sad.sad.sad.sad.sad.
Wednesday, February 15, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆
hai yesterday was fruitful and disgusting at the same time...
present giving=D received lots of chocos, a roxy wallet (from my darling mortal), a GIGANTIC mug (from my dear angel) and 933 yin yue ri ji signed by all the deejays (from my darling lame adopted mortal)=D haha... yea=D and for gift exchange i got a mini football from xianwei=D and zhang gave me a candle wif my name=D and i got a bimbo pencil from amanda (according to her its ex... haha nvm ah moo gives bimbo presents=D) and i got flowers=D from snrs, chengyen and yuxing darling=D SHO happy=D
haha den trng sucked. i couldnt breathe thru trng and i missed 2 laps of carry-on-the-back-up-the-terraces and 50 situps and 100 superman. ARGH. and i dieded thru the rest, esp the frog jumps. feel so guilty abt being so lan and stuffs. hai. after that i was quite depressed on the way back to class bench. walked extra slow and lagged behind amanda xiaohui pings they all... den when i reached, i just couldnt take it anymore laRh. and i started crying behind the class bench. sigh. so weak. me weak. me cry. hai. dear snrs oso... cares a lot abt me... phey wa nichola jiangyue and charlene=D all nice and pretty snrs=D darling teammates amanda xiaohui n pings said its not my fault but but... i still feel weak laRh. i mean im the onli one dying during trngs. but weiheng v nice. haha he popped down wif his teenage mutant ninja turtle bandanna and tried to cheer me up by saying how sad he was... haha but thx anyway=D but couldnt stop... den jenny popped down (79 peeps lyk to pop down on others) and tried to cheer me... den xiuwei popped BY to cheer me up... he tried to make me feel better by telling me of his bad experiences... haha and er he offered me water from his water bottle._. faint. haha they are so nice=D muacks=D and huang hao hindarto weexiang and chao qun all asked abt how i am... and tong n yuxing oso listened to me grumble... SO TOUCHED BY EVERYONE I NOE=D MUACKS<3 u all=D
stop daoing me. even ppl i noe less well dun dao me liddat. hmph. go and die laRh. pissed off. not as if i did anything to incur ur wrath RIGHT. hmph. talking to me or admitting dat i exist wun give u any disease OK. grr.
din go sch 2day=( sigh... did plan not to. but in the morning reali felt disgusting... couldnt speak and was faint once i got up. haiz... heard from weiheng dat they had fire drill today... ohno. i din go. den if got fire i ll get burnt=( sad sad sad... hmm missing cross country too.. sigh... not so regretful abt dat tho.. haha... sry u guys... i reali CMI le=(
WEARING HC UNIFORM 2MOLO=D GRINZ=D
Friday, February 10, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆
i expected better from you laRh. i mean i just scored 8 A1s. can u pls show sum appreciation?! i mean yi ju "congratulations" is enuff? oh thx for the display of affection man, sorry if i dun bow down in front of u. man. can u pls SHOW STH? u dun even ask abt it when i reach home. heaven noes if u even care. oh wads majun. er he s much better. yea he can get the world by being 3 rd in class. by scoring 100 for spelling. while im nothing when i score straight As for 'O's. FINE. WADEVA. I SHLDNT CARE.
hmm tong s sad. yuxing s sad too. even tho she dusen say anything. weiteng s sad. amanda s sad. sigh. a lot of ppl r sad. hai~~~ i got nothing to say. but the truth is unavoidable. hai.
din cry the whole day even tho v nervous for results. but after dat, once i came home, and saw ur reaction, i cried. or shld i say when i DIN see ANY reaction from u... haha yitian asked how i was gg to celebrate. i din noe wad to reply her. seriously. fine.
mebbe im too sensitive. but i cant help feeling things. i feel unfavorable vibes coming from u and u. i DUN LYK THE FEELING. if u r irritated by me, just dun tok to me. or tell me. just ignore me. dun give me the sian face and one-word-answers. i hate dat feeling of being fu-yaned. urgh. fine. my sensitive meter is 3... means quite sensitive. the personality report say s dat i ll get hurt easily... but at least mine is better den SUMONE s 1... HAHA... but it oso says dat i feel easier wad others feel... dats both the good and bad side of being sensitive... hai... u feel TOO MUCH... sigh... gets depressed ultra easy... hmph
eek. i just dao-ed sir' s call... i din realise the voice was his... OMGOMGOMG... hope he nv gets my number... OMGOMGOMG... hope he forget s 2molo... OMGOMGOMG... *faints*
Wednesday, February 08, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆
went to doc today wif peijin n huiming... er... she say my throat v red... must rest... den wanted to give me 2 days MC... but i refused... cuz na le ye mei you yong... haiz... 2molo lessons cant miss... den fri got results... NO USE LARH... hmph...
coffing lyk mad... feel tired n drained=( sigh... hope 2molo n fri no trng... if not i die die i tell u... sigh...
Monday, February 06, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆
hmm
one trng + 3.2 run + jogging + 460 situps = muscle ache + pulled knee + pulled back. sad... and 2 twisted toesies too... sad=(
haiz... today was~~~ sai... and 2molo will be SAI... hmm u said dat my coff will be gone by 2molo right. YA RIGHT. its still here laRh... sai... dammit... hmph.
my stamina sux.
i dun think my body can take much stress le... first nose infection -> left ear infection -> right ear infection -> nose infection again now... den my flu-cum-horrible-coff has been here for 2 weeks le== sai. wad can i say. sigh...
Sunday, February 05, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆
hmm ran again today... 22 mins and 200 sit ups... run finish so shuang... it reali keeps ur mind off things... hmm reading oso helps... esp captivating novels... u can forget e time laRh... i got read until 3 o clock in the morn de... haha... was reading this EXTRA sad story and crying at the same time... after dat will feel much better... stimulant to let out the tears man. dats great.
BOUGHT A HANDBAG! haha and its rose/ salmon in colour... nicenicenicenice... corduroy... pretty=D haha and its onli 22.4 bucks... after a discount... hmm... quite a bargain tho its tiny... but i lyk it=D muacks...
royston suggested i get another wilson=( but i ll miss wilson a lot... esp the days i had last yr playing wilson wif u guys. mebbe if wilson is gone, those memories are also gone. mebbe its time to forget the past.
cross country FAMILIARISATION RUN 2molo... WAD THE... eeks... meanie... how can make us run so many times=( i think i ll get lost again... and as usual=( hmm anybudi noes how many stops from hc to mac ritchie?
rmbr the last cross country... played v ball for 2 hours in the hall wif them... haha den went for COMPETITIVE run summore hurhur... i so zai huh... den in the end i came in 33rd cynthia 32nd i think... == the yr b4 she 48 i 49== im destined to be behind her... haha this yr dun hv her le... mebbe can run better=D hmm...
thx to everyone for caring=D haha wini bings royston n even feldmaus, (even tho till now i still dunno who she is?! ><) yea i feel touched! and molested but dats out of point._. HAHA... OH and i graduated wif masters from Roystons University of Lameology=D teehehe...
Saturday, February 04, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆
hmm shall start wif yesterday...
hmm the social judo was crap as usual... sob... hmm onli left me and amanda to move mats u noe... sad case... luckily xiu wei was there to help... hmm thx! lyk reali nice of him laRh cuz we were lyk hving nervous breakdown and screaming at him... den he missed 1/2 hour of guitar to help us move mats... haha hero of the day! yea... SERIOUS! haha den in the end onli had 3 guys... urgh.. no girls... we were lyk teaching breakfalls again laRh. eek in the end sir oso nv cum... and they say wad nxt time they will join guys trng... SO NO MORE FRIDAY TRNGS=D reduced to 4 times a week... mebbe now i ll get a life... hmph.
our class won the prelims of the inter CT tennis tournament! haha jenny jeana frederick and chong guang rock! i stone.. ok dat was out of point but yea=D haha and phei qi reali power sia... WOW... haha... and chong guang slice ball v nicely! ball spin spin spin! hehe but i suck at tennis... rmbr playing once in shanghai... diu jin le suo you de lian=( sob...
den in the end went to lao yu sheng at ke ai ji wif the guys, ping and jiang yue... hmm din even noe ke ai ji had yu sheng laRh... den in the end found out is the auntie SPECIALLY MAKE FOR DEM DE... OMG *faints* the auntie reali luvs the guys man... OMG... haha in the end me and ping got ostracised and sat wif the jr guys... den we were lyk hving er ren shi jie in the pasar malam liddat._. haha... we still had fun tho=D OH AND I BOUGHT A NICE PRESENT FOR MY ANGEL... ok part of it anyway... hmm the guys say not worth it but i think its NICE!=D haha ping agrees too!
haha and ping now has a HP!!!!! omgomgomg=D haha finally her father got the hint man... hmm and she smsed me first! so touched! so touched! I LUV PINGS!=D haha
hmm just go tell her laRh... im running out of smses... reali... SERIOUS! urgh... i think u hv a better chance den HIM=D haha im so nice=D
hmm today was ok laRh... at least the grooming trner was nice=D haha and pretty! she was a ex miss singapore universe! OMG=D haha... hmm and she was wearing a glorious suit and PRETTY HEELS! 4 inch leH! i dun think i ll be able to wear... oso i wear le will be too tall=( sad... haha... went to ke ai ji AGAIN for lunch... omg... hindarto they all chi le 6 nian le. bu xian MEH. urgh. i can tell u im quite sick le... hmph
went jogging after i came home cuz i dun wanna die nxt trng... jogged for 22 mins and did 200 sit ups... hmm not tired leh tho... but i realised dat trng liddat makes u forget abt ur troubles at least for a while. im sad. den i go run. haha dats lyk quite sad. but when u run, u ll feel dat all there is in this world, is this straight road, the music in ur ears from the mp3 and the blue sky above you. haha and there is only one straight road, so all u can do is cont. in this single way. and there s no turning back. lyk life. hoho im getting philosophical=D
haha urgh. i wan a life. i wan my old life back. im sick of this.
i rmbr my first few thot s of life was :" why am i here? i dun wanna be here. why am i alive? i dun wanna exist in this world"... i guess im still feeling this now. i just dun belong. i think onli bings understands me now. onli my teammates are holding me together in one piece now. sigh
Thursday, February 02, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆
hai... today train lyk nv train liddat=( urgh... im lan=( cant throw anyone. cant use a proper technique=( URGH. and my stamina is lan. i shld just disappear.
i dunno why i shld care. wah lao hao xin dang lang fei. wad ever u say man.
today CSP was crap lah. even worse den normally... eeks. but haha we had lollis from miss soh... den lyk 1 row of ppl guang ming zheng da de eating in the LT3._. haha den me and xiu wei were laffing abt the chun jie lian huan wan hui de xiao pins... yi jian mei and stuffs... haha den everyone in front of us were studying econs den our class nobudi study._. sigh... our class==
hmm... I WANNA PLAY V BALL... and i miss wilson... my darling wilson=( when will he cum back huh... i lost him lyk 1 week + ago laRh... WHO WILL BE SO EVIL TO STEAL A DEFENCELESS VOLLEYBALL=( if i noe who stole wilson~~~ *cracks knuckles*
on the way to trng i think i saw victor... THINK... hmm but i was hurrying for trng so i din reali look... but he looks stretched... haha as in longer liao... to think i used to be the same height as him in sec2... hmm he's in NJ i think... wif a lot of ppl lyk sulin ber chok and they all=( miss dem... haiz...
peeps go for AC funorama... get coupons from cindy, yuxing or tingting=D im so nice free advertising summore=D
Wednesday, February 01, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆
hmm toked to u just now... quite amazed to see u... haha... but... quite awkward wasnt it? i rmbr all the old convo werent liddat. we used to be much more enthu, unlike the awkward qn-n-ans session we had. and it was so horribly polite=( sigh i just hv to accept dat its over. haha. mebbe my subconsciousness nv reali accepted dat...
results cuming out on MON! OMGOMGOMG dats lyk SO near=( wails. haha but nothing i can do abt it. sigh.
phew. wad a weird day. my class is gossip king n queens man! ==
