Tuesday, January 31, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆
hmm... today went sirs house to bai nian... omg the tension was lyk slicable laRh... SCARY... haha even tho i had xiaohui pheywa nichola yongkeong jitneng n chaoqun there... but still scary... (wini and yitian oso there but they graduate le so different...) eeks. den in the end spent the time watching la bi xiao xin and gong fu... gong fu i watched lyk ten thousand times liao? haha but still farney... den we oso entertained ourselves playing the eat the muahchee game... we were supposed to close eyes and eat one muah chee den tell the flavour of the muahchee... pheywa is lyk surprising ly zum laRh... haha den chaoqun wanted to try... hmm... haha and we gave him 4 diff flavours and all he guessed was "orange"._. haiyo i noe its new year budden dun need everything oso orange mah... hmph. haha den the last one was the li zi one... den he guessed yam== urgh... wad happened to his taste buds man...
den after dat jitneng left and we went to orchard... went SO FAR to eat laRh... hmm we could hv gone lyk j8... but in the end ate at the food court at taka... haha... we had to kop chairs from everywhere lah... but we so courteous, ask first den take... me xiaohui and yong keong was lyk eating... den we realised dat 2 chairs apparently got dragged off by ppl== wah lao... SIX EYES WATCHING but nobudi saw O_O OMG. so li hai... haha... den had to go wrestle for chairs again... haiz...
zhi hou i think they went coffee bean arh... and me and xh headed for home... hmm... but on the way i decided to go westmall and buy earphones! finally can listen to my MP3 le... awww. i missed it laRh... lyk 3 weeks no mp3 le=( me soo poor thing... *sniffles* haha yea=D phillips earphones! cost me 18.90... but nvm... =D still happy=D
now slacking at home! haha... im bored.=(
Monday, January 30, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆
haha slacking the day off... hmm yesterday got mobbed by 5 little girls... ji yi you xin... OMG it was lyk hell and heaven larh... the girls v cute and cuddly and pretty... but when u put dem together and they start "jiejie-ing" u, u ll wanna run...
haha weiheng is nice to tok to... and
sweet._. hehe
bored... tomolo gg sir s house i think... wif the snr batches... dunno wads gonna happen *gasps* haha den mebbe k box wif the snrs after dat... hmm i still cant sing=( sad... when s my throat gonna get well... i wanna sing... chengyen say he wanna hear me sing... sob... i oso wanna sing... xiaohui oso say wan my original voice back... SOBs...
random: 他心里惦记着旧塔子，脑子里想着筛子，你说这把排你还能胡吗？
Saturday, January 28, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆
a few more hours to cny! =D haha looking forward to it...
hmm... watching cun jie lian huan wan hui now... esp the xiao pin s... hehe...
你是黄瓜，欠拍！hoho... so adorable
this yr ll be different. veri diff. i miss the past. but its over. sigh. ur gone. from my life. and i din even get a chance to say bye.
Friday, January 27, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆
today had cny celebrations in sch... haiz... maluation man for the song performance... i mean nobudi could hear wad we were singing, we couldnt hear wad we were singing, and we din rmbr wad we were supposed to be singing... URGH and the worst part was dat everyone saw it cuz it was the VERI FIRST PERFORMANCE OF THE DAY. yuck.
sumbudi just get me a paper bag. dont hv to have the holes.den for the stall... we did surprisingly well... i was cutting all the apples and pears and doing the flower power thingy... er... all i can say is chocolate is sticky. and er chocy fruit sold well... in the end we made a net profit of 64.5 bucks=D haha the class fund is lyk FULL now=D haha... and hiroshi and zhong ning v li hai=D haha... ya nxt time selling things must ask dem cum=D and poor poor snrs who saw us=D
and LING CAME!!! LINGLING!!! haha so long nv see her, glad dat she still nv change her ah sao ways... hoho=D
oh and we got our batch tees=D pretty pretty pretty=D ya the purple was nicer den wad i tot it would be, and tho the 12 a bit center, but nvm its still nice=D darling teammates, we wear nxt time we go out ok and make the rest jealous cuz even tho they might hv the money, dey dun hv the designers! *hi five PING!=D* and we onli spent 27.5 bucks on self designed shirts=D hairpee=D
apollo fac dance zai!!! esp the third song! i luv it! can we onli do the third song? i lyk it=D but we tied wif ares... hmm nvm good job everyone!
after celebrations over, we went island creamery... hmmm got me jenny jeanna stella liane melvin kaihan jac jas amanda weiwen marilyn xiaohui bernice and er poor weiheng wo was extraed by his class... haha but O_O weiheng ate a 500ml tub of pineapple tart ice creamO_O on an average of 10 s per HUMONGOUS scoop... i was lyk *jaw drop*... haha... and they started playing truth or dare... so i siam=D i siam v fast=D hoho... our class ppl reali quite scandalous...
cheng yen said my angel is a grp of ppl who take turns writing based on one person as the model... but the handwriting is lyk the same laRh... i dunno... mebbe im blur? hoho... most lykly true... hmm nvm valentine s day cuming... mebbe then i ll noe=D
cny! i got new pink t shirt, new yellow polo and new black mini denim skirt from mng=D funky black denim skirt wif golden chain=D luvs it=D hehe... hmm i wan a handbag... i ll see...
ooh and yesterday... haha we gave a carton of milk and the card to carl and the sai and the card to yong keong for their burfdays.... man wad would i give to see their expressions when they saw the presents man... hmm... haha den carl made us a card too... wif a "foto of him"... the folding v cute oso... its lyk a hwachong shirt (uniform wif collar summore=D) but his english... usage of words._. ok
no comments...
i wan a bag. the team bag. WHEN. oh wows. im sick of waiting.
Wednesday, January 25, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆
SICK~~~ urgh.
one thing i can say: the worst thing to be is to be sick AND piss ur mum off. cuz she can dun let u go see doctor lyk mine did. sai. the onli thing i did was go for trng.
am i so shi bai dat when i go for trng, i get pissed off, and i piss my mum off? urgh...
finally survived thru lessons today.. nearly died.. den had to go jurong point for THE STUFF... den i had motion sickness on the bus.. nearly puked *i think its cuz of being sick and the jerky bus*... felt HORRIBLE~~~ haiz... took it twice summore.. cuz must go home... *lyk obviously i dun live in some toilet cubicle in jurong point* but things din go well larh. first cant find the golden and big ___... den cant find stuff toy ___s... so pissed. i mean i see SO MANY ANIMALS. and onli the ___s are missing. urgh. cant say today... mebbe will be back 2molo to fill in the blanks=D all i can say is we're so sweet.
oh and my darling teammates 2molo morning cum to 79 classbench and sign _____ cards hor... =D
i think im gonna hv swollen eyes again... last night coff until cant slp. =(
Tuesday, January 24, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆
im pissed at myself. im disappointed at myself. argh.
went for trng today... hmm my mummy din let me go actually.. cuz i got bad flu... but lyk if i dun go, den thurs fri sat mon and tue all no trng... bu shi jiu mei you train for v long le meh... so i went... but i died... being sick is no reason for me to do so badly for trng. but me sucking at trng is oso no reason for u to tease and suan me. ok. i admit im pissed. but its not my fault i m sick. tho its my fault i suck. sai. nvm its over now. hmm but when i reached home, i got scolded again for gg for trng by my mummy... mebbe i shld go to the doc 2molo. i m convulsively coffing. argh.
one thing i learnt from trng today: the j2s sing BAD. esp chao qun
words spoken cant be taken back.
tears shed have flowed into the sea.
its now too late to do anything but forget.
oh my darlings, u noe dat carl shares the same burfday as yong keong? hmm... so how?
ooh and jonathans burfday is on valentines day! wOw... so romantic sia... haha
SO WHEN R WE GETTING TEAM BAG? WAD ARE WE GETTING FOR TEAM BAG? the gray adidas one? or nike? or reebok? or red bag? ????????? argh. *coffs*
Sunday, January 22, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆
last nite had a disgustingly real nightmare dat had me waking up in cold sweat. worst nightmare man. sigh.
dreamt dat my dad had cancer. i mean *touch wood*. but still it was very real. he came up to me and said dat he onli had 6 months left. couldnt forget the feeling i felt den. lyk a sense of unreal loss. couldnt believe dat it was happening to me. and it also made me remember a lot of things dat daddy did for us and the past.
he took the risk of coming to singapore to work from china. he was first forced to live in horrible conditions: living in a 3 room flat wif 4 other ppl. den after he made enuff money, he sent for me and mummy. i noe i first lived in a rented room of a 3-roomed-flat at taman jurong. it was block 114. den, everytime we used to go to NTUC to buy stuffs. we werent well off den, and everytime, we would chose the cheapest veg on sale. i also din ask for anything for fear dat it would cause distress to my parents... i remember sleeping on the mattress on the floor with my bunny pillow and rainbow blankey... i remember not having friend s or cousins to play with. so i would take my skipping rope out and play at the void deck. i also remember mummy went with me to kindergarden for the first day. i din noe a single word or alphabet of english. and i was scared. dat night i cried and begged my mummy to go with me again the second day. haha i remember.
daddy worked hard at his job and saved up enuff money to buy a 4-room flat at jurong west. i remember mummy and daddy counting a huge stack of $50 bills. i was quite scared dat we wont be able to pay. haha. so innocent then and so young. then. sigh. den we moved into the four roomed flat at jurong west. daddy started earning more. we became more well off. but the days before i ll always remember.
den at the end of last year, daddy decided to quit his job at the company and work on his own. its another high risk. cuz his old salary was quite high, and enuff for us to live on. and there were many dangers of entrepreneuring. and there is also the fact that he isnt all dat young anymore. i remember spending many sleepless nights worrying about the family. but in the end everything still worked out fine. his company is doing well and haha he made loads... =D but there is still a big risk involved in his job. i remember when i was young, i used to worry abt his safety as he was always on planes and ships. esp during dat period of the SQ plane crash. before he left, i would sneak a "lucky charm" into his luggage, hoping dat it would protect him on the way. sometimes it would be my favorite bracelet, sometimes it would just be odds and ends dat he wouldnt notice cuz i din wan him to notice and think me foolish & childish for doing it. but then, i reali felt that my "lucky charms" worked. i tried to make it extra foolproof by wearing the bracelet every minute so that some of my luck would rub off it and then onto my daddy. and when my daddy came home safe and sound, i would retrieve my "luck charm"
i reali was so foolish then. haha. looking back. i wonder. where is that innocent little girl? haha. lost in the midst of life. maybe one day i ll find her back. and give her a hug and say " i missed u"... yea i do miss me.
lets hope dreams dun come thru. i ll rather give up all the nice dreams than let the nightmare come through. i luv u daddy. *i bet he's sneezing in japan._.* and i luv mummy too=D *mebbe she s sneezing in the kitchen ._.*
Saturday, January 21, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆
sigh. SO many ppl get flu. how come im the onli one who loses her/his voice? kns. now i cant hit any note higher den a double low C... sigh. wad can i say? and i cant even tok well now...
average coffing 10 times/min at least. sigh. if this goes on i ll miss monday sch. ARGH.
i shld go see the doc. apparently my granddad think s i got bird flu. == *dats lyk totally encouraging laRh*
STJ farn! me and marilyn spent so much time suaning qukui and chengyan (dunno how to spell)... hoho... in the end they dun need sour sauce for fish le loRh... hehe... and was quite lamified actually=D nicenicenice... JTS will be at essential brew! =D looks forward to it. haha i guess now they are at esplanade... couldnt go cuz dun feel all dat great... *lyk obviously* sigh. nvm
judo trng is now 5 times a week. sigh... hc ppl must think we re crazy; train so much. monday girls bring gi and train. tuesday girls and guys train pt. wednesday guys bring gi and train. thursday girls turn again. den friday everyone brings gi and train. den saturday still hv=( sigh. life sux. if this goes on i ll hv a nervous breakdown soon.
haha realised xiuwei, lyk me and xiao meng, is from dalian!=D so farney... ok nvm... but its lyk quite qiao le loRh. hmm... haha and he used to be the captain of the slack club at hwachong judo._. and now apparently refuses to even join social judo *stares daggers*... hmm... wang en fu yi! ==
lessons oso not dat good laRh. falling aslp during lectures and dun understand wad the tr is toking abt. den oso the trs oso weird weird one... wif weird weird names... i DUN UNDERSTAND WHO WILL WAN TO CALL THEIR DAUGHTER TH*M B*NG B*NG. sai. weird ppl i guess... superbly weird.
feel worse now... lyk coffing 20 times/min now... shui ke lian ke lian wo ba. ha. who will.
Tuesday, January 17, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆
sum one congratulate me... i just managed to injure my shoulder for the 4th time... and this time its the back... ARGH... spent lyk how long trying to un-injure it... now its better. but~~~ haiz... ohnoohnoohnoohno... haiz... thx darling teammates and snrs=D im much better=D and haha jonathan and thomas also v nice... =D thx... today trng was nt dat tough... but dunno... just cant do. sigh. i missed the hopping part cuz my shoulder CMI... i did lyk 2/3 lap out of 3 laps... ><
I HV TO GET 240 BUCKS... for fotocopy and GC... SO BROKE MAN... walao...
eh guys get the bag leh... if not later the snrs say we anti social again... ITS NICENICENICENICE! at least go see before u decide? haha... BROKE MAN
i dun wan to go for lessons. i dun feel so good. sigh. lets develop a fever overnight. im tired. of this.
Sunday, January 15, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆
went jp today...went to look for a bag... AND I FOUND THE
JUDO ADIDAS BAG!!!!!!! OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG... i asked the uncle of the shop den he was lyk "oh i think hv... u wait i go find..." *SCREAMS=D* so harpie... hehehehe... so happy... asking the batch 12 ppl whether they wan.. so we can hv a team bag... =D nicenicenice zaizaizai=D haha so shiok sia=D
and ppl lets go iceskating! me and ping and huiming... er whoever wans just sms me or leave a tag larh... GOGOGOGOGO... outing... and bond further=D
volleyball~~~ i want to play... im ssssoooooooo bored... sigh...
hardoe xh and mare=D haha._.
Saturday, January 14, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆
CONTACTS!!!!! yea so harpie... but still dunno if i can wear... need to go back and check eyes on fri to see if i can cont. to wear... haha hope can~~~ so shiok~
went to the competition today to relieve amanda of her official duties... haha den saw yimin... SHE SAY WO BIAN PIAO LIANG AND BIAN SOU LE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *muacks* yimin totally=D dats wad i ve been hoping to hear=D hoho yimins so nice=D
OUR FLAG WON BEST FLAG! AND GUESS WAD! I DESIGNED IT!!!! MY DESIGN!!! so proud of myself. haha but it was wif everyone s help dat we won=D yea but *screams* still happy=D
SOoooooooooo tired from orientation... sigh sooper hyper den now throat sooper pain~~~ haiz... lessons starting soon. feel weird.
sand grain ~ pebble ~ stone ~ rock ~ boulder ~ hill ~ mountain
even tho ive been in sch for so long, i still dun feel i belong. i noe i wrote this b4. but the feeling s still here... i feel as if im just here for a visit and i ll go back to ny sumday wif my pals from 409. but the 409 now is not the 409 then. everyone has left the shelther of 409 and have moved on to their respective schools and classes. even if i look back, none of them will be waiting there for me anymore. its over. its gone. its nv coming back. and im the onli idiot still holding on and crying into my pillow. oh wells. i shall just continue looking at the old fotos and remember the days we had. im such a melodramatic. sigh.
i miss u. but u forgot me. i shld move on. but im stuck at this position. this sucks.
Tuesday, January 10, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆
ok er i got contacts... er not reali... getting dem on sat.. lets hope the comp on sat starts ard 3... cuz i hv to go learn how to wear contacts and stuffs at 1230... hmmz cant wait=D i was lyk quite pissed loh... i mean my eyes are not very small, but the jie jie keep asking me to open bigger to check my eye~~~ sigh... reminds me of sth rachel said (
u 2 the eyes hen xiang leh... dun ask me who the other person was)
went sch to paint flag today... er ok larh... but din reali look lyk how i envisioned it to be... haha stella was quite surprised when she found out dat i wasnt from general art leh.. hoho so complimentary=D happy=D
i dun noe why am i acting. i mean i dun even noe im acting for who to see? i mean i used to act happy for the sake of the people i love, i care for. now, it seems quite worthless cuz theyre no longer here. haha all this acting is tiring me out. i cant even smile well now. sigh. how did this happen to me? my intuition tells me its because of u, u, u, and u. yea well... stupid u den. ur ruining my life, but i cant get u outta my head. why cant i hv selective memory. or memory loss. mebbe dat ll be so much easier on me. i want u out of my life. but i ll still rmbr u. if onli u nv appeared in my life.
~jun~
Monday, January 09, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆
hai orientation isnt reali farn... all those games r sian... sigh... watery... and ppl unenthu... sigh~~~ dunno larh. feel tired putting up a front.
i dun feel lyk myself. im losing myself. because of u. because of u all. because of life. it sux.
haha yuxing... yea he s an alien... =D
weiyi... i miss u. i miss everyone. sigh. din expect HC life to be liddat. i ll rather lessons started.
shall i change my subj com to pcme (h1 bio) or bcme (h1 phys?)... hmmz i ll think abt it
Saturday, January 07, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆
today had trng... was quite sad. hai. yea sir toked for one hour before we lyk started trng. den was quite surprised when both yingsi and yitian game... din even noe dat yingsi was back... hoho so farn... yup... discovered a new and quicker way of doing tai-otosh... lyk real fast and real dizzy... den by the end of trng i was lyk half dead... i pulled sth in my shoulder again laRh... lyk sad! and this time its the left shoulder. hai. at the end of the trng, we had a tok again larh. just btw the rest of us. and haiz. it was quite devastating tho... hai.. i dunno wad happened to dem larh. i mean i was their sec 2 co. i saw dem hv team bonding every morning. they used to be so motivated, spending their mornings planning for nats. i rmbr the encouraging letters they wrote to me during nats and the spirit they showed at nats. but now, everything changed. i dunno. lets just hope dat its a passing phase. haiz i want dem back. i mean. everything is for the club, for the sense of belonging u feel towards dem. i mean teammates are abt the bestest friends u can hv. truly. yea. so if u dun work for urself, train for dem. and the seniors u luv. yea. im sorry to say i cried. but couldnt reali control, so i wore "red eye shadow" and swollen eyes... sigh. heartbroken~~~
after dat went to eat at coro wif the JC ppl... den wangyu says i look pale. i look brown. im lyk. er im brown wad. dunno but din feel so well... but the guys wanted to go play pool. decided to go cuz i nv went wif dem b4, and also, to fulfil my new year resolution to learn how to play pool. if i dun hv e guts to learn swimming i can at least play pool, right? hoho... er we went bukit timah plaza the mambo. haiz~~~ quite sad. i was feeling quite off colour den, and er i fouled lyk 100000 times... and onli landed 1 cue ball... and is lucky shot i think... poor xiaohui stuck wif me in the grp... we spent lyk how much time on each game laRh... haha i bought chocos for lyk everyone... den ping s aiming today was lyk off larh... so i made her go eat choco everytime she helped xiaohui... (the box was quite empty in the end~~~) hehe... today was fun... shld go another day when im not so gong~~~
I WANNA GO ICESKATING!
dao me ba. i can take it. and gimme any situation. i ll be able to take care of it. but all of these at once? im not omnipotent ok. argh. i hate the _____, i hate the _________, i hate you. fine. shuddup. dun care. just let me disappear. from ur life. im sure u ll lyk dat. stop giving me condescending or fu yan ing looks. i hate dat.
Wednesday, January 04, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆
dao me. ignore me. continue. i dun mind. i dun care. animore. so wad if ur so great. fine. its not as if i did anything to u. wadeva. haha but i still find it immensely difficult to smile in ur presence. u noe its hard to maintain ur smile when sum1 ur toking to lyk dun even give a response and turns away? haha and worse when u noe dat person. heck. i shld just change face or sth. since im so ugly already. wadeva.
im soooo tired. dunno why~~~ sigh... had SAT den er din get in. not dat i was expecting it anyways. but its still disappointing. sigh... wadeva... hmmz... wonder wad class i ll be in. hope
U are in it. hope got ppl i noe in it. lyk amanda, xh (who chose the same subjs as me><) haha... its weird. lyk the reality dat im no longer in ny still hasnt sunk in yet. cuz i dun feel anything, except weird dat is. sigh. ~~~
gg to rest. dunno y im so tired. mebbe its mental stress. argh.
Tuesday, January 03, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆
HO! first day of sch! haha was ok but boring and tiring~~~
haha had A LOT of academic toks... den realised i hv to study tonight for 2molo s SSP test._. hehe dun think i ll get in tho~~~ haha den had ice breakers wif OG grp and dance , cheering n singing._. i dun sing well=( cries... sigh... no choice... haha
xiaohui and amanda say they wanted to go for trng, so wo sha sha de bring shoebag towel n shirt den in the end finish at 445, den they say dun go le... *wails* make me carry so much stuff=(
h3 proteomics and pharmaceutical sciences sound great... hmmz mebbe if i can take den i ll drop phys to take dem... lyk wOw... hoho
181818181818181818181818! hoho... im lame... names i rmbr from today:
amanda (duh)
tong tong (double duh)
joy
kimberly
yen yeen
yong keong (again duh)
benjamin
ronald
jeremy
hongjie
and sum i dun rmbr now._.
er but i onli rmbr names, not face >< OH NO! no use=( *freaks out*
haha im lame. ok shall go STUDY=((( sigh...
bye darlings=D hope u all enjoyed the first day of sch!
Sunday, January 01, 2006 ©~jUn²珺☆
NEW YEAR NEW YEAR! its a NEW YEAR!!! and a new start to life as we noe it.
firstly im VERY pissed. how cum everyone got calls from hc except ME. moi. wo. ich. watashi. wadeva. sigh~~~ i mean i noe im in the same grp as amanda and yong keong but its nice to get a call. its reassuring...
new year resolutions:
-STUDY._.
lyk obviously...-be nice to my brother
i will try my VERY best-try to be less of a introvert den...
-stay cheerful
-learn how to skate PROly...
-learn how to play pool, swimming (
if i can work up the guts to try) and stuffs. who wanna teach? hoho
sigh... feel so~~~ dunno... a year is over. last year was great. most of the time... sigh.. ok i shall not dwell on the past and move on! yea!
lyk its so easy to forget the past. im sure wini will agree with me. sigh.
darlings lets
ROCK N ROLL 2006... ._. im laming myself.
oh btw my IQ is 131._. dats supposed to be highly intelligent. den how cum im so stoopid in managing human relations. argh. fine. school in 2 days.
I WAN DAT EVERLAST LEATHER BAG!
