Music,my rainbow

Tuesday, November 29, 2005 ©~jUn²珺☆

sigh~~~ 2molo got trng camp. nv train for lyk wad then thousand years? haiz... anione who cares can go hospital and see me 2molo... hmmz. can call my house and see wad hospital im admitted to~~~... hoho

haha this was how convo btw me and my mum went just now...

me "妈咪我很闷~~~"

mummy "去找你的朋友玩啊。"

me "..."

hoho and i shut up. wad a great way to shut me up. i think now my mum ye xue hui le. =(

人家都说得那么明显了，如果我在执著，只会作贱自己...

Saturday, November 26, 2005 ©~jUn²珺☆

chalet!!! haha mostly played cards and watched ppl play majong and played MARIA~~~... hmmz reali feel lyk maid... hoho now my knowledge of majong has included 13yao~~~ dots loh... lyk diao... i noe abt it just dunno how to play... hoho... and i also learnt dat jayce is heavy... judging from the way i had to carry her back from the pool... ._. haha ok jk... hope she gets well soon.. mebbe she s dreaming abt the cool life guard wif the nice nice orange tee>< haha...

and we ATE~~~ a lot... hoho.. and biked until butts pain... and slept lyk piggos... and walked to downtown east lyk 10000 times until i was amazed dat we dint walk a trail on the way._. haha... but now v bu she de... once i reached home yester, i was quite depressed. i din realise dat we were parting ways cuz i was too tired den to care. den after dat. it came rushing back to me. =( haiz its all over. guess its time for buh bye.

Monday, November 21, 2005 ©~jUn²珺☆

yesterday i was going thru all my old worksheets and throwing some away... felt shuang but sad at the same time, lyk i was throwing away a part of my past that was never coming back... i found this compo. it was the compo wu lao shi told us to write abt 毕业的骊歌响起了... i felt quite amazed wif myself for writing this cuz im sure i dint feel all those then, but its exactly wad im feeling now...

《走进课室，只觉得四周的空气凝固了似的，像浓雾般环绕在我们身旁。

“时光一去永不回，往事只能回味”。四年，一晃眼便从我们的身边流逝过去。毕业的骊歌声响起了，四年的中学生涯已经向我们挥手道别了。那时的欢乐，悲伤全已离我们远去了。现在的我们也只能回忆那些时光，与感叹岁月无情了。

踏进门口后，我第一眼先见到她。她整个人僵住了，一动也不动的坐在椅子上望着我。

“你怎么了？”我关切地问。

“最后一次了。”她最终只勉强地突出五个字。

突然，她扑进我坏了，几乎崩溃的号喊着：“怎么办？我不想和你们分开！”说罢，她的泪水便如黄河破缇似的涌出，迅速地浸透了我的衣服。

“不要这样吗，以后我们还是会常见面的！”我故作轻松地哄着她。谁又知道我正是“笑在面上，苦在心里？”谁又会知道我的悲伤？

这个班上的每个分子都是我的精神支柱:失落时，曾一起流泪，烦恼时曾一起分担，搞形式一起大声欢呼。这儿储存了我整整四年的回忆，叫我如何舍得放手？》

《分手的时刻到来了。她哭了。她一向都是班上最坚强的，也不善于表达自己。她会先哭，我真的觉得满惊讶的。但相信被烟云遮蔽起来的大山也会有春夏秋冬，表露真情的时候吧！》

《我们都有话说，但却也一个字都说不出口。我眼睁睁地见着朋友们的影子渐渐消失在人海中，但自己的身子像僵住了似的，仿佛她们在我的心肠上面系了一条绳子，走一步，扯一下，牵着我的心肠阵阵作痛。》

hmmz i noe i quite drama.. but its true. some feelings i may not show, and you may not noe. but its there. and will be there. whether you lyk it or not. i miss u~~~

Sunday, November 20, 2005 ©~jUn²珺☆

four years of studying for one teeny weeny exam. and now its over... now i got mo ming de chong dong to go thru dat again. to see once again the faces of my friends whom i walked with this whole long way. i want to say sorry to some and thank you to some. but for u i dun think i ll get a chance anyway...

harry potter~~~~~~~~~~~~ haha this is lyk the 3rd movie i watched this year? or sth liddat... was constantine this year? hmmz if so den constantine was the first, and we found weiteng s bag being part of the "cast" ><, the second being fantastic four, which ended fantastically fast and caught me completely off guard cuz i din even noe it ended until the credits started flashing, and lastly harry potter and the goblet of fire... hai~~~ malfoy is SO shuai... bian shuai le... but dun hv many show parts... =( sad~~~ and the part where cedric died... SAD~~~ the dad was lyk heartbroken. i hate to see people heartbroken... so i cried under my jacket... haha... oops. but yea i think i ll find a way to buy the DVD... hoho... if i can... hmmz

i think im siao... all i ate yester was a tuna sandwich, 1 pack of heinously salty fries from games city and 1 pack of onion rings from burger king. no wonder my stomach was screaming... hmmz... now suffering from the aftereffects of not eating... PAIN~~~

©~jUn²珺☆

Wednesday, November 16, 2005 ©~jUn²珺☆

hmmz i had another weird dream wif u all inside again... keep hving weird dreams... and how cum u are always the baddy in my dreams and U r the good one... *thinks* conclusion: its the mystery of the year... hmmz mebbe slping wif fei mao is bad for the health... who noes one day i might spew out a fur ball from fei mao._.

my mummy was complaining dat my bed looks even worse den a pigsty den how do i find place to slp... den im lyk my half of the bed is clean wad... den my mum was lyk so who occupies the other half? den im lyk oh during the day its the books, bags, clothes, tidbits, feimao and my pillows. den at night is my feimao and my cutie-bunny-print-baby-pillow... hah dat shut my mum up.

Tuesday, November 15, 2005 ©~jUn²珺☆

happy burfday chauting!

hmmz mebbe the pressure s catching up wif me (yea RIGHT...) but i keep hving weird dreams especially last night s...

i dreamt dat there was a carnival.. in which everyone was there... den u did sth. and i cried. haha lyk lame right. but true. den u din care and walked away. to play and tok wif others... i noe there were a lot of ppl ard me consoling me. den i shunned everyone. then U came... U consoled me. den there was this performance cuming on. i told U dat im fine and asked U to go back to watch the performance and tok to others. den U suddenly rmbred dat U had to go sumwhere for Ur dad or sth. U said sorry and ran off... i rmbr dat U were wearing a big orange shirt. (HURRAY FOR ORANGE!) den i went for the shopping part of the carnival and i spent my time looking for a present for peijin... hmmz weird huh...

dunno. i normally forget dreams but this dream, i rmbred clearly da part which U came. i still rmbr... nv gonna forget. thx for being there. even in my dreams. even tho it wasnt real.

hmmz i realised dat i can even think in my dreams... i noe i thot abt wad was happening clearly b4 i said anything... eeks... freaky... hah. aniwae this kinda dreams dun cum frequently at least... heng arh...

i dun wan our friendship to end. i wan our friendship to be made of diamond. cuz the onli thing dat is eternal is a diamond. (haha the part abt a diamond being a girl's best friend oso dusen hurt... hehee...)

也许我在你的生命中只是一个过渡客，一个没有留下任何影响的过渡客。但是这个过渡客却因为曾经在你生命中逗留过，即使只有短短的一段日子，也会满足。

我学会知足了。

好像是如此吧...

Saturday, November 12, 2005 ©~jUn²珺☆

好想好好爱你

我口袋里还有你给的温馨
我的手心还有你吻的气息
低低的云让想念的人喘不过气
而你的背影会在哪里平静
跟踪记忆我才能和你接近
除了可惜眼泪没有声音
有一些人容易动情也容易忘情
我爱过了你心永远在那里
好想好好爱你
这一句话只能藏成秘密
关上窗外的雨反覆碰触你爱过的痕迹
好想好好爱你
却没有权利再把你抱紧
从今以后如果你能快乐
就别管我想
你想对你说 you're always be my love
我还是好想你

©~jUn²珺☆

好想好好爱你

Friday, November 11, 2005 ©~jUn²珺☆

歌曲：红豆
歌手: 王菲

还没好好的感受雪花绽放的气候我们一起颤抖会更明白什么是温柔还没跟你牵著手走过荒芜的沙丘可能从此以後学会珍惜天长和地久有时候有时候我会相信一切有尽头相聚离开都有时候没有什么会永垂不朽可是我有时候宁愿选择留恋不放手等到风景都看透也许你会陪我看细水长流还没为你把红豆熬成缠绵的伤口然後一起分享会更明白相思的哀愁还没好好的感受醒著亲吻的温柔可能在我左右你才追求孤独的自由有时候有时候我会相信一切有尽头相聚离开都有时候没有什么会永垂不朽可是我有时候宁愿选择留恋不放手等到风景都看透也许你会陪我看细水长流...

Thursday, November 10, 2005 ©~jUn²珺☆

so wad. i am 170. so wad if im fat and i look shorter den i am. so wad if im fat. my WHOLE family says dat. i dun need all my friends and classmates to say dat too.

haha its not my fault dat im so unlykable. if it werent me today, im sure u would hv said sth. but instead i saw ur smile vanish. great. hahahaha. fine.

"dang ou 就活在我心里面，你真么可以把他叫醒，然后又不理他呢？"

Wednesday, November 09, 2005 ©~jUn²珺☆

刚才突然感到很无助... 打给了十多个人, 却没有一个人接听电话... 我顿时发现, 真正的发现了，没有人可以永远地陪着我。只有我自己才会陪伴着我度过余生。

明白了这一点, 突然觉得很寂寞。交了这么多朋友，希望可以减少孤单的感觉，但是看起来，我错了。彻底的错了。

孤单...

好孤单...

found this abt my horoscope leo...

"plus side:
Your sunny disposition is always a happy sight! You are fun and playful and enjoy being around people who are exciting. You always liven up a party and you make a great cheerleader for your friends! You are the first to say, "You can do it!" or "Wow! You did a great job!" You are also ambitious and know you must work hard so you can play hard!

flip side:
You like to be noticed! While it's often a good thing to stand out in a crowd, you sometimes get pouty if you feel that others don't appreciate what you have done. You give a lot of praise to others, and you expect it back in return! Don't get your feelings hurt if they don't gush over how wonderful you are... inside they know you are terrific!

likes:
-being active
-sincere compliments
-fashionable clothes
-being outside

dislikes:
-being bored
-being laughed at
-last year's trends
-being cooped up

your element is fire
your colour is orange and yellow
your gemstone is cat's eye
your animal is lion
your planet is the sun"

freaky... the highlighted parts r lyk totally ME... haha

hoho had ss today... hmmz... hate da sbq loh... dunno wad they asking for dunno wad i writing dunno wad i wrote in the end dunno wad i ll get... ARGH...

hmmz haha but im proud of myself... i made do loci wifout a compass! teheehee...

oh and i realise rachel is sadist judging by the stories she tell me... hmmz... laffing at scab on the ground *gasps* muahahaha~~~

oh and we have a cha ban sheng, neo weiteng! cuz apparently she got kicked out of IP and have ter join us for Os so she came this morning to our class><>< always miss bus... hmph

ok these are mean... but haha farney! *cracks up*

Any similarity between you and a human is purely coincidental!
Anyone who told you to be yourself couldn't have given you worse advice.
As an outsider, what do you think of the human race?
Calling you stupid would be an insult to stupid people.
Do you want people to accept you as you are or do you want them to like you?
Don't you have a terribly empty feeling - in your skull?
Don't you need a license to be that ugly?
Every girl has the right to be ugly, but you abused the privilege!
Go ahead, tell them everything you know. It'll only take 10 seconds.
Have you considered suing your brains for non-support?
He is living proof that man can live without a brain!
Hi! I'm a human being! What are you?
I don't know what makes you so stupid, but it really works!
I don't think you are a fool. But then what's MY opinion against thousands of others?
I heard you got a brain transplant and the brain rejected you!
I heard you went to have your head examined but the doctors found nothing there.
I would ask you how old you are but I know you can't count that high.
I'll never forget the first time we met - although I'll keep trying.
I'm busy now. Can I ignore you some other time?
I've seen people like you before, but I had to pay admission!
If I ever need a brain transplant, I'd choose yours because I'd want a brain that had never been used.
If ignorance is bliss, you must be the happiest person alive.
If we were to kill everybody who hates you, it wouldn't be murder; it would be genocide!
If your brain was chocolate it wouldn't fill an M&M.
Keep talking, someday you'll say something intelligent.
So, a thought crossed your mind? Must have been a long and lonely journey.

©~jUn²珺☆

hur... cool lines huh...

"if you were ice cream and i were hot chocolate, i'd pour all my love onto you."

"if i could rearrange the alphabets, i'd put U and I together."

"is your father a terrorist? cause you're the bomb."

"your father must be a drug dealer, cause you're dope"

"are you alright? cause heaven is a long fall from here."

"do you have a band-aid? i skinned my knee when i fell for you."

"you've got something in your eye. oh never mind, it's just a sparkle."

"sorry. i was checking your tag to see if you were made in heaven"

"baby, you must be tired, cuz you've been running through my mind all day."

"do you believe in love at first sight, or do i have to walk past again?"

haha today had a fun experience wif my mum... found roxy and quiksilver tees for $10 bucks++ den billabong racers for ard da same price and billabong surf shorts for $19.90 O_O... haha the shirts look ok lah... but the pictures a bit fake... den shorts all got the ridiculous rectangular cut... and come in sizes 36 and 38 inches... and im lyk... stares... i can wear those? haha so farney...

den on the way back in the car... my brother was lyk reciting:" a hundred dollars is equal to one thousand cents... a thousand dollars is equal to one million cents..." i reali dunno whether to pity or throttle my brother's math teacher... poor poor me den... hmmz mebbe i shld be in charge of my brother's finances... den i can take the difference... HUR...

ur disgusting u noe. im reali tempted to do a harai on u... and den see u flying... ARGH... sry master Jigoro Kano but im reali tempted to do dat... even bodily harm... to YOU